Sorry for wasting your time and making your life miserable I wouldn’t do that if I could. I won’t stay longer than this and I am not sure how it would be, how it goes.. and of course I will miss you, I'm terrified of losing you, I really can't image my life , my body without you in it..., but I know that it’s time for both of us to move on, maybe to see who we are, what we’re trying to do , what we really need.. or maybe someday we will start over again!! I remember what you told me, if we mean to be.. it will be and it’s absolutely happen.. I don’t want to try this way, but I have no more rights to ask you to stay , to choose me, to not break this relationship up anymore.. When you are happy, I will be happy too.. Please always taking care of yourself.. Eat more, hard work, grow up and take a good rest, enjoy your day as always… stay healthy, and do whatever you want to… Cheer !!!
I don’t know why and I don’t have much to say . I just know it burn my heart and I feel pain . He suddenly ask me for a space and separate stay . Have u ever experience this before ? យូរទៅកាន់តែយូរទៅ ស្រលាញ់គ្នាយូរយូររហូតដល់ យ្រូវការនៅដោយឡែកពីគ្នាខ្លះ សម្រាកខ្លះ
If I’m too much for you, go find less.
I’m a man who is 28+years old and never got laid, and one day I got a girlfriend who did it and she said that people need to have experiences and it is better and it’s just make me feel like damnnnn if I know that, I wouldn’t waste my youth like shit and play around like a player- NOTE- “I am a handsome man” #R
Maybe this lifetime isn’t for us. I just hope you will be happy with your marriage. After all these years, I am the only one who fooled myself into this hopeless love. You did it. You made me feel like a fool. I had caught myself smiling while texting you, waiting for you and now? Now you’re with someone else and even getting married? How am I supposed to feel. That moment when you told me about the date of your marriage, what was I supposed to tell you? Congratulations? I don’t even know how to feel now. It felt so real for me, but I guess we just end up as best friend even after everything we’ve had together. You even told me that I will and always be the one? No one will ever replace me? I have no right to do anything except congrats you, seeing you be happy with someone else. Thank you for everything. Thanks for making me feel so special even if you don’t mean it. Because I will never not think about you.
I’m sorry but I don’t freaking know what to do anymore. I don’t know whether he has feeling for me or he is just being nice. I don’t know whether to move on or keep holding into this one-sided love. I want to move on before I fall for him harder than this, but the love I have for that man right now is already deeper, deeper than you can ever imagine. I don’t want to be friend with someone I love, also I can’t accept the fact that one day we’ll be stranger again. A man who I’ve never expected I’d get closed to, a man who I’ve never expected that I’d fall for this hard, a man who I’m really happy to be around…
I’m thinking of dying again. 22-04-22 -khoy mouygech
ខ្ញុំមានរឿងក្នុងចិត្តមួយមកនិយាយខ្ញុំមានអារម្មណ៍ខុស បន្ទាប់ពីខ្ញុំបានធ្វើទង្វើអាក្រក់ដាក់អ្នកជាច្រើនប៉នែ្តមិនមែនខ្ញុំមិនស្រលាញ់អ្នកទេខ្ញុំស្រលាញ់អ្នកស្ទើរលេបទៅហើយប៉ុន្តែដោយសារតែខ្ញុំខ្លាចបាត់បង់អ្នកទើបខ្ញុំធ្វើបែបនេះព្រោះពេលនោះខ្ញុំមិនទាន់ស្គាល់អ្វីទៅដែលហៅថាការស្រលាញ់ខ្ញុំដឹងត្រឹមថាការស្រលាញ់គឺការប្រច័ន្ឌហួងហែងគ្នាទើបហៅថាក្ដីស្រលាញ់ប៉ន្តែបន្ទាប់ពីខ្ញុំបាត់បង់អ្នកទើបខ្ញុំដឹងថាការប្រច័ន្ឌហួងហែងគ្មានបានអ្វីក្រៅពីរឿងឈ្លោះប្រកែកគ្នានោះទេការដែរស្រលាញ់ពិតគឺជាការទុកចិត្តគ្នាទៅវិញទៅមកការដែរដឹងសុខទុក្ខគ្នាទៅវិញទៅមកការដែរយល់ពីគ្នា... ខ្ញុំទើបតែយល់ថានេះហើយគឺជាការផ្ដល់សេចក្ដីស្រលាញ់ឲ្យគ្នាពេញលេញ។ ខ្ញុំគ្រាន់តែមកសុំទោសនៅរាល់កំហុសដែលខ្ញុំបានធ្វើខុសដាក់អ្នក😊។ បន្ទាប់ពីពួកយើងបែកគ្នាហើយខ្ញុំនៅតែមានអ្នកក្នុងបេះដូងខ្ញុំជាប់ជានិច្ចនៅតែគិតនៅតែខ្វល់ខ្វាយប៉ន្តែមិនអីទេប្រហែលអ្នកបានជួបអ្នកថ្មីនោះគេល្អជាងខ្ញុំហើយ😊។ បន្ទាប់ពីខ្ញុំឃើញអ្នកនិងសង្សារថ្មីអ្នកសប្បាយខ្ញុំក៏មានអារម្មណ៍ថាសប្បាយដែរប៉ុន្ដែបើថ្ងៃណាមួយគេធ្វើបាបត្រូវចាំថាខ្ញុំនៅទីនេះនៅចាំលើកទឹកចិត្តអ្នកជានិច្ច។
This is a story of mine. A story that I don’t tell anyone and never plan to but it’s been making me feel so heavy so, I decide to confess it here. I’m a mentally ill person, since i was a kid (it’s a long long story). I didn’t get enough love and affection as i was a kid so since I became a teenager, i attach to people who give me affection easily. Long ago, i knew a man on internet. We started texting with each other until we fell in love. He was a really good guy. He loved me, always cared about me, checked up on me, helped me with everything, he was literally perfect plus he’s a good looking person, he was a man in every women’s dream. He didn’t know about my mental state until we dated and it turned out he was also mentally ill, but my condition is worse than him. But things went so smooth, our relationship was super healthy and we were so deeply in love. After we’ve been together for 1 year, thing started to happen, he started asking me to show him my body. I refused but he’d