The confession
I will wait for you until you’re finally ready for a relationship again, but don’t make me wait for too long.
Prior to reading the story, I just wanna say sorry to those who related for posting this I hope you feel me Note: The characters' names ain't real I just Oppakech XD LET'S GOOO!!! love is a great thing to find out that love is not desire. If love is not desire, then what is love? Love is not attachment, it is not a pleasure, and it is not jealousy or ambition. The fulfillment of desire, which is pleasure, is not love. So, I have come to realize that love is not a desire. It is not a pleasure, it is not an attachment, and it is not jealousy or ambition. To truly understand it, one must first go beyond the superficial. Now, let me take you on a journey beyond the sun's setting. Through the light of the sky, I will create a marble golden breeze effect. As I walk away, I will allow you to focus on the blackness of your pupil, while at the same time, letting your mind wander into the distant future. As long as you look, the world will continue to unravel, and love will find a way to find a way to be kind. On an epic journey, you will meet someone special. Starting with the journey of my love story, definitely, we started as strangers by chance studying the same major in university. The day coincident brought us, we started knowing each other and started being closed. At the beginning of this complicated relationship, we didn’t really know each other even though we are studying at the same university, we then knew each other. After a few months of knowing her, I noticed her brightness and started loving her day by day. Her name is Jasmine. She is a girl in a slim fit with a height of about 162cm. Her long blonde hair is fit with her and also the smell of it which is my favorite smell ever. The most adorable thing about her is her eyes, which are light brown that I cannot stop staring at. She has a pointed nose, which makes her look gorgeous. She has a heart-shaped lip and a soft cheek, which I expect that one day I can be able to kiss “lol”. She is such a good person I have ever met, she got a beautiful heart and other good things she got is that I couldn’t describe all in a day. After we got to know each other for about 3 months, one night my heart was beating so fast that I couldn’t recognize what happened. I started to gain confidence and finally decided to let her know about my feeling tomorrow. I moved around the remaining place to try to get to know well what was wrong with my heart, and after I couldn’t sleep at night, in the morning I started to know my heart is all on her, which is I couldn’t live without her. Later on, in the morning, I went to school with a feeling of panic and also a feeling of confidence. During the class on that day, I couldn’t stop staring at her with a feeling that I wanted to propose all my feeling that I got inside to her. After the class ended, once everybody got out of the class, and now only me and her, I finally stood up, and I said to her: “I got something to tell you, Jasmine. Please don’t leave yet.” “What is it?” she asked me with a face full of confusion and curiosity. Then, I expressed my good intention, my good feeling to her. I have also proposed to her to be my princess. After she heard all the words that came from my mouth, she started to look stunned. At that moment I felt like I wanted to run away from this awkward situation that I am the one who brought us into this, and one most important word that I wanted to say in this circumstance is “I am really sorry.” I felt like I was so wrong to put her in this while she looked like she wanted to tell me: “I really appreciate how your feeling has to me, but I don’t feel the same.” Turns out it was not the same as I had expected, she didn’t tend to reject, and she kept being silent during this whole disaster. “I have to go now.” she left as soon as she said this. I was so confused by her answer, and I couldn’t even eat or sleep at all after this disaster. More than this, because I was loving her so bad at that time, I then sent a message to her and asked her to choose between friendship and a relationship. After that, she has seen my message, but she still remained silent and did not reply to my message for a week. That night, I couldn’t sleep again because I felt hurt and ashamed for thinking that she also loves me so much as well. I went to a mart at the midnight and got alcohol drinks to treat my sorrows. In the morning, I still wanted to clarify her feeling to me because I don’t want my overthinking to overwhelm the reality, so I called her to meet up at a cafeteria nearby our school. We met at the exact same location where I called her out. After I saw her face, I started to feel panic because I was afraid that she is going to reject me again. I started to talk to her first, and I couldn’t hold my feeling and started to ask the same question that I sent a message to her that night. After she heard my question, she stopped smiling at me and started to answer my question without any hesitation. The words she said were ‘I like you’ instead of ‘I love you’, which made me feel like something has stabbed my heart. After this, I still don’t wanna give up, it was not my final destination, I have been trying to relax and try not to get her to answer this again. I know what she meant to me is that I am just her best friend who treats her such many good things than other men did. Although she counted me as her best friend, I treated her like a queen, I gave her a caring, warming heart and everything I could do. After a long period of those actions, yet she still not seeing me as the good man, she deserves. Even before we did many good things together as if we were a couple. We usually went out after a tiring class to somewhere we felt comfortable, we also said what deep down our minds to each other while we were together. Moreover, every couple