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Sometimes the one who said the words never really remembered it, but the one who listened did. That's a tragedy.
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Sometimes the one who said the words never really remembered it, but the one who listened did. That's a tragedy.
I fell in love with him three years ago and until now. I secretly admire him from afar, i love him since he had no girlfriend until he had a girlfriend and broke up again. I ignored so many people for him but look at me, i’m single:) i really wanna confess my feelings but what if he rejects me? Cus i swear i always put my pride first, plus i’m so picky and i’ve always rejected people who have a crush on me, Call me stupid but I reject 5 guy becus of him, yet he knows nth. I just found out recently that he has a girlfriend for almost a month, but that’s ok. i’m willing to wait again, i won’t mess with their relationship.. i’ll love him in silence. Whatever, seeing him everyday at school is enough, even if we don’t talk with each other, sharing a small daily life with him is my greatest joy. My question is, should i confess to him at the end of the year? Cus, this is our last year as a high school student, it wouldn’t hurt if he rejected me cus we probably never met again. *i’m crying
កន្លងទៅ4ឆ្នាំហើយ ជាអត្ថបទដែលខ្ញុំសរសេរទុកសម្រាប់បង: ប្រហែលនេះជាstatusចុងក្រោយដែលខ្ញុំសរសេរសម្រាប់បង ខ្ញុំចង់និយាយពាក្យខ្លះទៅកាន់មនុស្សម្នាក់ដែលខ្ញុំស្រឡាញ់ហើយក៏ស្រលាញ់ជាទីបំផុតនៅក្នុងជីវិតស្នេហារបស់ខ្ញុំ ថែខ្លួនផងណា៎ ញ៉ាំអីអោយទៀងទាត់ណាប្រយ័ត្នឈឺ មើលទៅដូចជារាងរងារដែរព្រោះយប់នេះព្រោះភ្លៀង ហើយមើល៍ទៅដូចជាមិនអីទេបងរាល់ងៃដូចរាងសប្បាយចិត្តដែរ(ខ្ញុំក៏រីករាយដែរពេលបងបែបនេះ) ពេលមានស្នេហា កុំភ្លេចមើលថែគេ ផ្ដល់ក្តីស្រលាញ់ ភាពកក់ក្តៅ សុភមង្គល ពាក្យសម្តីល្អៗទៅកាន់គេព្រោះនេះជាអ្វីដែលមនុស្សគ្រប់រូបចង់បាន។ ហើយជាចុងក្រោយនៃ Statusមួយនេះខ្ញុំចង់ប្រាប់បងថា ខ្ញុំស្រឡាញ់បង ខ្ញុំនឹកបង ខ្ញុំសរសេរStatus1 នេះទាំងទឹកភ្នែកនិងក្តីស្រលាញ់ដែលមានចំពោះបង ខ្ញុំមិនដឹងថានឹងត្រូវបន្តបែបណាឫជាមួយនរណាម្នាក់ក្នុងជីវិតស្នេហា1នេះទៀតទេ ខ្ញុំចងចាំសម្លេង ការព្រួយបារម្ភ ការTake care ពីបង ក្តីស្រលាញ់មួយនេះវាធំធេងណាស់សម្រាប់ខ្ញុំ បងមានដឹងទេ? បេះដូងនិងចិត្តរបស់ខ្ញុំ គឺប្រគល់ឱ្យបងអស់ហើយ ទោះបីយើងស្គាល់គ្នាត្រឹមរយៈពេលខ្លីក៏ដោយ ខ្ញុំដឹងថាខ្ញុំមិនល្អគ្រប់គ្រាន់សម្រាប់បងទេ ទេីបបងចាកចេញ ដោយមុនបាននិយាយអ្វីសោះ សុខៗបងក៏ចាកចេញដោយសារខ្ញុំមិនស្អាតដូចគេ edit(ពេលនេះអ្វីៗផ្លាស់ប្ដូរហើយ នៅឡើយតែចិត្តរបស់ខ្ញុំ)♥️។ #ISTSTYMFPTILTM #Stone
Hmmm That’s my last text Sorry i knew that I’ve hurt u million times Sorry we can’t be back tgt Sorry cause my guilt are too big I can’t let u forgive me easily. Sorry that I made your day become the worst after your whole tiring both physically and mentally Sorry that I turned u down again and again Sorry that I can’t hold u long enough Sorry that I disappointed u Sorry I’m too selfish that I always want to be ur friend again Sorry I’m too selfish that I don’t want to be with u but I also don’t want u to be with someone else !!!! Billion sorry that I wanted to tell u but I can’t. I still love u however I have done enough to deal with my imaginable problem and I can’t share it with u. I can’t hold u any longer. Sorry my mental issue gonna hit me up again if I stay in relationship. Sorry that I made u become a drunk, stress, toxic person for the last 3 months. I’m sorry even we back tgt we still not the same since I’ve changed. I’m not the girl that u love anymore. Still Loving u was like a dream, a dream that i would never want to wake up Anyway hope u and her get along tgt. I hope that she will give u all the love that u deserve to receive. Hope that she treat u right. Hope that she’s the one that u’ve been searching for. ❤️💛
I know you read my messages from your notification. I know that when you claim you were busy, you were actually on your phone scrolling and chatting with your friends in a cafe. When you said you were busy, I know you were playing games or watching a movie. You messaging me is a choice and I messaging you is a duty. You take me for a granted...a friend whom you could rely on in terms of school work. I am that friend whom you could use whenever you feel like you need a female company. I am the friend who is there for you to practice your flirting skills. I am the friend who, after you finish scrolling up and down your newsfeed 5 times, will open the message and decide whether or not u should message back. I am the friend who recieves the message "huh” after 10 hours of trying to ask for help saying "im in pain, there is no one here.” So do not text me five days later that you forgot to check your phone even though I saw you share memes 3 days ago. Do not text an apology and ask about how i felt because i went through hell and you choose to ignore it. Do not look at me with those eyes as if I am the only girl in the world and that no one else matters because clearly I can be on my deathbed right now and you will still decide to check up on me "tomorrow”. Do not share posts about how heartbroken you are when you see me flirt with someone who actually cares about me and do not update me on your activities like we are something when we arent. We're just friends so stop acting like we're lovers and you're the boyfriend giving excuses for ignoring his girlfriend. We're just friends and you are already breaking me apart, taking me for granted, and forcing me up a rollercoaster ride of confusion and pain....imagine how it will be if you are more than a friend.
