Commitment
What if they say they love you too but they don’t want commitment for now?
You deserve who you love not me I'm a bad person as they know
What if they say they love you too but they don’t want commitment for now?
I can’t do anything right. He always pops in my mind and I can’t stop thinking about him.
I think I’ve built a very convenient Persona for myself to get by this world. Everywhere I go, Every group of people, or everyone that I met, I know what they see me but not in me, they find I’m a very polite, friendly, good manner person. I know this, because that is all my persona shows them. But their instincts would tell them to be care to approach me with their good intentions, maybe it’s a friendship or love. Their instincts would tell them, I’m not just they see, there are something more beneath that. And it’s right, I’m hiding myself under this forged amour because I can’t be who I actually want to be. How I was treat from a very young age had traumatized me to be myself. I’ve lived my life forged with lies that I tell myself, that now it makes me terrified to unfold the truth. Now at the end of everyday, I feel so empty, like an empty void that can’t never be filled. I named this “empty bin”, because that’s just how I am, loud but empty. I’m tired of this life. Even though I know life is pain and suffering, but how I still couldn’t get used to if? And it’s even more tragic if you live a life with full of self-deception. lately, all I could think of is, how to die and leave no pain to everyone around me. “How should this empty bin should leave?…”
Memories seemed to be faded as the time flew without stopping a single second, out of the blue, we started to chat with each other again. it'd been many year since we last talked to each other. first of all, I just want to know if you are fine, healthy, and happy with your boyfriend even though I feel that you guys have already broken up. As before you're still the most hardworking girl ( i should say woman yet I still find you still a girl who didn't know your own limit). my feeling for you is still over here even though we have already broken up for many years, I wonder and always ask myself are you still have feelings for me as before? but my feeling told me that you had already moved on and prepared to be successes woman who didn't depend on others. Everything has changed yet my feeling still stay. I'm standing from here wishing you success on your journey and being able to find your true happiest with the right partner who stays there with you through every situation. ^_^
Write tang sunday title : me and her, the never ending circle.
I saw a lot of confession is all about people ghosting tho... And you guys are shy to ask them. Well, to me, I had been in that situation (I am the ghost). The problem was that, I didn't know what happen around me back then. I felt the urge to be isolated from other people and just to stay alone. I bottled up my emotions all alone. Well my advice is to ask that person if there's sth you could help. :)
អ្នកសប្បាយចិត្តណាស់ អ្នកបង្ហាញថាមានភាពកក់ក្តៅ ពេញចិត្តគេណាស់ បង្ហាញថាគេស្រឡាញ់និងទទួលយកអ្នកជាអ្នក។ តែអ្នកភ្លេចគិតហេីយថាគេស្គាល់ គេទទួលយកអ្នកនៅពេលដែលអ្នកល្អប្រសេីរហេីយ អ្នកមានសម្ភារះនិយម មានផ្ទះថ្មី មានម៉ូតូឡាន មានបទពិសោធន៏ពីមនុស្សម្នាក់ដែលអ្នកបោះបង់ចោល។ អ្នកកែប្រែដេីម្បីគេ វាល្អហេីយព្រោះមកពីស្រឡាញ់ទេីបកែប្រែដេីម្បីបន្ត។ តែអ្នកក៍គួរតែចាំដែរថា អ្នកណាដែលទទួលយកអ្នកពេលមិនទាន់មានអ្វីទាំងអស់។ អ្នកណាស៊ូទ្រាំជាមួយអ្នកទោះមានឧបសគ្គរារាំង តាមពង្រាត់។ មានរឿងលំបាក អន់ចិត្ត ក៍មិនចោលអ្នក មិនមែនធ្វេីដោយបង្ខំចិត្ត ធ្វេីដេីម្បីចងចិត្ត រឺ ចេះតែទ្រាំៗព្រោះស្រឡាញ់មកយូរ តែធ្វេីហេីយនិងទ្រាំចេញពីចិត្ត ព្រោះមានគោលដៅ មានសន្យា មានពាក្យសម្តីថានឹងស្រឡាញ់គ្នាសាងអនាគតជាមួយគ្នា។ អ្នកគិតថាបាក់ទឹកចិត្តជាមួយខ្លួនឯងបោះបង់គេចោល ជូនពរគេអោយជួបមនុស្សល្អជាងអ្នករួចហេីយចប់? ពេលល្អប្រសេីរ ទៅស្គាល់មនុស្សថ្មី ស្រឡាញ់មនុស្សថ្មី មេីលថែគេ បង្ហាញក្តីស្រឡាញ់អោយគេ មានច្រេីនទៀត ធ្វេីល្អដាក់អ្នកថ្មីបែបនេះហេីយចប់? រួចខ្លួន? ប្រេីទ្រឹស្តី life need to move on? មានដែលគិតពីអារម្មណ៍មនុស្សម្ខាងទៀតអត់? អ្នកធ្វេីបាបចិត្តមនុស្សដែលកំពុងហេីយតែងតែស្រឡាញ់អ្នកខ្លាំង អ្នកបោះបង់គេចោលកណ្តាលទី។ អ្នកអេីយទោះមិនមែនជាអ្នកមានគុណរបស់អ្នក តែការអោយតម្លៃ ទឹកចិត្តស្រឡាញ់ មិនចាញ់លោកអ្នកមានគុណទាំង2 របស់អ្នកទេ។ អ្នកអេីយគួរដឹងហេីយចាំថាអ្នកហែលឆ្លង ទឹកចិត្តដែលស្រឡាញ់ ទឹកភ្នែកដែលអ្នកធ្វេីអោយហូរនេះមិនផុតទណា។ មិនមែនចេះតែបន្លាច ចេះតែថាទេ ខ្ញុំនៅតែស្រឡាញ់ បន់អោយអ្នកជួបតែរឿងល្អ តែកម្មពារមានពិតណាអ្នក វាសងភ្លាមៗនៅជាតិនេះឯង។
I know we no longer belong to each other, but I miss you, always have missed you, and always will miss you. I don’t know why it is so easy for you to move on, to forget about us, but I don’t want to be like you. I want to keep our memories in my head as long as possible , I won’t try to forget about us, because those are the memories I adore the most. I wish you had cared a little more about my feelings, if you did, maybe we wouldn’t be strangers today. You always blamed me when we argued, calling me childish , never once reflected on your actions . Never knew how much you hurt me, or maybe you did know, you just chose to not care. Because, after all , maybe I’m not that special to you. I love you a lot , a lot that I’d take you back the second you tell me you miss me. To the person I wish loved me more , #R