i really hate myself for doing things out of my own control sometimes. my red flag always chasing people away because they cannot handle it. my relationship end because of that, my few talking stages end also because of that. really hate myself for being a major problem here!
Do you really love me or you are just lonely? How long are we going to stuck here? Being more than friends but less than relationship? have you ever think of wanting to commit to this relationship? How about y'all? have you been in the situation? What did you do? Did it end in a good or bad way? How long should I wait more? Should i end it now?
I might say that this was a love at first sight for me since I first saw her I fell in love with her eyes and everything about her. Staying and chatting with her feel so right. Is it just me feeling this way about her? I would skip everything just to wait for her although we have only a little time to spend with each other. I am not so sure about myself if I could be a good or the right one for her, but I would still love to stay by her side and do everything just to make her happy. I was actually telling her how I feel by putting it into jokes. was it a good idea to do it? To be honest, this time I wanna ask her to be my GF, but I couldn't do it. I have no courage to do so. Why? because I'm scared of getting rejected that she might not feel the same way like I did.
ខ្ញុំធ្លាប់បាននិយាយថាឈប់ស្រលាញ់ហើយ ឈប់នឹកហើយ ស្អប់មុខណាស់មិនចង់ឃើញទេ តែតាមពិតទៅមាត់ខុសពីចិត្ត ខ្ញុំនៅមានកូនចិត្តមួយដែល គិត ខ្វល់ នឹក ចង់អោប ចង់ផ្ញើសារទៅលេង តែមិនអាចព្រោះខ្លាចរំខាន, ចង់ដឹងណាស់ថាមាននឹកខ្ញុំទេ តែបន្តិចក៏អស់ចិត្ត... to #K
I almost contacted you again, but everytime I almost did, I remembered how we're nth to each other. Everytime I almost did, I scrolled through our chats and I saw how pathetic I was. Almost begging for your love. Everytime I almost did, I remembered how you would let me go back home alone. How you had time for everyone else but never for me. How you forgot everything you said. How you told me you would do this and that for me but you never did. Every little things you said you would do. It's the details that matters and show me how much you love me. Turned out I couldn't feel the love at all. I remembered how hopeless and broken I felt to see you never want to give me the title, to never want to commit into the relationship, to never think of us. It was the last straw that broke me. Broke us. They said loving someone too much will make them stop appreciating you, I guess that's true. I gave up my pride for you for so many times. Let's keep this last one for myself. Take care.
Faking your care toward someone is the cruelest thing you can do.
Please don’t love with someone else.
ពួកយើងបានស្គាល់គ្នារយៈពេលបីខែហើយក៏ចាប់ផ្ដើមជជែកគ្នាលេងពេលដែលគាត់មានបញ្ហាអ្វីគាត់តែងតែមកនិយាយជាមួយខ្ញុំហើយពួកយើងក៏បានជួយគ្នាដោះស្រាយបញ្ហាមិនយូរប៉ុន្មានពួកយើងក៏បានក្លាយជាសង្សារនិងគ្នាតែងតែនិយាយនឹកគ្នាគ្រប់ពេល បន្ទាប់មកពួកយើងក៏បានជួបគ្នាគាត់ជាមនុស្សពូកែលេងសើចច្រើនពេលនៅក្បែរគ្នាគាត់តែងតែធ្វើឲ្យខ្ញុំរីករាយគាត់តែងតែលេងហ្គីតានិងច្រៀងអោយខ្ញុំស្តាប់រហូតពេលនោះគាត់បានធ្វើអោយស្គាល់អារម្មណ៍រីករាយម្ដងទៀតតែបន្ទាប់ពីយេីងទាក់ទងគ្នាបានមួយខែខ្ញុំបានដឹងថាគាត់នៅនឹកសង្សាចាស់របស់គាត់ពេលនោះខ្ញុំមានអារម្មណ៍ភ្ញាក់ផ្អើលណាស់ទាំងមិនដឹងថាគាត់មានគេទេតែគាត់បាននិយាយថាគាត់បានបែកគ្នាហើយតែគាត់នៅនឹកគេម្តងៗទេគាត់ក៏សុំទោសខ្ញុំសុំឱកាសខ្ញុំក៏បានផ្ដល់ឱកាសឲ្យគាត់ព្រោះខ្ញុំគិតថាប្រហែលមិនអីទេគេគ្រាន់តែជាអតីតមួយសប្ដាហ៍ក្រោយមកក៏មានរឿងនេះកេីតឡើងទៀតគាត់បាន Mention សង្សារចាស់របស់គាត់ខ្ញុំក៏បានឃើញហើយខ្ញុំស្ទើរតែមិនជឿថាវាកេីតឡើងទៀតពេលនោះខ្ញុំបាននិយាយថាអត់អីទេបេីបងស្រលាញ់គេនឹកគេមកទៅរកគេមកវិញទៅគាត់បានឆ្លើយតបថាបងអត់ទៅវិញទេបងស្រលាញ់អូនគ្រាន់តែអារម្មណ៍បងឆ្កួតមួយពេលទេគាត់សុំឧកាសជាលើកចុងក្រោយនិងមិនអោយកេីតឡើងទៀតទេខ្ញុំក៏បានផ្ដល់ឱកាសលើកចុងក្រោយអោយគាត់ម្តងទៀតស្អែកឡើងពួកយើងក៏បានទៅញាំអីជាមួយគ្នាពេលនោះគាត់យកចិត្តទុកដាក់និងខ្ញុំលេីសមុនធ្វើអោយខ្ញុំគិតថាប្រហែលវាមិនអីទេបេីតែដល់យប់ឡើងខ្ញុំឆាតទៅគាត់ក៏មិនតបខលទៅក៏មិនលើកខ្ញុំមានអារម្មណ៍ចាប់ផ្តើមប្លែកចិត្តមួយថ្ងៃក្រោយមកទៀតទើបខ្ញុំដឹងថាគាត់បានត្រូវគ្នាជាមួយសង្សារចាស់គាត់វិញខ្ញុំមិនខឹងគាត់ទេតែគ្រាន់តែមិនអស់ចិត្តហេតុអ្វីមិនបានមួយម៉ាត់សោះស្ងាត់ឈឹង
If you ask me, it breaks me in million of pieces trying to say " No, it's the end between us." I badly wish you were the right one, who came in the right time. But being in a relationship with you really make doubt if it was not a mistake. It's silly, but it has be admitted that loving you each and every cost the loss of myself. I have felt the loss and miserable self for a long time ago before I finally asked for closure. Tbh, loving didn't make me feel exited to discuss about our future at all. Instead, I spent most of the time trying to figure how to detach myself from you. I questioned how can I unlove you. The only thing I felt was falling for you too deep that I still wanted your love while knowing I was being ignored and mistreated for many times. I was trying my best to fight with my heart, and let the love go. I did give you chances, too. But you ruined them yourself. You came and ask for the last one??? No, darling. NOT AGAIN. You know when you go against your conscientiousness, ego, pride to admit that you should have said "I will try to change for you." on the night be broke up, I went through sadness again. Why? I have to keep my answer unchanged even though I badly want to be in love with you. I was afraid to love you again, to lose myself again, to know that hurt me again, and still love you. I was so scared. What if I started to never recognise my worth, and blindly love you again? What if it happened again? I don't know if I could save myself one more time if I let you in my life for the last time. I wish you know how to love me. Just a little bit more. That could have been enough for us... I'm sorry! But you're late to do so.