I have been keeping many problems inside of me, not because I have no one,but there are many people who take care on me, always check up. The point I just want them live their happiness and I don't trust many people to speak out. People thought I'm fine I'm so strong, but I can't stop my tear when my soul mate hit the point. I tried to say "Oh I'm good, I'm fine". Sometimes, I disappear on social media also I stop connecting with friends, close people. Sorry for doing this, I need time to rest. Healing... Disconnected- may the happiness to my people.
I was interested in him. I found his Instagram and I just clicked follow ‘cause I wanted to stalk him. Once, he had reacted on my story, then he replied to my story. We started talking to each other since that day. We’ve met 4times in person. We have a good connection. We keep contacting, checking up and talking to each other almost every day and night. We become more closer and closer. We’ve been knowing each other for 7months and we decided to go on date. We have a road trip. We created so many good memories together. There’s nothing between us. But when we were together, our action is more than a couple. I fall for him since the day we dated. But I keep it in mind ‘cause I’m not sure if he feel the same. I just play along day by day. One day, I decided to make the first move, I express all my feeling to him. I confessed to him. But… sadly, I got reject. So I choose to walk out and move on. BUT! He didn’t let me go! That’s the point!! He once said that we can’t be in a relationship. Also, we can’t end up. He tryna fix it. I muted and ignored all his social media but he keep contacting me everyday. Until today, he still ghosting me. I don’t really know what kind of relationship is this. I just wanna walk out and move on with peace. I don’t wanna waste each other time. I’m so tired of staying in this kind of situation. In the end, we’re not friend. Not a couple. We both just a stranger that used to have good memories. But please, let me go…
I saw your post. Should you commit suicide? you failed as a son and boyfriend . Not just him anyone that felt like that. First I want to say you are lovable you have your own worth that's not everyone can see it . Person who values you will see you worth . However I know we want the affection especially from our closeness like family I was also the same . When I begin to stop ask for that instead love myself, value myself , in the end we only have ourself . I want to tell you that live on for your dream or travel to any place that you never before . If you don't have dream you will discover one . Secondly Learn to forgive who blamed you for your existence when you start learning forgiveness and want nth back . You will start to heal yourself . Remember you have your own value . Fight for yourself love yourself more . You never reward yourself then do it . Give yourself a rest . Thirdly, we are not perfect . We have our own imperfections . Learn from the past ,the mistakes, the trauma ,the misery. And forgive yourself accept those thing, learn it and improve yourself . For anyone who hurts you . You have two choices either keep distancing or be normal you still be yourself doing good deed just be yourself even you realise they never be in good term with you( they might take time to realise it ) But still it is better to distance yourself from them and give yourself growth. I think everyone know commit suicide is not solutions but sometimes we can't fight anymore we are tired emotionally , spiritually, physically . That's why you need to rest . You should forgive them and maybe distance yourself after you start to focus on yourself to heal . Love yourself 🤗. Afterall you only have yourself in the end . You was born alone you will die alone your sadness carry is alone . If you have no friends to share your story with . Write it down to book all the feeling,anger ,happy how is your day ? Planning things ahead . Maybe you should try to learn new things like arts, music discover yourself. One more thing read book or feed your brain with any knowledge if you are into any major feed yourself with it to build yourself . When you are busy with yourself you will eventually not care about other anymore . All your attention shift on yourself . Last but not least again .keep moving forward . You are so awesome human being . Please take care of yourself more and love yourself୧(＾ 〰 ＾)୨. From me Viramoon. sorry for my grammer . I'm still working on it.