Biggest mistake.....
I fuckin went berserker mode on my toilet and my shit went all over the place. EVEN MY MOUTH
29 Jan 2022, I saw her... It's been months since we last talked. A lot of things happened but memories of us still sculpted in my mind. I know that was solely my fault for pushing you so faraway that you and I have no idea how we could go back to the old us. It's ridiculous to say but despite my cold acts, I desperately want you to be mine although it's seemingly impossible. Being the third-wheel isn't my thing and me being a cheater would definitely out of the question. (Hey audiences, I know this sounds confusing. Lemme explain this, we both have our own partner) I don't know how to put this into word - the reasons why I chose to leave. However, I guess that was not a very bad decision I made, at least not to you. We both can focus on our own relationship. I'm so glad that you still can go on without my presence and be happy with your significant other and friends. You know what? I've been trying so hard to get you out of my mine. Countless attempts have passed, this time I admit that I failed... especially today. I was riding back home, listening to random songs on YouTube and thinking of you like I always do, and imagining how I would react and what I should say when we get to meet again... "the smell of you is way too much, not gonna put my heart through that... where did we go wrong? I know we started out alright" I was stunned. You were in front of me. Like 2m apart. You had your fav jacket on, the one that I tried to steal because you said your confidence dropped without this jacket. I saw some foods hanging on the hook which I thought that was for your mom because that's what you always did when we went back home after our unofficial date -- buying some foods home for your mama. I slowed down. My heart skipped a beat. That was unexpected, the person I'm thinking of and haven't talked to for months suddenly appeared in front of me, at the moment when our fav song played. I was stumbling, trying to figure out what I should do. Yet, nothing was done... Stupid, wasn't I? "Lately I've been someone and it ain't myself I'm spending all my time on somebody else I'm feeling all these feelings I don't understand You're the one good thing I ain't questioning Like ohh, if I knew that it would kill me I would still be there a thousand times over" This song came up next while I was secretly following her on her way back home. She rode too fast, without her helmet on (this girl is making me worried again). I really wanted to do something but I was not ready for this unexpected reunion. Finally, we seperated, not knowing when we'll officially meet again... même si je sais que je le regretterai plus tard. __________________ Hey, please take a good care of yourself. Untill we meet again. That time, I will be the one who comes to you first like when we first met :) though it might take some times, probably 2-3 years since I'll be going somewhere farway, but I promise I'll be back to pickup where we left off. Last but not least, be happy, even without me... and... I hope you think about me the way I think about you. And yes, it was enchanting to meet you :)
I fuckin went berserker mode on my toilet and my shit went all over the place. EVEN MY MOUTH
i wish we knew each other through the internet, i wish you see me as how i want other ppl to see me, i wish we didn’t take the 2 step to talk to each other. i portray myself as a perfect pretty girl on the internet bc who doesn’t want to be perfect and pretty but in reality.. it’s different and you see that in me, you see the broken bits of pieces of me and all the thing under that perfect mask… and you still except it. i still wish we met in a different way so you don’t have to see me in this state, bc it hurts me knowing i let a person in my reality to suffers with me and that person i truly cared and love for. i wish i have more time to fix me before going to you.
Hey you ! Am I your brother or your toy? Sometime you make me feel like I am good as your brother, but sometime you mess it up like I am special to you. Hit me if you wanna cross the line before I consider accepting someone else !
៥ឆ្នាំដែលស្គាល់អូន ៥ឆ្នាំដេលបងឈឺចាប់ 5ឆ្នាំដែលបងហត់នឿយ ៥ឆ្នាំដេលបងលះបង់ 5ឆ្នាំដេលបងពិបាក ៥ឆ្នាំដេលបងបានបាត់បងអ្វីៗគ្រប់យ៉ាង ៥ឆ្នាំនៃសុបិន្តអាក្រក់ តែ5ឆ្នាំនេះ បងនៅតែស្រលាញ់អូន
One of my male colleagues and I are so close, but the closest thing I mentioned was that I'm the one who's trying to get close to him. I think I like him a lot, but I'm not daring to tell him. I don't want to ruin the relationship between us. It was good enough for me to have him during my stressful times, happy times, busy times, and anytime I needed him. I'm so grateful. Even if in the future you're not mine, I believe you will be a good husband to your future wife like how you're treating me these days. I'm a bit jealous of whoever deserves you, but if you're happy, I'm happy too. Day by day, my day becomes more and more colorful and shines since I have you by my side. You're so good for my mental health. It was so boring when you were complaining about this and that, but it is so empty without those complaints. I want you, the person who is giving me these good feelings, to feel them as well; to feel loved by someone; to feel treated well; and to be my lover, so I don't have to worry about your future wife. Thank you for being there for me during my hard times. I really appreciated every moment I had with you.
My family that had been torn apart by sadness. My parents had lost my youngest sister to a tragic accident: drown in a river, and they were both struggling to cope with the loss. They found it difficult to talk about their feelings and to support one another through the grieving process. The older siblings were also struggling with their own sadness and guilt. They had always been protective of their younger sibling and felt responsible for what had happened. They found it hard to talk to their parents about their feelings as well, as they didn't want to burden them further. As time passed, my family began to drift apart. We stopped communicating and became distant from one another. We dealt with their sadness in our own way and didn't know how to come together as a family. It wasn't until we sought help from a grief counselor that things began to improve. The counselor helped them to open up about their feelings and to communicate with one another. They learned that it was okay to feel sad and that it was important to support one another through their grief. Slowly but surely, my family began to heal. We started to talk more openly about their feelings and to support one another through their sadness. We knew that they would never fully get over our loss, but we also knew that they could find happiness and joy in their memories of their loved one. My family was stronger for having gone through the sadness together. We learned that it was okay to lean on one another for support and that it was important to talk about their feelings. We knew that we would always miss their youngest child, but we also knew that they could find hope and happiness in the love we shared as a family.
Nothing to share in here, just wanted to ask have you ever chatted with someone and that person suddenly show the type of disgusting, unacceptable personality… so you decided to ghosted him in a friendly way( just short and late reply to give him the hint and stop texting you) but at the same time you feel scare of him. What does it means?
I know that your life is so different now from mine. I know that you may never forget about us, but you have forgotten your feelings about me. I know that you have somebody else beside you And I know that you may be saying your i-love-yous to him in different ways. Something that is quite deeper, bolder, or even kinder. Or something that promises your stay still together. I’m just here to write this one for you as I couldn’t think of any better way to tell you how I truly feel until this day about what has happened to us. And to tell you, in case there’s a chance that you read this—that I’ve forgiven you, myself, our past; to say “thank you,” and bid you farewell for the last time. I wish there’s a better way to tell you how painful that night was for me. That night when you said your feeling fade that my mistake...i been thinking why somebody else has occupied your heart that fast while being with me for 1 year you being with me. You didn’t have any idea that while you were saying those words, my hands couldn’t stop shaking as I’ve never expected what was going to happen. I didn’t know that the few days before that night would be the last time that I’ll get to experience a pure bliss being with you. That I’ll never be able to genuinely smile again for a few years. And that I’ll crash and burn. I didn’t know that such deep pain would exist and I’ve underestimated the capacity of life to hurt me in ways that I’ve failed to imagine. I saw how a moment changes, how time is fleeting so fast right before my eyes. That one moment you were telling me that you wouldn’t hesitate to give the world or your life to me. And then another sudden moment came and you treated me like I was the most disgusting person you have ever known. They say time heals all wounds, but the wound you’ve caused me is way beyond having a bruised heart. My soul got wounded too, and it still cries sometimes for what was inflicted on me