Being ghosted

I used to be mad. I used to look back and wonder where I went wrong, and took all the blame. I wondered why would you ghost me like I never mattered. One day our friendship was flourishing–filled with laughter and late-night text messages and venting–the next, it was gone. I used to wished that our long/ funny conversation will come back. It hurts to know that we used to be so close, and now it’s like I don’t know you at all. I feel as though you don’t want me anymore. What do we all talk about, do we talk about past things to catch up on, or do we just act like no time has passed?. We’re not as close as we were before. There are days when I am so happy and that the person I want to talk to you is you. I want to tell you every detail, the entire story, and I want you to listen. There are other days where that high isn’t there when I feel low, and I just want you there to listen or to talk about anything else. Those days are when I miss you the most.There are some secrets that I could never tell another person, but I can easily tell you. Some days I wonder if we will ever be that kind of friends again. Sure, I look back and still smile on the times that we have had, the moments we had shared, the jokes, the laughter that filled our friendship. I have no idea how you feel about our friendship right now. But I am here, in case you make that step back. I am also here, wishing nothing but the best for you: laughter, that all your dreams come true, and all the happiness in the world. I’d like to let you know that our friendship meant everything to me. Thank you for the good memories that you leave behind. I hope wherever you are, you’re happy with yourself. I hope you have found peace with your problems–the people who had hurt you in the past. I hope you finally find something you love and let it consume you. I hope you find a guy who truly treats you the way you deserve.

Feeling bottled up?

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Number 11 becomes my fav cos it’s the time I keep checking if you’re still awake like I am, if you are thinking of me like I am; it shows that I still care for you even before or after that 11 number, or maybe it’s just an excuse that I make to lie to myself that only when the short and long hand of the clock point to 11 is the time I think about you, when actually I’m thinking about you every hour which I can barely say the word hour cos every second seems so long let alone an hour, when actually I’m waiting for the time to arrive at 11 again so that I can lie to myself again that I only think of you at this 11:11. #lovefailed

Thank you grief counselor

My family that had been torn apart by sadness. My parents had lost my youngest sister to a tragic accident: drown in a river, and they were both struggling to cope with the loss. They found it difficult to talk about their feelings and to support one another through the grieving process. The older siblings were also struggling with their own sadness and guilt. They had always been protective of their younger sibling and felt responsible for what had happened. They found it hard to talk to their parents about their feelings as well, as they didn't want to burden them further. As time passed, my family began to drift apart. We stopped communicating and became distant from one another. We dealt with their sadness in our own way and didn't know how to come together as a family. It wasn't until we sought help from a grief counselor that things began to improve. The counselor helped them to open up about their feelings and to communicate with one another. They learned that it was okay to feel sad and that it was important to support one another through their grief. Slowly but surely, my family began to heal. We started to talk more openly about their feelings and to support one another through their sadness. We knew that they would never fully get over our loss, but we also knew that they could find happiness and joy in their memories of their loved one. My family was stronger for having gone through the sadness together. We learned that it was okay to lean on one another for support and that it was important to talk about their feelings. We knew that we would always miss their youngest child, but we also knew that they could find hope and happiness in the love we shared as a family.

Living a quiet life in a loud world

I think the older I get, the more comfortable I’m getting with me being on my own. Most of the time I spend time with the same people. It’s not like I don’t like getting to know new people, at all actually, but I think I just don’t want people to be disappointed once they really get to know me, because I think to most people, my life would look pretty boring to be honest.

Me and her, the never ending circle

It’s easy to find someone who is pretty, rich, smart, smell good, nice figures, doll-like face, academic success, business oriented mind, hard working, considerate, helpful, charming, unbeatable spirit, sassy and down to earth. But at the end of the day IT IS NOT YOU. I drive down all different roads but they all lead back to you and I am sorry to everyone who came across me all of these time at the end i tried to turn you guys into her and I failed pathetically. So for one last time I know i came back way too late to you, too late to realize that no one will ever be able to be like you, too late to realize what we used to have is a the only and last genuine thing in my life. please make this work even I have to made a deal with a devil. Because at the end of the day everyone gonna hurt me Atleast I want the blade that stabs me to be yours. I love you I hope the alternate version of us would never go through the same hell we did ❤️

Thank you

Dear admin, I wrote 'Feeling and reason are at war'. I am writing now to let you know that I am just here to free my mind like you offer. You dont need to post it up on the page, I just hope there is someone who can read what is on my mind. Thank you and I really appreciate your offer.

Tired of relationship

ខ្ញុំនិងមិត្តស្រីរបស់ខ្ញុំបានស្គាល់គ្នាជិត៤ឆ្នាំហើយ។ ពួកយើងកម្រឈ្លោះទាស់ទែង និងមិនដែលមានភាពមិនស្មោះត្រង់នឹងគ្នាឡើយតែមួយរយៈនេះ (ប្រហែល១ឆ្នាំ) ខ្ញុំមានអារម្មណ៏ថាទំនាក់ទំនងរបស់យើងឃ្លាតឆ្ងាយពីគ្នា និងមានអារម្មណ៏ថាហត់នឿយ ហើយពេលខ្លះក៏មានអារម្មណ៏ថាស្នេហានេះសោះកក្រោះមិនដូចពេលមុន។ ខ្ញុំបានឲគ្រប់យ៉ាងដែលខ្ញុំមានឲនាងអស់ហើយ អ្វីដែលខ្ញុំចង់បានគឺការយកចិត្តទុកដាក់ពីនាងដូចគ្រាមុនតែប៉ុណ្ណោះ។

I deserve to be loved!

Sometimes I just want to get the feeling of love from someone because I never receive that at all. 😶 when you love someone and they never love you back and it’s hurt so bad it’s been twice for me already and actually I never been in any relationship

#HLVT Ur happiness also mine <3

Thanks for always taking a good care of me Thanks for always stay by my side when time get hard Thanks for understanding me Thanks for loving me Thanks for everything U’re the best . Yet u leaving me now and I still didn’t know how to move on yet . IF leaving me made you feel good , DO IT baby . I pray for ur happiness everyday and night . I’m glad by Seeing you happy even with or without me 🙂