Just want to be your friend again …

First of all I’d like to say that it’s been long time that we don’t talk to each other but I still can’t get you out of my mind . I met a lot of people but nobody feels like you . I want to move on and forget you but it doesn’t work . I knew we just friends but I feel so safe when I’m with you . I crush on him almost 3years but never confess. He always treats me like he have feeling for me . since I knew that I like him more than friend Im just trying to distance myself because I know I can’t lose you .Sadly I’ve made all the wrong decision. From now on I still wanna be with you but I know it won’t work . So, I want you to be happy that’s it .

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Irreplaceable you.

You were the best, you were the one who i trully “Love”. The word ‘Love’ is a strong word for both of us to use. We cross path as if fate brought us together for a reason. We clicked so well, it feels like 2 broken pieces were placed to complete each other missing parts. We both have the same taste in Movies, Music, things that revolve around us, We like to spend quality time together. It gets to the point where the word ‘Love’ grows on me and It gets to the point where i can’t go on a day without talking to you. You are just as cold as the winter, independent as you are and i love you. It’s hard for you to show your feelings toward others, you said it’s lame to ask for affections. but we eventually part ways. Months have passed, I started to live without you, I couldn’t move on from you if gets to the point where i have to date someone to move on from you, for godsake i couldn’t you were there everywhere i go, on my mind like a lyric that stucked in my head and i kept repeating it over and over. Everywhere i go i see familiar faces, where they looked like you, same glasses, same length of hair, the same hair style, the same way u walk, everything just reminding me of you. I was a fool to let you go, everything leads to regret, i should have never left you in the first place, i should have changed for you. You loved me, you moved on. I’m happy for you. We both crossed path and i’m glad. Our time that we’ve spent it will shine like gold in my memories. Irreplaceable you, no one can take your place.

2025-08-14

Maybe that’s who I am

So, I rejected my crush after he conveyed his feeling to me. It’s funny how the result should have made me happy, yet it turned out to be something scary to me. I want him to receive the sincere love from me but I don’t know how to do that. I don’t know how to love anyone properly. It feels like all I can do is just let me live with this feeling alone and he can just ignore me. Because it’s always better to never get started rather than having to leave him in the future. I don’t want him to be hurt. At least, right now he can forget about me more easily. -t.o.

2025-08-14

Until then

Hey. How have you been? I hope you are doing well. Ever since the day you returned my book and we stopped talking, on some days when I’m alone by myself, I could feel a sense of emptiness within my soul because I lost a great friend. An amazing life partner. Someone who genuinely tried to be there for me. Someone who tried to get to know me, understand me, and never judged. Someone who used to make silly jokes and laughed hysterically with me. Now whenever I go, I keep looking for you. Whenever I see the car you drive, it reminds me of you. Whenever I drive past the places we used to go, it gives me a hint of warmth and bittersweet memories. Right now I’m sitting at one of our favorite places by myself, reminiscing about us back in the days. I don’t know why I’m doing this. I guess it’s because I can only miss you from afar. Maybe its because both of us deserve closure before everything ended, but we never got one. Maybe it’s because I regret making hasty decisions of cutting you off and ignoring your existence. As much as I want to send you a text, I could never get myself to do it. I guess it’s too late and I shouldn’t ruin your efforts of moving on from me. Nevertheless, I wish you all the best in life and I hope you accomplish everything you want to do. Maybe one day, we’ll get to meet again and talk it out. Until then, I will still long for your presence. Until then, please continue to be a beautiful soul that you’ve always been.

2025-08-14

The villain is me

There have been countless times where I've made you feel all of those disgusting feelings knowing full well how much you loved me knowing how much I hated these but I couldn't bring myself to change so suddenly. So i gave up our connection even though I still loved you dearly. Maybe that's why it pained me to see you being all hurtful and anxious because of my thoughtless actions, the thought that only me matters in our relationship. I've pictured us in a family of many pets, pictured you being the best dad and the best husband a man could ever be. That at some point i was unable to picture my life without you. But gradually, I've realized my behaviors started to hurt you, my actions began to make you doubt my love for you, we kept misinterpreting and misunderstanding each other. I tried my best to be optimistic about the situation despite being the over emotional and dramatic person i am. I have thought that with love, we could overcome everything but i was naive. I forgot that love is just the topping to the already flourishing relationship. We couldn't take each other's words to heart, you have a complete different opinion and view and so do I. So how can we expect each of us to understand each other? I've resisted the urge to approach you multiple times already since we broke up, I've cried thinking about you, i just wanted to scream loudly so the whole world know i miss you. I've missed you but I'd rather pick your happiness over this. I'll still hold the belief that you'll find someone who can shoulder all the burdens you're carrying, always be the ear to listen to your thoughts, always have the heart to open to your everything. I'll pray for you. I didn't want to make this long, but it's already long. So I wanna close this with .... I love you. Sorry that your last person couldn't be me. I will forever cherish the memories we had. Please stay safe and healthy. From that girl who let you go away.

2025-08-14

Just a side person like a side dish

So, get this, I totally fell for this guy. And to try and get closer to him, we became BFFs. And man, did I fall harder and harder for him. We did everything together — hit up bars, and he even taught me how to balance my meals with other stuff like changing my car oil, fixing my sink, and changing light bulbs. And I also introduced him to some sweet books, movies, and music. Then, I had to watch him go and marry the girl of his dreams. And guess what? It wasn't me.

2025-08-14

Her.

One of the hardest things that I’m doing right now is letting go of a person whom I never thought I would do. It’s the best for myself to be able to heal. I wrote my stories here probably a few times of how I love that person but in the end we’re just friends. I still have feelings for her and I don’t think I would ever lose those feelings, but the thing is I’m moving forward. I don’t stay in the same old place with the wonderful/painful memories. Honestly, she’s the first person that I’ve loved this much and I even told her that. Still, I need to accept the fact that it’s not gonna work and our connection can only be “best friend”. She told me that she met someone and she kinda loves that him too. So yeah. Sometimes you miss the memories and the times that you had spent with them but not the person themselves.

2025-08-14

To someone

Dear someone! I am not brave enough to tell you how I feel and I know you will ignore me if I tell you. I appreciate that I’ve known you that long and we still keep in touch as good friend as we used to do. Thank you for being my good friend who value me and protect me. I have felt because of ur goodness and I cannot stop myself to think about you more than friend. I know it won’t happen but I still wish that you will think abt me someday. (At least we met)! Thanks someone on earth !!!!!!!

2025-08-14

!!

I don’t like you I just don’t want you to be in relationship.