មិត្តភាពដែលពោពេញទៅដោយការកុហក
មិនមែនខ្ញុំចិត្តដាច់ទេ តែអ្នក...ធ្វើឲទំនុកចិត្តខ្ញុំបាត់បង់បន្តិចម្ដងៗ រហូតដល់ពេលមួយដែលខ្ញុំសម្រេចចិត្តកាត់ផ្ដាច់មិត្តភាពមួយនេះចោល តើអ្នកដឹងទេថា...មនុស្សដែលដឹងគ្រប់រឿងដែលធ្វើជាមិនដឹងបែបនេះ វាគួរឲខ្លាចជាងអ្នកបានគិតទៅទៀត។
after seeing this post, i can sense immediately it's maybe from you! it doesn't mean that, after i got gf i ignored u or take this friendship for granted! you know, you should look from different perspectives, u should communicate or ask me directly because there're thing that u don't really know. i still care about you and checking up on u, but not everyone has energy to communicate all the time. we can't be that stable everyday, too! i still valued u and the friendship but please understand my side as well! i don't even reply my gf that fast too! even my few years of friendship, i didn't text withthem that much too! im so tired with my life lately, please understand that I need time for some break as well!
មិនមែនខ្ញុំចិត្តដាច់ទេ តែអ្នក...ធ្វើឲទំនុកចិត្តខ្ញុំបាត់បង់បន្តិចម្ដងៗ រហូតដល់ពេលមួយដែលខ្ញុំសម្រេចចិត្តកាត់ផ្ដាច់មិត្តភាពមួយនេះចោល តើអ្នកដឹងទេថា...មនុស្សដែលដឹងគ្រប់រឿងដែលធ្វើជាមិនដឹងបែបនេះ វាគួរឲខ្លាចជាងអ្នកបានគិតទៅទៀត។
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Please don't ever come back to me when I finally forgot you and has moved on. Please don't let me experience all the pain again. Please don't ever mess up my life again.
វាប្រហែលជាស្រមោលមួយដែលខ្ញុំពិបាកនឹងយកឈ្នះបំផុត។ ខ្ញុំធ្លាប់មានស្នេហាមួយដែលអ្នករាល់គ្នាមើលមកហាក់ដូចល្អឥតខ្ចោះ ប្រហែលគ្មានថ្ងៃបែកគ្នានោះឡើយ។ ពេលវេលា ៦ឆ្នាំហាក់កន្លងផុតទៅយ៉ាងលឿន សៀវភៅមួយនោះត្រូវបានបាត់ខ្លឹមសារត្រឹមវណ្ណ:គ្រួសារ។ ខ្ញុំជាកូនអ្នកមធ្យមដែលមិនដែលខ្វះព្រឹកល្ងាច ហើយក៏មិនដែលត្រូវខ្វាយខ្វល់ពីបញ្ហាហិរញ្ញវត្ថុ តែត្រូវបានគាត់ប្រាប់ថាគ្រួសារគាត់មិនពេញចិត្តខ្ញុំព្រោះខ្ញុំគ្មានផ្ទះ គ្មានលុយ គ្មានឡាន គ្មានមុខរបរ។ ខ្ញុំទទួលស្គាល់ថាការមិនពេញចិត្តនេះគឺត្រូវព្រោះអ្វីដែលខ្ញុំមានពេលនោះជារបស់គ្រួសារទាំងអស់ ខ្ញុំទើបតែចាប់ផ្តើមរៀនឆ្នាំទី២ប៉ុណ្ណោះ។ ខ្ញុំបានប្រែក្លាយជាមនុស្សម្នាក់ដែលងប់ងល់នឹងការរកស៊ីបំផុតដើម្បីអោយខ្លួនសមនឹងគេ។ តែខ្ញុំហាក់ដូចជាកាន់តែអស់សង្បឹមនឹងបន្តទៅទៀត ព្រោះអ្នកមានដែលគេរកសុទ្ធតែជាកូនអ្នកលក់ឡានធំៗនៅក្នុងស្រុក។ ក្រោយខ្ញុំមានអ្វីគ្រប់យ៉ាងទាំងមុខរបរនិងហិរញ្ញវត្ថុ ក៏សម្រេចមានទំនាក់ទំនងជាមួយនារីម្នាក់សាមញ្ញនិងល្អខ្លាំងសម្រាប់ខ្ញុំ ប៉ុន្តែសៀវភៅមួយនេះត្រូវបានបញ្ចប់ត្រឹមគ្រួសារម្តងទៀតព្រោះខ្ញុំអាយុប្អូនគាត់។ ក្រោយមកខ្ញុំបានជួបនារីម្នាក់ទៀតដែលល្អនិងសាកសមនឹងខ្ញុំ។ គាត់ជាមនុស្សម្នាក់ដែលធ្វើអោយខ្ញុំមានអារម្មណ៌ស្ងប់និងសុវត្ថិភាពពេលមានវត្តមានគាត់នៅជិត។ គាត់ជាបុគ្គលម្នាក់ដែលខ្ញុំចង់មើលថែនិងផ្តល់ភាពកក់ក្តៅដែលគាត់ត្រូវការ។ ខ្ញុំនឹងគាត់តបសារគ្នារាល់ថ្ងៃក្នុងនាមជាមិត្ត ខ្ញុំគិតថានាងបានដឹងពីចិត្តរបស់ខ្ញុំចំពោះនាង ប៉ុន្តែខ្ញុំនៅតែមិនអាចស្មានយល់ពីនាងបាន។ ត្រឹមខ្លាចមិនហ៊ានបោះជំហានទៅមុខព្រោះតែខ្លាចការបដិសេធម្តងទៀត ខ្ញុំបានព្យាយាមម្តងហើយម្តងទៀតប៉ុន្តែនៅតែមិនអាចដើរចេញពីភាពភ័យខ្លាចនៃស្រមោលខ្មៅ។ តើខ្ញុំគួរធ្វើបែបណាដើម្បីជំនះភាពភ័យខ្លាចមួយនេះ?
