Love-hate

Upset

I’m a type of person that value friendship more than relationship , I rather not date anyone just so I have more time to hang out with my close friend. We share stuff no one ever know about us , enjoy each other’s company without saying a word to each other , inside jokes , hangout non stop…But then things change , third party comes in , she is still my friend but someone else has become her closest friend. They share conversations day and night , calling non stop , playing with each other all the time . I feel like I’m left out but who am i to be jealous of that , you guys seem to be enjoying each other company so much , why would i ruin that because of my feeling , I’m just upset that I can’t provide you that feeling , but it is what it is . I don’t know if you know that I’m upset with that but since I’m not good at opening up to you anymore, I hope the best for you guys even if we become stranger one day…

Being used

Doesn't it feel so sh*tty to be used by someone we care about whether it be friends or someone you have feelings for? Like they would only think of us when they need us for some reasons. When we are out of use, they would completely ignore our existence. I felt like an idiot for assuming that the person slightly thinks about me sometimes. The truth is I only cross their mind when I can offer them some sort of benefits. Now that I recall the time they said we're close, I cringe so hard and feel so stupid.

2025-08-14

ផ្ទះគេ

ជាក្មេងដែលប្ដូរពីខេត្តមកនៅទីក្រុង។ តម្រូវឲ្យត្រូវមកផ្ញើរខ្លួននៅផ្ទះគេ ផ្ទះញាតិ "ផ្ទះម្ដាយមីង ដែលខ្ញុំហៅថា កូវ"។ "ផ្ទះគេ" ពាក្យតែ 2 ម៉ាត់ទេ តែបង្កប់ដោយរឿងឈឺចាប់ តូចចិត្តវេទនាក្នុងនឹងពិបាកបងស្រាយ។ រស់នៅក្រោមជម្រកគេមិនងាយស្រួលទេ បងប្អូនឯងក៏ដោយ រស់ដោយមើលទឹកមុខគេ រស់ដោយការព្យាយាមធ្វើគ្រប់យ៉ាងដើម្បីផ្គាប់ចិត្តគេ រស់ដោយត្រូវគេសង្កេតមើលគ្រប់សកម្មភាព ទាំងដើរ ទាំងឈរ ព្រោះគេក្លាចយើងនាំចង្រៃចូលផ្ទះគេ។ គេព្យាយាម control ខ្ញុំ សូម្បីតែលុយដែលខ្ញុំប្រឹងរកដោយកម្លាំងញើសឈាមខ្ញុំ ខ្ញុំប្រឹងរកស៊ីផង រៀនផង ធ្វើការផង គ្រាន់តែទិញសម្ភារៈដើម្បីផ្គាប់ចិត្តខ្លួនឯងក៏ត្រូវគេជេរ គេថាខ្ញុំខ្ជះខ្ជាយ គេថាខ្ញុំស្រីកញ្ជើរធ្លុះ គេថាខ្ញុំហក់លោទធ្វើចរិកកូនអ្នកមាន គេចង់ control ការចាយវាយខ្ញុំ😅 នៅច្រើនទៀត ច្រើននិយាយអត់អស់។ តែមានតែអ្នកធ្លាប់ នឹង កំពង់នៅផ្ទះគេ ដូចខ្ញុំទេ ដែលយល់ថាវាវេទនាពិនណា😄

Trade-off

This is a story of a unpopular boy who barely made any friend amount his classmates. One girl noticed him for being himself. Destiny brought them together then the boy have to leave the girl for 6months.However, the girl was still waiting for his return and carrying on their relationship. Good things won't last long, the time had passed by the boy's career had started to get busier and busier that's why he barely made time for his love's one. Because he wanted to achieve his goal by getting promotion so he could have more time for her. Then the boy had finally achieved his goal yet his relationship had already ridded apart. At the end he was able to achieve his dream but not his love. He had more time but had no one to spend with.......... someone who always supported and motivated him to catch his dream was gone. So that is an opportunity cost between trading off your heart and your dream : )

យំ

U know what? I've just cried silently without a specific reason, sounds redicilous, right? Yeah! But it's too painful. I dunno why I usually cry like that, wanna sit alone in a dark place, can't control own self. I feel I'm so useless, I feel empty, feel so complicated!!! What do I want? who am I? Why am I here?

The hard way back

No one talks about how hard it is to get your life back on track after a depressive episode, I planned on ending my own life which is why I slowly stop putting effort in my study, relationships and work…now that I’ve seek help and gotten better, I have to deal with the consequences of my actions.

ហេតុអ្វី?

ហេតុអ្វីបានជាត្រូវសួរសំនួរខ្លួនឯងជាច្រើនបែបនេះ? ហេតុអ្វីព្យាយារកលេសល្អៗសម្រាប់គេធ្វើអី បើគង់តែមានរឿងមកថ្មីទៀត តើនឹងហត់នៅថ្ងៃណាមួយទេ? តើពេលនោះគេនឹងចាប់យើងពេលយើងរបូតដៃទេ? តើមកពីគេមិនយកចិត្តទុកដាក់ រឺ យើងមិនសំខាន់ រឺ មកពីយើងស្រលាញ់ដល់ថ្នាក់ចិត្តចង្អៀតពេក? មិនមែនមកពីខ្យល់ជាអ្នកបក់ស្លឹកឈឺអោយជ្រុះទេ! ដើមឈើទៅវិញទេដែលដល់ពេលអនុញ្ញាតិអោយស្លឹកឈើចាកទៅ។

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