Same shit different day.

To someone

Dear someone! I am not brave enough to tell you how I feel and I know you will ignore me if I tell you. I appreciate that I’ve known you that long and we still keep in touch as good friend as we used to do. Thank you for being my good friend who value me and protect me. I have felt because of ur goodness and I cannot stop myself to think about you more than friend. I know it won’t happen but I still wish that you will think abt me someday. (At least we met)! Thanks someone on earth !!!!!!!

Sleep forever

I know it not really good to hearing those words. For me , yeah I am really tired of benign a live. I wish that I will sleep forever and never wake up. Only sleep that can help me stay aways from my nightmares, stress , tóxic , depress , sad , cry and more that I usually felt every night. At age 22 , the more I grow the more I scare . I really wish that I could sleep forever and never wake up. I am really tired of everything, study , family, love , friendship, future and everything around me . I really tired . I know it too hard but why I don’t be strong and don’t give up ? I try tooo . I really try to ne strong and don’t give up . But I still can’t survive at all . People thought that I am unless. I am usefulness . I couldn’t do anything better like other. I am really tired of hiding my broken pieces. And I tired of getting hurt again and again . I really wish that I could sleep forever and never wake up.

Old notes

I felt inspired by watching the rain through my bedroom’s window with my light off. What if the rain were just like us human when crying? Those droplets were just like our tears. Those rumbled thunder was just like us yelling out for help, and those lighting strikes were like us trying to hurt ourselves. It would be unfair if so. Instead of having friends staying besides to comfort like human, the rain doesn’t. Even worse, people would just run away as fast as they can just to avoid it; they get scared, cover their ears even eyes, and curse when they see or hear it thundering. I am one of them too. I get scared and cover my ears when hearing ones. But now, by sitting in my room and considering it, I feel sorry for it. Imagine having no one to turn to or understand you when you need them, and that’s how the sky feels right now. It has been hiding its pain for so long that it couldn’t hold it back anymore, so it had to let it out by pouring rain on us, hopelessly crying and asking for help. That’s why I sit here in my room looking at you and admire you from afar without you noticing or even knowing that I exist. You are doing a great job. Yes! Let it all out; however, I can’t assure you that there won’t be any day like this again, but one step at a time. Remember all those days that the sun was burning all of the creatures on earth while you were their savior? You gave us rain, shades, and good days to us. We are grateful for that. You know what? Without you raining (crying and getting things out of your chest), the presence of rainbow means nothing at all. Therefore, look at those good things you have done for us to keep you going. #sciencefailed

Thank you

Dear admin, I wrote 'Feeling and reason are at war'. I am writing now to let you know that I am just here to free my mind like you offer. You dont need to post it up on the page, I just hope there is someone who can read what is on my mind. Thank you and I really appreciate your offer.

Appreciate

"ការស្រលាញ់ដែរចេញពីចិត្ត គឺជាអារម្មណ៍នៃការផ្តល់អោយ ផ្តល់អោយដោយចេញពីចិត្តដោយមិនមានការទាមទារពីភាគគីម្ខាងទៀតទេ ដូចជាការគោរព ការទុក្ខចិត្ត ការបារម្ភ... " ទាំងនេះគឺជាពាក្យដែរខ្ងុំនិយាយប្រាប់ទៅ មនុស្សម្នាក់ដែរសួរខ្ងុំថា "what is love". ទោះបីជាពេលនេះពួកយើងលែងជាអ្វីនឹងគ្នា ប៉ុន្តែការផ្ដល់ឱ្យរបស់ខ្ញុំចំពោះអ្នកនៅតែមាន ខ្ញុំមិនដែលខឹង ស្អប់ រឺក៏គុំគួនអ្នកឡើយទោះបីជាអ្នកដៀលខ្ងុំតាមរយះ status share or story ដោយការយល់ច្រលំលើទង្វើរបស់ខ្ងុំក៏ដោយ. បើសួរនៅអាណិត ស្រលាញ់ទេ អារម្មណ៍នេះនៅតែមាន តែខ្ងុំមិនអាចបកក្រោយទេ ព្រោះចង់ឃើញអ្នកនៅជាមួយមនុស្សដែរល្អជាងខ្ងុំ ចំពោះខ្ងុំបានត្រឹមធ្វើជាសង្សារ និងបានលឺពាក្យថា I feel love when I'm with you and I never feel this with anyone before គឺគ្រប់គ្រាន់ហើយ. អ្នកប្រហែលជាគិតថាខ្ងុំអត់ដែរស្រលាញ់អ្នកទេបានជាខ្ងុំកាត់ចិត្តបានលឿនយ៉ាងនេះ ប៉ុន្តែផ្ទុយទៅវិញខ្ងុំគ្រាន់តែទទួលការពិតថាពួកយើងមិនអាចនៅជាមួយគ្នាបាន រួចទទួលយកការឈឺចាប់ទាំងអស់ ហើយក៏រំសាយម្តងបន្តិចៗតាមតែអាចធ្វើបាន បែបនេះហើយបានជាអារម្មណ៍របស់ខ្ងុំមិននៅជាប់ជុំពាក់នឹងអតីតកាល

