Don’t Said Sorry
You don’t have to say sorry that much since I know how you feel right now. Just to let you know, I still love you. #S
i wish we knew each other through the internet, i wish you see me as how i want other ppl to see me, i wish we didn’t take the 2 step to talk to each other. i portray myself as a perfect pretty girl on the internet bc who doesn’t want to be perfect and pretty but in reality.. it’s different and you see that in me, you see the broken bits of pieces of me and all the thing under that perfect mask… and you still except it. i still wish we met in a different way so you don’t have to see me in this state, bc it hurts me knowing i let a person in my reality to suffers with me and that person i truly cared and love for. i wish i have more time to fix me before going to you.
You don’t have to say sorry that much since I know how you feel right now. Just to let you know, I still love you. #S
我有一头牛
Day by day we started to talk less and less. I tried my best to keep it going but you acted I’m annoying you. Sometimes, I wish that our long conversation will come back but I know that it probably won’t because I thought about it one sided. I always the second choice to anyone in my entire life but at first you made me feel like I’m not your second choice but not anymore. Is it because you’ve found someone else? I have so so many things left unsaid and I think that it’s better off that way.
Long story short, I have a crush on this girl for like 3 years now until January this year I decide to step up my game and ask her out to study at a café every weekend. Things were smooth until Covid lockdown became a thing. Even though we couldn’t meet, but I still talk to her regularly, buy gifts for her every special occasions... Now that we can actually meet each other, there is another problem that I need you guys’s opinion. We’re both grade 12 and as you know we’ll have a national exam soon. The thing is should I confess to her right after the exam? How do I confess to her? It’s pretty obvious that I don’t want to break our friendship so what should I do? (I’m a nerd and this is my first time doing these things plus she’s the best thing that ever happen to me). Please let me know about your opinions in the comment section 😊
But what if I fail? what if fail?what should I do? What am I going to do next? What's their first impression when they know that I fail?what if they hate they? disgusted me? disappointed in me? scold me? look down on me? what's going to happens? should I just kill myself right away?I don't know I just knew that if I am really fail, the next thing is I'm not in my right mind,my mental health is unstable,all I can think is die cause im scared to tell them,I don't think I have any courage to tell them,I don't think I am brave enough to see their reaction after I tell them that I fail.. If I actually going to fail ,all I want is someone I trust to be by my side,I don't need their comfort words,all I want is someone to sit by my side and stop me from killing myself cause I can't trust myself..I just can't. But I don't have anyone.None. all my favorite people are gone. They're too far away. #BacII14/11/22
កាលពីឆ្នាំ 2019 ខ្ញុំបានសុបិនឃើញមនុស្សម្នាក់ដែលខ្ញុំមិនធ្លាប់ស្គាល់សោះ ជួបគេនៅកន្លែងដែលមិនស្គាល់ដូចគ្នា!ក្នុងសុបិន្តនោះ គេមិនបង្ហាញមុខឲ្យខ្ញុំឃើញទេ គ្រាន់តែបែខ្នង... it's really strange, because I never dreamed anyone who I never know. ពេលនោះក៏មិនចាប់អារម្មណ៍ គ្រាន់តែគិតថា ប្រហែលអារម្មណ៍មកពីណាមិនដឹងដែលឲ្យសុបិនបែបនេះ។ ខ្ញុំក៏បំភ្លេចវាទៅ... តែថ្មីៗនេះ ចុងឆ្នាំ2021 ខ្ញុំបែរជាសុបិនម្ដងទៀត វាចម្លែកដូចគ្នា ឃើញមនុស្សម្នាក់ដែលមិនធ្លាប់ស្គាល់ តែលើកនេះឃើញគេពីចំហៀងវិញ...ពេលភ្ញាក់មក មិនចាប់អារម្មណ៍ខ្លាំងទេ! បន្ទាប់មកចាប់ផ្តើមគិត Why this dream really strange? Have I seen this person before?? ចម្លើយគឺជា ម្នាក់ដែលខ្ញុំសុបិនកាលពី ២ ឆ្នាំមុន! ( ខ្ញុំមិនច្បាស់ទេថាគេបាននិយាយអីឬអត់ តែកាយវិការដែលគេបង្ហាយ ខ្ញុំអាចដឹងបានថាគេកំពុងចាំ ហើយឲ្យខ្ញុំចាំដូចគ្នា!) ខ្ញុំមិនដឹងថាវាពិតឬអត់ ហើយអ្នកទាំងអស់គ្នាជឿឬអត់ទេ តែខ្ញុំគ្រាន់តែគិតថាខ្ញុំនឹងជួបគេថ្ងៃណាមួយ! To that person : " Waiting " is the word that reminded me every day. No matter what, no matter where and who u are, if both dreams are real, I wish to see u. However, when that time comes u have someone or don't I'm still waiting. Just want to see u is enough!! Remember me! I'm still waiting u...!
I really miss you and It doesn’t matter how long I have to wait for you 3 months,5 months 1 year, 3 years it doesn’t matter. I want the dream that both of us dreamt of come true. I know everything seems cloudy for the both of us… But remember everything is going to be fine…. Until we meet again…
"We care , We call, We Meet and holding hand each other" but still not enough to clarity that I am your lover to other people and you either. Sometime more like lover Sometime more like stranger. It's so damn hurt me