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Under the mask of this cheerful person, there a thousand of things that no one could see! She's been hiding and just keeping thing to herself because she don't want to bother others and afraid that no one will listen to her. She has been asking for help but no one can see it because people only notice the cheerful her, while inside there million of pieces that been broken. She feel so helpless and mentally drained. She hate herself for being so cheerful and bright even thought thing is not okay for her.
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i feel so desperate. everything around me makes me felt unloving and insecure. im begging for love rn. my family isn’t all sunshine and rainbows it’s feel like im living in hell. everyone around me shame me accused me for what i haven’t done. my dad said that he would just kill me then walk into jail cuz he’s disappointed for having a child like me. once my mother said just go die she’ll just be sad for a couple of weeks then she’ll be fine. its hard to take in and ik ppl may have gone through the same but its really hurtful. i also thought maybe i just live for one person and thats my gf but everyday i felt like i was begging her to love me i try try so much. i loved one person enough for them not to love me back. i failed as a son, as a boyfriend, as a person in overall. when will they realize or will they ever see my worth? should i commit suicide? help me im so trapped there’s more im just giving a glimpse of my suffering:>
To you my priority, since the day you left, I’m certain that I’m not the same person as I used to be. I’m sure that my feeling right now isn’t okay and it hurts me the most. I wanted to let you know that, you’re the only one who made me know what love is, you’re the only one who made me feel warm and secure while I was with you, you’re the only one that my love for you is still the same since our first day until now, you’re the only one whom I have any plans for the future. All of the sacrifices, efforts, and times that I put in, I didn’t expect anything in return, other than your love and dedication. I did everything just to make you feel that you’re the only one that got all of those things from me, not everyone else. I did everything just to make you feel happy, warm, and comfortable. I’ve never stopped daydreaming about how I’m going to build my life, buy my first house, first car with you, and marry you one day. You know what? I see you every two weeks, and when I return home I feel as if I've lost something that no one or nothing can replace. I had the feeling that I was leaving something behind that would never come back. I miss you, I'm upset, I didn’t want to return home, and I want to spend the rest of my life with you. You’re the only one, when I’m having fun and all I could think of is what if you were right here with me? I’d go on trips and while living in the moment, I allowed my imaginations to get ahead of me and I was able to picture you beside me and I got that feeling of “how nice would it be for you to be here with me”. To me, you’re perfect. To me, you’re beautiful as always in my eyes. I’m grateful you came into my life, I’m grateful for everything you’ve done for me. My love for you hasn't changed, and no one can take your place in my heart, my mind, and my brain. And I’m so sorry for what I’ve done to you. Sorry that I can’t keep you by my side. I’m still hoping everyday that you will come back to me again. You’re special to me. I’m so proud to have you in my life. I want to spend the rest of my life with you. Your photo is still in my wallet, and your picture is still on my lock screen wallpaper. I wrote these letters with a song that I used to sing for you, When you’re home - Tyler Shaw. It’s 3AM now and I’m still thinking about you. I hope you will come back to me! #NL
When I am tired, I always think of you. But who am I really referring too? And why would i do that? I want someone to be with me, but i haven’t met that someone yet. S.o who was a great partner together, we broke up 2 years ago because of different views. We work really hard for the goal we want. In 2020, when I struggle the most where i was at the lowest part, I met another someone. S.o who show me care, and gave me hope and made me smile . Until 2021, when our path are separated again. Same reason was about goal and future. We’ve been working hard, aiming for goal, but haven’t taken good care of ourselves in the present time. My perspective on love hold me back to allow carefully who i want to be with. I am closed minded and pushing people away. But deeply inside, I hope I meet a person who would share the thought and work toward the future we want to built together. As we grow up, we grow to see more thing, and more careful in life. I hope to be carefree and believe in love again! You said love was a destiny. I agree. But maybe we should interfere in our destiny a bit too. Shall we wait until we meet again and keep wasting time? How can love happen? How do you know you love a person? How can 2 people live together ? What should we keep in mind when we are in love? For love and future full of uncertainty, I cannot promise forever. Maybe we can play it safe by making time pleasant together, and not stress too much about commitment to love. Take it one step at a time, and if we break up, don’t break yourself!
I don't think you lied when you said " I love you " You meant it, but the love is not strong enough. Not strong enough to care about me; not strong enough to ever afraid of losing me; not strong enough to change for me; not strong enough to ask me to stay. And you let me go. I should have asked you when you said you love me. How much is the love...? 'cause now I'm suffering in the consequences of loving you too hard alone... I don't regret meeting you... But sometimes I wish I should have turned away the first time I met you... I wish I didn't choose to trust you. I wish I hadn't let myself fall for you. I wish.
When things got too caught up, I disappeared, I shut down that just how I am, that’s how I cope with stress. So sorry, I think this time I shut down too long didn’t I? I didn’t talk for months instead of hours. Actually, during those months I hope that u would comfort me but u never once message me during those months and all these thoughts that were all up in my head like “you don’t love me anymore” start to come up and it’s true. When I finally open up again, when I feel better and talk again You already decided to abandon me. It’s hurtful but it’s understandable so I respect your decision. Hope that’s the best decision you’ve ever made. Hope you are happy. Some people are blessings, some are lessons so Thank you for the lesson. 🥰
I met a girl, let's called her M, we date for almost 2 years but we are not in a relationship. We took like 2 or 3 breaks during the time that we talk. And we decided to broke up 2 weeks before we hit 2 years, but we still talk as a friend because before that we aren't even in a committed relationship too. M has a lot of friends even a lot of people want her too because she's a good girl, she's friendly, and she's gorgeous. And I know there's no chance of getting back together because she's talking to a guy that made me completely insecure, they were very close since before we broke up. He's close to her than I am now. I want to meet her but she always denies and she always goes out with that dude and her friends ship her with him too. And now I am seeing another girl which happens to be one of her friends too but they're not that close, So now what should I do should I stay away from her friends or should I or ask her out?? What are the consequences of dating her? what could happen next? what should I do? We went to the same Uni
I thought I was special. Maybe not to anyone but to you in specifically and yet she was the one that you always have and going to choose. I have nothing to complain tho but it still strings me ‘til these days.