To the girl I once rejected

Nothing was wrong with you, I swear. The one who was problematic is me, myself. As soon as I sensed that you have developed feeling for me, I tried to warn you not to fall for me several time. At that time, I was suffered from my ex-crush who got in a relationship with another man. (I loved my crush so much back then). To be honest, I didn't want you to get caught up in my pain. The one who should suffer from that burden is nobody but myself. I even told you my story (you are the only one I ever told my story) and told you not to fall for me. I knew even if I got in that relationship I won't commit completely and even if I asked you to wait, it would way too unfair for you. However, I know you are someone who love hard and you shouldn't waste time with me and you deserve something better. Back then, I took a harsh decision, I blocked you out of blue so that you would hate me and forget me (and yes, it worked). I knew that you would suffer from that, but I guess it is better to suffer in short terms rather than living in pain everyday right? It is completely ok to hate me, to blame me, it is reasonable and logical. After that incident, I avoid making friend with girl as much as possible, I don't want to commit the same mistake again and again. Recently, I did sneak check on you and I found out you are in a new relationship and you both seems so happy. That is the outcome I expected. Seeing you in your current state, I knew I took the right decision after all. You are someone who should live a happy life because it is all you deserve. Nobody should experience the same pain as I did. I will remember that I was once loved. I don't hold any grudge against you. I do respect and appreciate you from the bottom of my heart. I wish you all the best.

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