always sees their partners daily or weekly it depends on them, same goes for us, we did what other couples do, I think we are more than a couple and best friend. Those days were unforgettable and memorable days for us, especially me. Since I used to be a football player and joined many competitions and now, I am still taking some time playing, I need her “Jasmine” to be that one person who could go to the football court with me and watched my performance and cheered me. She is my motivation in my daily life. She used to go there with me, giving me all the encouragement I had ever got in my entire life. But now we don’t even talk to each other anymore like we used to... People’s defining moment in their life can change their whole personality and their point of view in their life. It was a day in the middle of the week, we didn’t have class at all but we were requested to prepare some materials and lessons for our practicum. Jasmine and her friends were doing those things at school, I went there quietly without telling her. Once I had arrived, I saw an unexpected moment I didn’t expect to happen. There was another boy who was also with her sitting nearby, and that boy is my friend. After arriving in the class, she pretended not to see me coming. She didn’t say anything to me until that boy was no longer there. Before, coming into the class, one of her friends stopped me in front of the door because she already knew what would happen if I saw them being closed to each other. No longer than five minutes, I got to get in. After seeing that moment, I pretended as if something happened as she pretended not to see me, but deep down this moment was hurting me so much. All I could do is watching her and that friend of mine from far away. I could see on her face that she felt pity for me, but she didn’t say anything. After that day, I felt like I am scared to lose her even more than before. I was waiting for the class to end, and I decided that I will ask her one last time about her and me. I had to clarify everything. The class finally ended, I stood up and walked to her seat. I grabbed her hand energetically when she was about to leave. “Can we be more than friends?” I asked her confidently again. This disaster is even worst than before. She looked like she was about to cry. I remember that look on her face was like someone who got humiliated in the middle of the city. One thing I forgot is that moment, everyone even the teacher was looking at us...no... more like they looked at her. The confidence in me has awakened too fast I forgot that everyone was still in the class. I then let her hand go, and she ran away from me again or we can say ran from the embarrassment... but this time is like there is no other time she would run away from me. I felt bad for Jasmine. I didn’t even get to apologize to her for my rudeness even though I already know she hates this kind of situation. I wish I had not done it. If I had been more sensible, the mistake would not have happened; but it’s no use saying that now. We, people, are not the best and perfect of out of all time. We often make mistakes intentionally and unintentionally. I am not writing this story with good intentions but I also include my mistakes and fault. We, the man, don’t disappoint ladies or break their hearts like me. A month later, the unexpected moment came, she started going out with one of my friends. After their friendship appeared, they had made a relationship without letting me notice about them. It was a moment I had never expected; It hurt me from my soul I swear to God. What if you face or you’re in this sort of moment? What are you going to do? Will you be able to face her or them? How much you can pretend like nothing happened? Do you still keep your friendship with your friend or her? Can you do the same as I did? To be honest, I swear you all can’t; you can’t even hold your tear and keep your mind calm. Oppositely, I nominated that they are by chance knowing each other which similar to me. I was pretending what was happening was just daydreaming happening in the period of time. I still keep in touch with her once she needs me, even though, she was with him... Enjoy the adventure that brings laughs through hate, and fills up a plate with tears that create. Rome through the bark-filled woods and watch the deer stand and run from your room. Venture upon the moon in the lake, while holding a candle for no given sake. Breathe the frosty morning into your souls while the fire burns bright at your little toes. Seek a quest that finds memories more expensive than gold. Do it all and do it together as love offers the fabric for a voyage to be told. #Thankforreading #Unforgettablememories
I will wait for you until you’re finally ready for a relationship again, but don’t make me wait for too long.
Everytime I see a couple, I start wondering is it just me who never had good fate in love? How do people got in love so easily, how lucky are they to be around someone they love. Look at me, I never had a chance to be in that position, I wasnt able to imagine what its like to be in their shoes. Everytime I start to commit in a relationship, all the experience I got are rejection, betrayal and ghosting. Those experiences scare me. Every time I want to commit in a relationship, my memory flashback and little voice in my head keep telling me: "keep it for yourself, love is not made for you." I hate it so much. I just want to be normal 😪
Funny isn’t it ? I thought were supposed to work on our problems. and stay friends forever? people say you’re toxic and such but i still defend and stay by your side . I’ve done bad things in the past but I’ve let it go and learned my mistake and I was hoping you’d do the same. I’d never knew you’d give up on us so easily. I’ve always put friendship above relationship cuz i know i can move on from guys i dated but not the friends that i’ve shared memories with. It’s okay na, I forgave you, live well and be happy na, I’ll be supporting you and cherished the friendship we had. Stay happy and healthy, I won’t be there to see it but i hope you achieved your dream<3
