Painful scars 12th April
I know that your life is so different now from mine. I know that you may never forget about us, but you have forgotten your feelings about me. I know that you have somebody else beside you And I know that you may be saying your i-love-yous to him in different ways. Something that is quite deeper, bolder, or even kinder. Or something that promises your stay still together. I’m just here to write this one for you as I couldn’t think of any better way to tell you how I truly feel until this day about what has happened to us. And to tell you, in case there’s a chance that you read this—that I’ve forgiven you, myself, our past; to say “thank you,” and bid you farewell for the last time. I wish there’s a better way to tell you how painful that night was for me. That night when you said your feeling fade that my mistake...i been thinking why somebody else has occupied your heart that fast while being with me for 1 year you being with me. You didn’t have any idea that while you were saying those words, my hands couldn’t stop shaking as I’ve never expected what was going to happen. I didn’t know that the few days before that night would be the last time that I’ll get to experience a pure bliss being with you. That I’ll never be able to genuinely smile again for a few years. And that I’ll crash and burn. I didn’t know that such deep pain would exist and I’ve underestimated the capacity of life to hurt me in ways that I’ve failed to imagine. I saw how a moment changes, how time is fleeting so fast right before my eyes. That one moment you were telling me that you wouldn’t hesitate to give the world or your life to me. And then another sudden moment came and you treated me like I was the most disgusting person you have ever known. They say time heals all wounds, but the wound you’ve caused me is way beyond having a bruised heart. My soul got wounded too, and it still cries sometimes for what was inflicted on me