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I’m dying inside

Generally, I’m a happy person. I laugh a lot, I smile a lot. My friends called me “យាយប្រិមប្រិយ”. It's hard to see me without a smile on my face. Everyone thinks that I don't have any problems in my life, since I always laugh and smiling in every pictures that we captured. Deep down I’m slowly dying day by day. I literally cannot find any form of joy in my life. I feel like I can't show my real feelings; I feel like I have to keep smiling and i feels really guilty if I tell them about that because it’ll ruin their day. I’m jealous to those who brave enough to talk about it especially admit that they’ve suicidal thoughts. Smiling and laughing has become a reflex for me and it’s easier for me rather than tell them what’s going on. I no longer “ME” for a long time ago but nobody noticed it. I feel like someone is clawing away at me on the inside. I feel so empty. I don't know what to do.

my perfect stranger

you disappeared. months passed, kept checking up your account, viewed your stories, trying to move on, tried filling the void that was missing, tried focusing on myself, but in the end, only your text can make me felt those happiness i’ve been looking for. thought you missed me, thought you was waiting for me, thought you still missed those times with me, decided to text you again. all those thoughts dropped. it was only my thoughts all along. met many girls, none caught my attention. but you, i sometimes wonder why. “no matter how far we will be, you will always have a spot in my heart. you will always be welcomed here.” let’s meet again in the right time, or maybe next life. i’ll wait.

2025-08-14

Crying Every night

Let me tell you about my nightmares. The most things I am Afraid of , it is I am gonna lose my man once day. It hurt so much. The man I love the most more than myself. But we still can’t be together. We are still in relationship as a girlfriend and boyfriend until nowadays. We fall in love since we are in Highschool. Day by day, when I grow up , I getting more scare . The more I grow , the more I scare . You know what ? Because I know that my parents won’t approve us. Yes. I know that is not easy to get through that situation. To make the reader more Easy to understand : ( Rich & Poor ). I know that is too hard . Really hard to fight it . To my man ❤️, he was working so hard day by day . He was thinking so much day by day . Everything he did just wants to get me and live with me . I know that he won’t give up until we still strong to fight. But time fly to fast and the hope are less . The thing has change . And I asked myself , if I didn’t agree to love him . Maybe he have more freedom than with me . If I didn’t love him , maybe he not really get too hard for me . If I reject on that day , maybe he not get too much pressure , too much stress and too much overthinking. He also know that , it too hard to get me . But he will try again and again until he give up. He still try too hard for me . I didn’t regret because I love him . But I regret that I love him and make him more difficult because of me . Everything is my false. We have been talk each about that situation. And I still can’t accept it . That why I always cry every night I went to sleep. It too hard to stay far aways from the man I love the most. Our story are too complicated and too long. But I hide that feeling for many years . I didn’t told my boyfriend about that but he knew that I am stress about that so much and overthinking . But he didn’t knew that I had cry so hard every night . I really t hope that I can stay with him❤️. I love you so much 💕. Note: It quite too long about my story . And I am sorry if my English not really good . Because I am poor with English. Thank for those who read my story. Big thank to this page that help me to talk about my story out. Even not help me 100% . But at least 50% help a lots to share my story and let them know my story . #Thankeveryone. #Thankknongjitpage

I made it <3

I am the confessor of #KJ0217 I just wanted to say that I made it. It was super awkward at first but then things turn out better. BIG Thanks to those who give me tips cuz it really helped me a lot!🙏🏻 Proud to say I am dating my dream girl ❤️

What were we?

I couldn’t call it an end because we have never begun anything. We were friends, but both of us have crossed the line. He told me that he had feelings for me, that he wanted to be with me, but he wouldn’t be committed to me. Later on I asked him what were we, he ignored my question and changed the topic. I guess that’s where my insecure became worse. He always had time for everything except me. For his movies, games, football, friends... He always forgot things that he said he will do with me. From small daily things to dates. Whenever I was feeling down, he ignored me. I kept being insecure and mad over everything, and finally he fell out of love. I guess it was my fault. For being broken and unable to love properly. I didn’t know if I am to blame or the environment I’m in is. However, he was different. He was enthusiastic about everything in life. Maybe, we weren’t just meant to be. We were too different. From background to personality. Now, I think he’s seeing someone new. Honestly, I felt miserable. I questioned myself if I was that easy to forget and replace? Did everything between us mean nothing for him? Was he just lonely and that’s not love for him? Whatever it is, I wish him all the best. I hope he’s happy with her. That’s the last thing I can do for him, giving him the peace he’s always wanted. I learned my lesson here. There’s no way someone will be ready for you if they weren’t from the start. Don’t wait for them. When they aren’t sure about you, and won’t commit, leave. Turn away and run and never coming back.

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