This isn't really a confession about anything, but more like an announcement. I don't know if I will be able to continue this thing we called living any longer. I guess it like I'm running away but I don't think I can keep doing this so when I hit my 20th birthday, I think I'm going to kill myself. I think it gonna be the right thing to do because I'm pretty worthless and my life meant nothing so yea. Cheer to the next 2 months of my life.
I deserve to be treated well. Why are you treating me like this? If you don’t wanna talk to me, just tell me. You don’t have to ignore and ghosting me like this. Texting with you is just like replying not talking. Why you made me feels like I’m begging you just to talk to me. If you’re lost interest, just TELL ME. Sorry for accidentally caught feelings for you, but I can’t help it.
From someone you didn’t talk to anymore. It’s been almost 3 years since we met each other in China . Everything went smoothly for us until we got back to our home country. You started to change all of your attitude toward me, the text became emotionless as cold ice. Anything reminds me of you even your favorite drink, favorite dessert, favorite food and all the things we used to do together. Have you ever thought about how we spend there ? How we talked? How we explore the Chinese food ? How I walked you to your school gate ? Have you ever missed me even once? Did anything remind me of you? #KNT01.
I was interested in him. I found his Instagram and I just clicked follow ‘cause I wanted to stalk him. Once, he had reacted on my story, then he replied to my story. We started talking to each other since that day. We’ve met 4times in person. We have a good connection. We keep contacting, checking up and talking to each other almost every day and night. We become more closer and closer. We’ve been knowing each other for 7months and we decided to go on date. We have a road trip. We created so many good memories together. There’s nothing between us. But when we were together, our action is more than a couple. I fall for him since the day we dated. But I keep it in mind ‘cause I’m not sure if he feel the same. I just play along day by day. One day, I decided to make the first move, I express all my feeling to him. I confessed to him. But… sadly, I got reject. So I choose to walk out and move on. BUT! He didn’t let me go! That’s the point!! He once said that we can’t be in a relationship. Also, we can’t end up. He tryna fix it. I muted and ignored all his social media but he keep contacting me everyday. Until today, he still ghosting me. I don’t really know what kind of relationship is this. I just wanna walk out and move on with peace. I don’t wanna waste each other time. I’m so tired of staying in this kind of situation. In the end, we’re not friend. Not a couple. We both just a stranger that used to have good memories. But please, let me go…
I want to apologize for my mistake. I was wrong my dear that I asked for a break up. I was short-tempered and didn't think wisely. As for now I miss you so bad, think about you every night. I miss your face that I used to see. I miss your hair I used to touch. I miss our memories that we'd done together. I miss this feeling when I have someone by my side. someone who truly love me. I feel so guilty and lonely. It's ashamed to ask for a second chance. I wish you all the best of luck and maybe meet someone who could treat you better. Im sorry :((
I’m thinking of dying again. 22-04-22 -khoy mouygech
Funny isn’t it ? I thought were supposed to work on our problems. and stay friends forever? people say you’re toxic and such but i still defend and stay by your side . I’ve done bad things in the past but I’ve let it go and learned my mistake and I was hoping you’d do the same. I’d never knew you’d give up on us so easily. I’ve always put friendship above relationship cuz i know i can move on from guys i dated but not the friends that i’ve shared memories with. It’s okay na, I forgave you, live well and be happy na, I’ll be supporting you and cherished the friendship we had. Stay happy and healthy, I won’t be there to see it but i hope you achieved your dream<3
Yes
Sometimes it becomes pressure for me that I always need to say ''Yes'' to everything that my friends ask for. It's doesn't mean that I don't want to help them or whatever, but I feel really bad about it. They keep wanting me do whatever they want, I mean if they want that I HAVE TO do that for them, they always want me to do like that all the time, even I say ''I can't''. On the other hand, I still cannot say ''NO'' to them as well, whenever I say ''NO'' to them I always feel wrong but at the same time I feel pressure as well. I feel like sometimes they don't respect my decision. I swear I want to be a selfish person sometimes, I don't want to be a tool for anyone that can be using all the time like that, but I don't know HOW TO SAY NO. Tell me if i'm wrong.