to the moon

I know you're here. I am sorry about what I have done to you and I hope you will find yourself in the future. I am sorry I hurt you and I am aware that the actions I have done to you were beyond unforgivable. I was too caught up being in my own element forgetting there was another person who wanted to be by my side too. I am sorry a million times and there is no other way for you to be happier than just letting you go and find someone else. I am sorry once again. I hope all the pieces that have fallen apart will come together once the right person appears in front of you. the person who wants to be with you 24/7. the person who genuinely loves you for who you are, and most importantly, the person who won't make you question your self-worth because you are more than enough. I am sorry I could not be that person for you. I wish things worked between us too 'cause there's nothing I wouldn't do to make you stay, but I guess it wasn't supposed to work out that way. You can get through this, I believe in you. I'm sorry again and again. (question for the admins, will u post if someone submits a confession of them barking?)

2025-08-14

Heartbreak is a karma (Admin edition)

Yeah well admin is also using this page because stuff be that messed up sometimes. Religiously speaking, you do good, you get good. You do bad, you get bad. And that's karma. I'm not that religious myself but some theories do stay. When I do good, I don't expect anything back. But when I know I did something bad, I always expected that it will happen back to me one day. Right now, I don't know, I feel empty, I feel heartbrokened. Yeah allowing myself to feel those things, I put myself at fault, only I am to blame. But like the title says: Heartbreak's a karma. I'm not pretty, I dont have much admirers in high school so I'm not used to people liking me. So when I encounter someone who does, I used to just accept their love and learn to love them afterwards because I guess that is what happens when you are desperate. But now I dont do that anymore, I meet so much people nowadays so high school was a small world, a small sea with a few fish. I raised my standards, I told myself to only get in a relationship if i genuinely get attached when we were talking, I need to like someone before getting into a relationship. I wont ever get into a relationship and then learn to like them afterwards, never again. Unexpectedly I found that someone. I raised my standards and I raised my guards but in the end I still caught feelings alone. Again, I'm not pretty. But people confessed, people tried flirting. They were good people, they put in so much efforts yet I already liked someone else so rejection was the only way out; I tried ignoring the texts, replied the texts after a long time, and with all these indirect rejections, sometimes I still had to come down to a direct one where I said no. Being rejected hurts, I know it hurts because I've been through it too so I dont like rejecting people; I dont want to hurt you because I know what it's like to be hurt. So please, dont fall for me, dont try to love me, dont like me more than a friend. Every heartbreak, every sorrow Im feeling, I blame myself, I blame myself because i did that to you too, and the pain found its way back. Besides of the guilt of rejecting people, I'm hard to love, I'm incapable of being happy, there are so much more people out there who deserve your love, your efforts, but not me. Furthermore, when I like someone, I do it with all my heart and that's not something that is easy to pull out from so you're probably too late regarding the speed of how fast I fall for someone. My life, my emotions, how I function are so messed up like that. I wouldn't want you to be messed up trying to adapt with me.