Gone as stranger

I don’t know how to describe my feeling right now as it’s very complicated and mixed up so bad. We both are not lover yet our action/chat conversation made me feel like we ain’t just friend sometimes. It’s been so long that we don’t chat and It’s myself that start this cool war with you bcuz sometimes I feel that you are lost interest with me and don’t want to waste your time with me anymore. I don’t know if I should still follow you or leave you because you never want to text me back as before. I don’t ask for serious relationship bcuz I know that we both cannot make it happen for some reasons. But at least we don’t end up like this. It’s hurt me so bad when I don’t receive your texts anymore.

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My favorite songs

We left your house around 5pm. The sky started to rain. It's our first time riding a motorbike in the rain together. I wore your white hoodie hugging you from behind under the heavy rain. It was one of the best feelings ever. I would get emotional while staying under the rain but staying with you made me forget all those traumas. “I love you” you said it under the rain. I love it. I wish this moment would last longer. We went on Spotify and listened to heavy metal music because it's your fav genre but I skipped rock music. It was Bad Romance by Lady Gaga. We sang along. The next song was Good 4 U by Olivia Rodrigo. These two are my favorites. Little did I know, my story became exactly like my favorite songs. You gave up on me. I don't wanna lose you, never.

2025-08-14

Words

Sometimes the one who said the words never really remembered it, but the one who listened did. That's a tragedy.
2025-08-14

Asking for advices.

"I friend-zoned him." Yes, I admit I did but hear me out first. I fell for that one guy like a year ago but I was always in control of my feelings so it doesn't get over me. Though we know each other for a long time, we weren't close at all, last year we grow closer day by day until now. One day I was too carefree,I got caught and I didn't know what to say so I said "I only think of you as a close friend." After that day, we still being close but in the name of a friend. I wonder if I still have a chance. He will be shocked if I confessed, what should I do?
2025-08-14

Slave of love

I am the owner of #KJ0002. Time sure flies, we no longer text even though he knew I always wait for his texts and notifications. Even after he unblock me, he is not following back my ig and is no longer a friend in FB as well. But whenever I miss him and I post a story, he was always my first viewer to view it. Not until he decided to post another video @ his TikTok which is a very scary place that everything started between us. My tears just fall like an idiot with the little hope "Do I ever cross your mind when you see that video of yours"? It just hits me so hard because every movement everything that happens is still fresh in my mind, his voice still echoing in my ears, his smell still sticking to my nose, his kiss still warming my lips, our adultery stuff which I gave him out of my pure love for him still crawling back to my brain and it's torturing my every breathes. He is living his best life right now, while I am suffering from tears every single second because of him. Fools will eventually die from its stupidity? He once promised me to not let my tears drop because of him, one of my best friends also reminded me about the red flags since day 1 but I refuse to do so and mess with him. Up until this moment, the very first time that he's not viewing my story yet asking him whether Do I cross his mind or not at least once when he posts that place which has taken a huge place in my heart. I even get more clowning myself by commenting on that TikTok's video of him "what a nice view" and he just replied immediately, I think I knew now maybe my ig dm with him finally went rock bottom since he's stick to his phone 24/7. I am now waiting for him on my birthday which we suppose to meet again but somehow I made him mad at me and I don't know what is going to happen on my birthday, whether he shows up or not? I am still waiting, Little does he know my tears are now competing to drop without any hesitation. I am dying from time to time, I am living to his "air promises" I look back at our chat in the good old days that he told me to stick to 3 meals a day, stay hydrated, stay positive, and stay calm. I really want to turn back time to that night the 2nd sleepover with him. I left many unspoken words that I want to say in front of him. Seems like now I have no longer chance to meet him now. I can say now I have officially become a slave of him for him. I no longer can control my emotion as well as my body which I gave him all without anything left. He feels like home to me, now that he is gone? What can I do? I can only pray to god, trying my best to wait for him which is impossible but it is out of my control that's the only thing I could do to calm my mind. What should I do right now? The more I try to erase every moment I have with him, the more it is haunting me. How many tears must I shed, how many times must I cry? How many tears must I use for him to take pity on me? I am fighting my worst battle with myself right now. I told myself to be happy because my birthday is coming up in just a week. I have never broken someone's heart since I was born, why now am getting this treatment from someone I loved wholeheartedly? I felt bad for 3 people that I kept repeating find good points in him and kept on venting to them about the same cycle. Thanks to them that at least they listen to my whole story which I still can't forgive myself for the mess I created. I hope I can smile for my birthday this year, I am getting old but seems like I'm still childish when it's come to him. I am still hoping he remembers that this birthday boy is in a week, even it is not impossible but I am still waiting for the impossible to happen. Sorry for my broken English.

2025-08-14

I just want privacy

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2025-08-14

Double Standard !

I got one question been wondering long time. if a man happens to be with another girl after a few month of his break up. Some people would call him " He must be a cheater, blah blah" but, if a woman happens to be with with another man after a few month of her break up. Some people would think " Finally she found her right ones..... " My questions is "Why? no matter what we do we always turn out to be a bad part ?" i just don't understand - that's all. #ZVI

2025-08-14

No Reason to Stay 🥑

Is spending time with me exhausting? What? You said it's because you tired from work, that's why you act like this? I mean you know, I'm super busy at work and I'm really burnt out too. But still, I carved out time to spend it with you, and I want our time together to be special, you know! and I bring you here because I wanted us to reconnect, and... do you seriously think I came here to just shop? I want us talking and walking together... but you always want to go eat~ is it because you're hungry or are you just trying to kill time? You don't want to do anything with me anymore, do you? 😞 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g6qdzjTSgH0
2025-08-14

The hidden love, the endless regrets.

Life is too short to keep love locked in. Don’t trying to reject the truth and your true feelings to somebody. You lied when you told them that you did not love them. But you did. And now that is something you’ve to live with for the rest of your life. That is something you’ve to leave in the back of your throat. Imagine. Loving someone but not showing them how much you love them. This is the burden that arrives the moment you're gone. The weight you have to carry on your shoulders. The burning you feels over your skin when someone mentions their name. forever. You loved them but did not show it. And maybe you wanted more but was too distracted to do anything about it. You lost them. Some people can’t see the the good things in front of them because they think that they have time for it later but you know what, sometimes later become NEVER. How many “what if” in your life? If you have too much ” what if’s “ in your mind then what if your feelings are returned? You have to try for things even when you don't know the outcome. After you tell them the truth they can smile, say you they feel the same or simply go away, disappear and don’t talk to you anymore. All of these are still better than talking with a person and not telling them your real feelings. We never know what will happen tomorrow or in next few hours. Bear in mind that the pain of rejection and the awkwardness of feeling vulnerable is nothing compared to the regret of not saying something when you no longer have the chance. “Better is open rebuke than hidden love”