Thanks for always taking a good care of me Thanks for always stay by my side when time get hard Thanks for understanding me Thanks for loving me Thanks for everything U’re the best . Yet u leaving me now and I still didn’t know how to move on yet . IF leaving me made you feel good , DO IT baby . I pray for ur happiness everyday and night . I’m glad by Seeing you happy even with or without me 🙂
Dope I am a kind of person that would build the walls instead of the bridge because I used to experience some trauma events in the past. [newLine*] [newLine*] They used to call me “ sensitive, dramatic, self victimized, stupid, etc.” And here I am, being a cold hearted person ever in my life. I don’t like the version of today’s me yet, I am still glad that it kinda makes me stronger and be more careful around my surroundings. Running away from my own feelings is one of my coping mechanisms since it is the best way to do so when it comes to expressing emotions. I wanted to open up and have the healthiest relationship with others but the dark inner part of me is still keep telling me that they will judge me in every possible way that they could also the people that I expect then to be will be leave me eventually anyway so instead of being my real self, I just show them what they wanted to see from me.[newLine*] [newLine*] Losing the ones that I love is also a tragic cause for my mental health too. My mom passed away since I was 6 years old and I hadn’t had the mother-daughter moments yet and it really broke my heart ‘til nowadays. So instead of crying, I usually hide my true emotions and keep moving forward when I was still not healed from what broke me in the past. I used to held grudges, always get jealous when they got what I wanted, they have the best relationship with their families, they have a strong self confidence and many more. Very toxic person I could possibly find. [newLine*] [newLine*] But here I am, after all what I have been through both mentally and physically. A cold hearted b*tch also I am still keep finding out who I really am and what is my purpose of life. I still feel guilty when I hurt the ones that love me so, but nothing is permanent anyway so I’ll live the best of my life instead of pleasing other people. [newLine*] [newLine*]From, thyka. ♡︎
អារម្មណ៍ត្រូវគេស្រឡាញ់គឺល្អ តែអារម្មណ៍ដែលស្រឡាញ់គេគឺអារម្មណ៍មួយផ្សេងទៀតដែលពោរពេញទៅដោយការខ្វល់ខ្វាយ ការបារម្ភ ការហួងហែង តែក៏នៅតែជាអារម្មណ៍ល្អ មួយបែបផ្សេងពីអារម្មណ៍ដែលត្រូវគេស្រឡាញ់។ ខ្ញុំសប្បាយ និងពេញចិត្តជាមួយការស្រឡាញ់ដែលខ្ញុំផ្ដល់ឲ្យគាត់ ការស្រឡាញ់ពិតប្រាកដហើយជ្រាលជ្រៅ ច្បាស់លាស់ ចង់ឲ្យអនាគតខ្ញុំមានគាត់ គាត់ក៏មានខ្ញុំ ពួកយើងស្រឡាញ់គ្នា មើលថែគ្នារហូតទៅ។ ខ្ញុំមានអារម្មណ៍ថាខ្លួនឯងសំណាង ព្រោះបានស្រឡាញ់និងផ្ដល់ក្ដីសុខឲ្យមនុស្សម្នាក់ដោយអស់ពីចិត្ត មិនចាំបាច់លាក់បាំង មិនចង់ចាញ់ឈ្នះ។ និយាយច្រើនហើយ តែគ្រាន់តែចង់ប្រាប់អ្នកទាំងអស់គ្នាថា ក្នុងមួយជីវិត គួរសាកបើកចិត្តទទួលអារម្មណ៍ស្រឡាញ់គេ កុំខ្មាសអ្នកដទៃថាយើងងប់ងល់នឹងស្នេហាអី ព្រោះអារម្មណ៍នេះជាអារម្មណ៍ពិសេស មានន័យជ្រាលជ្រៅ។ To be loved is one thing. To be able to give that feeling to someone else is another. It's neither an embarrassment or a punishment. It's a feeling that should be cherished. I hope you all will be able to find someone who loves you and especially, find the feeling of loving someone truly. Love has no limits <3
We knew each other since 2017. We both living in separate way but we know each other well. But in 2021 we talk a lot more than unusual. We about about our day our person we like then until we both feeling something to each other. I don’t think I should confess her.
Hi, actually I don’t know where to start it such a long story and complex mind to describe it out. I confess here today just want to seek for the answer : “ AM I ACTUALLY A FAKE FRIEND HERE “ I’m a girl who has a circle of friends, but only 2 I count as the dearest to me since I can trust them. But there’s also another one friend who I luv as well it just that we had so many things that’s not compatible with each other and I don’t share her my secret. Let’s called her Angel. Even though I never tell her my secret but I swear I never want to hurt or dislike her in anyway. But the thing is that she counts me as her closest friend, she told me. But I don’t quite understand her and I feel bad for that as well. Why I don’t trust her?! Actually we know each other 14yrs already. She’s that type of person who talked about how she feel mad and upset about a person and within a minute she see them she smile and wave Hi as nothing happened. And yes, as the listener I feel guilt. And that’s one of the things I’m scare to trust her. Btw Angel is also such a sweet person tho, she always made gift to our classmates. But the things is she’s an over thinker and always upset. She upset because I hang out with one of my friends without her. But actually she always hang out with her friends as well and I never say anything. She’s also that type of person who would say “ I’m not a talker, I’m a thinker” but every time she always share about sad stuff and friends things with such a caption that made me think she talked about me or other friends by writing the caption with “ They this They that” ( I don’t just pick the shoes and wear it as Cinderella here don’t get me wrong she just throw it towards me) I myself never like to put myself in such a complicating situation. But she just share another post with the caption as if she always happy for me and I never happy for her. As if I’m a fake friend here. And I cmt on her post like the response is just as “ I know u talked abt me “ and u guess what after the beef at the cmt she text me and ask me to hang out with her like nothing happened. That’s all, actually I feel like I’m also in the wrong here myself. It would be such a pleasure if u guy can give me some advice