Life is too short to keep love locked in. Don’t trying to reject the truth and your true feelings to somebody. You lied when you told them that you did not love them. But you did. And now that is something you’ve to live with for the rest of your life. That is something you’ve to leave in the back of your throat. Imagine. Loving someone but not showing them how much you love them. This is the burden that arrives the moment you're gone. The weight you have to carry on your shoulders. The burning you feels over your skin when someone mentions their name. forever. You loved them but did not show it. And maybe you wanted more but was too distracted to do anything about it. You lost them. Some people can’t see the the good things in front of them because they think that they have time for it later but you know what, sometimes later become NEVER. How many “what if” in your life? If you have too much ” what if’s “ in your mind then what if your feelings are returned? You have to try for things even when you don't know the outcome. After you tell them the truth they can smile, say you they feel the same or simply go away, disappear and don’t talk to you anymore. All of these are still better than talking with a person and not telling them your real feelings. We never know what will happen tomorrow or in next few hours. Bear in mind that the pain of rejection and the awkwardness of feeling vulnerable is nothing compared to the regret of not saying something when you no longer have the chance. “Better is open rebuke than hidden love”
I don’t know how to put this into words, but once I grow up I started to realize that the dreams I once had in my childhood ( whom I wish myself to be in a certain way) isn’t come true at all. If putting words anonymously could help me cope up with the pain and all of the stress I have then I would do it ten times a day…. From the person who loves to share stories with others to someone who find it hard to open up, started to hate herself, and start to question her capability. I woke up daily with the feeling of “ that’s fine another day have come and there would be thing u need to face” but do I want to end my life? The answer is “NO” I used to have those thoughts. Despite the stress and panic attack I experienced daily I still fight with it , I still give myself a reason to go on… because not everyone is happy. So if you’re reading till this, I would want you to know that of course life is tough you might think that you’re the only one experience it but believe me either the person you know or the one who you don’t, everyone have the same story and sadness that they need to cope with, need to fight… so don’t give up!! Fighting for life, start to live your life even though it’s painful…. Cheer up!!!!
My mom was talking about getting a divorce, and my dad was totally bummed out about it. For like a week I was bouncing back and forth between my mom's place and my house, where my dad was. I tried to cheer him up, but he kept asking about my mom and telling me to talk to her, do something to change her mind. But, to be real, I couldn't bring myself to tell him that she had already made up her mind. So the night before Father's Day I was heading out to crash with some friends, but before I left I told him I'd be back early to make him breakfast. He was like, "Nah, that's cool." Didn't think much of it. That night I hit up a club and drink tonnes of cocktails. After an hour of feeling nothing, I started to feel dizzy and sweaty. My heart was pounding and I was losing it. I asked my friends to take me to the hospital, that something was seriously wrong. They were all, like, "Nah, you're good." Finally, this dude I just met that day, who was friends with one of my homies, drove me to his crib. I was totally freaking out the whole way home, trying to catch my breath and not die. When we got there, my body started to calm down, but I was still super weak and wiped out. I remember lying on his bed. His dog came over and curled up with me, resting his head on my leg and looking all sad. Then, like around 6am, all my friends showed up, apologizing for not taking better care of me. I asked them to take me home, but on the way there I started crying for no reason, just feeling like I needed to go to the hospital. When we got to my house, there was a note taped to the door that said, "Don't go in and call the cops. I'm sorry for being a coward." My heart already felt weak, but when I read that note it just fell apart. I was in shock, but I managed to call the police and tell them my dad had killed himself. I sat on the porch and cried my eyes out. There was a lot of crying that whole day. When my mom showed up, she was wailing and crying out, "Oh my god, oh my god." They took me to the neighbor's house and put me in the guest room. The rest of the day I was all by myself, trying to make it through. There were times when I felt like I was going to pass out. I was too weak to cry. After a while, I realized it was Father's Day.
It's been a long time that we parted from each other. I thought I could fix my fault that I made before. But I ended up scaring you off. I was so excited that you actually talked back to me. I'm really sorry for my overreacting. I hope you will understand my intention of wanting to fix my faults back then. And I hope one day you'll let back in to your life. imysm.