said I didn’t trust him or anything. So i showed him with the condition that there won’t be a second time and he agreed. A few days later he asked me again, he convinced me and if I refused, he’d get upset after that. Thing went repeatedly. He asked me again and again and there’s no the end of it. I loved him too much but doing something like that really made me feel so wrong and disgusted myself. I didn’t want our relationship to fall apart so i did as he told me to (i was stupid). Little did he know, i cried every time after showing him my body. A few months later, i felt like I couldn’t keep it going and going repeatedly like that anymore and i felt so wrong especially i felt like i’m a bad daughter and how’d my mom feel if she know that her daughter do something like that in such a young age. That night, he requested me again but then I refused and i told him i’m not gonna do it anymore, i’ve done enough and I felt so wrong about it. But then he started forcing me. I started to cry but he didn’t change his mind and he promised it will be the last time. I was dumb enough to believe that so i showed him again while i was crying and mad at him. After he felt satisfied, he started to cry, he felt sorry for me and he said I couldn’t control his mind and it was so hard for him. After a month, i guess, he started to request me again and when i refused he always get upset and acted cold to me. I loved him so so much, i was afraid that our relationship was gonna fall apart so i do as he said but that time, he convinced me to masturbate myself. I did everything that he told me to. After one year and half of our relationship, the distance was started to grow between as. I was not a good girlfriend to him, being with a mentally ill person like me is so draining and he also had so much things to deal with, he was also suffering and he still tried to help me and comfort me. I fell into a deep depression that I started to think about committing suicide again. But then, we broke up for some complicate reasons that I can’t even understand. I was so attached to him, i did everything just for him to come back, I begged him and I couldn’t eat or do anything, i just cried and kept calling him over and over even he didn’t pick up. But at night, he picked up but we didn’t talk much since i only called him so i can ask him to be back. Until one night, he said he was still in love with me but i need to be strong, when I become strong, he will comeback, I believed him. We called for a few minutes for a few nights but during our call he always asked me to show him my body and masturbate myself. I thought doing it would make him stay and love me, i was so dumb that I sacrificed and gave him everything just to make him stay. A few days later, I felt like he doesn’t love me anymore because he was so fine, he didn’t care whether i’m okay or not, if i eat, if i cry, he didn’t care about me, he was just living his life normally. He ignored my texted and didn’t pick up my call the whole day until night time, he picked up and asked me to do thing as I mentioned above. One night, i asked him if he was still in love with me because his action showed that he was already fell out of love. “I don’t have any feelings for you since the day we broke up, i was just feel pity for you and afraid you were gonna do something harmful to yourself”, he responded. It really hurt my feelings, it was like someone stabbed me in the chest, I started to cry so hard and all he could say was sorry. I was literally so so depressed, i still texted him and called him after he said that to me (i was so thaok) but he didn’t respond or pick up. After a few weeks I started activating my social media account and acted like I got over it (I didn’t get any better actually). He texted me, i was less sad and asked him to fix thing but he refused again. Things kept happening until a month or 2 months (I forgot) I decided to stop asking to come back since he got a new gf already but i was still in love with him and think about him 24/7. And now, i still can’t get over him and i can’t bring myself to hate him either because he was so good to me even though he did hurt my feelings but he treated me like i was something special and a really important person to him. The only person i hate right now is myself. I hate myself so much, i’m so disgusting and i think I deserved everything that happened to me. Everything that happened in the past is haunting me, the more i get reminded of it, the more i hate myself. Even though i tried to get over it, to forget it, to start working on myself, to heal myself but none of it work. They say time will heal but actually, it doesn’t. I act like i moved on and happy because I don’t want my family and friends to worry about me. They’ve been helping me a lot and i really appreciate it but it couldn’t help me somehow. It’s all my faults, I know people will hate me if they know about this but what can i do to be forgiven. But how can i be forgiven by people when i can’t even forgive myself…