Just a side person like a side dish

So, get this, I totally fell for this guy. And to try and get closer to him, we became BFFs. And man, did I fall harder and harder for him. We did everything together — hit up bars, and he even taught me how to balance my meals with other stuff like changing my car oil, fixing my sink, and changing light bulbs. And I also introduced him to some sweet books, movies, and music. Then, I had to watch him go and marry the girl of his dreams. And guess what? It wasn't me.

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A letter to the one that got away

You will never see this. I wish I could telepathize what I have always been hiding inside my heart to you right now. It is unbelievable that I lost you just like that. We created a lot beautiful memories together. You were my precious person. You gave me warmth. You gave me courage. You made me feel the luckiest. I was so proud to have you by my side. I was so happy. I still can’t accept the fact that you left me in the middle of the road after a very long way we had walked side by side. You left a heavy mark on me and now I have to put fences around it because I am scare to let someone get close to it. I really hope this footprint will fade away someday. Now, I am wondering. How beautiful and amazing it could have turned out if we were here together right now? I really want to see how strong and wise you could have become. I have always wanted to see the grownup version of you. We could have completed our bucket lists together. We could have had a great journey of adulthood together. Our precious moment could have been much more than this. Yet, at the end of the day, past should be left behind and life should go on. Perhaps, in the parallel universe, we are having the best moment right now. Maybe I will see you again in another life with no regrets like this. I guess, I will see you there. I hope to see you there. - owl

The truth is

The truth? I like you. A lot. More than I’ve like anyone for a long time. And to be honest , it kinda scares me. I don’t want to screw up what we have. Whatever it is and i’ve fallen pretty damn hard for you. I just hope whatever happens we don’t ruin what we had before and now. The truth? I love you.

Being used

Doesn't it feel so sh*tty to be used by someone we care about whether it be friends or someone you have feelings for? Like they would only think of us when they need us for some reasons. When we are out of use, they would completely ignore our existence. I felt like an idiot for assuming that the person slightly thinks about me sometimes. The truth is I only cross their mind when I can offer them some sort of benefits. Now that I recall the time they said we're close, I cringe so hard and feel so stupid.

Wrong timing

Friends asked me do I like the guy I introduced to them before? My answer? Yes I do. Then does that guy like me? I guess so. Then why isnt it working? I don’t know if there is any specific right answer to it tbh. Maybe it just I’m not ready. Maybe Im still haunted by my past relationships. Or maybe I just feel like I’m not good enough for him. Or actually maybe it’s just wrong timing and it’s not working overall. We both tried our best, we both tried to give it a try again and again yet failed again and again too. I guess overall, we meant to know one another, like one another, has a chance to start it in which we blew it up, so after that no matter how many time we tried to bring it back it’s not working. Maybe this is really like “you only have one chance at love”. I like you still yet I guess it’s just not working. So just get over it and be happy, maybe not immediately but eventually, please be happy.

ផ្លែកបន្ទោរ

“The World IS Just Awesome” sentence on his t shirt

We're just friends...So why lie?

I know you read my messages from your notification. I know that when you claim you were busy, you were actually on your phone scrolling and chatting with your friends in a cafe. When you said you were busy, I know you were playing games or watching a movie. You messaging me is a choice and I messaging you is a duty. You take me for a granted...a friend whom you could rely on in terms of school work. I am that friend whom you could use whenever you feel like you need a female company. I am the friend who is there for you to practice your flirting skills. I am the friend who, after you finish scrolling up and down your newsfeed 5 times, will open the message and decide whether or not u should message back. I am the friend who recieves the message "huh” after 10 hours of trying to ask for help saying "im in pain, there is no one here.” So do not text me five days later that you forgot to check your phone even though I saw you share memes 3 days ago. Do not text an apology and ask about how i felt because i went through hell and you choose to ignore it. Do not look at me with those eyes as if I am the only girl in the world and that no one else matters because clearly I can be on my deathbed right now and you will still decide to check up on me "tomorrow”. Do not share posts about how heartbroken you are when you see me flirt with someone who actually cares about me and do not update me on your activities like we are something when we arent. We're just friends so stop acting like we're lovers and you're the boyfriend giving excuses for ignoring his girlfriend. We're just friends and you are already breaking me apart, taking me for granted, and forcing me up a rollercoaster ride of confusion and pain....imagine how it will be if you are more than a friend.

My One side love

Hello, let call me Jasmine (ម្លិះ). In the relationship, I've been through alot, now I'm becoming too straight to my crush. Now, I've done new thing which I haven't experienced before. As a woman, I 've confessed to the person that I love. He hasn't rejected me, but his action did. After confession, I don't feel anything awkward because I've already known the answer. I always ask myself that, why I always beg for his answer, even his action did. After that, I started to feel dissapointed just because I can't afford his love. Then, I found he was in the darknets, he still feels in love too much with his memories. Then, I thought, if I have true love to him, I should release him. Because I love him, I can't force him, I can't see even he was in the pressure. Love doesn't mean to possess them. I chose to be good friend instead just to see him inspire all days long, because I know he is an overthinking man. Man, you are the first person who improve me more to confess, to face all things which I wanted to escape. Now I did it, at least I've confessed my love to you. I don't really care, what ever would us be, I still loving you, let be us before. I'm still inspire you from here. #Jasminenotjasmineម្លិះ🤍

my dearest 김

you deserve everything you know????? ចង់ប្រាប់ថាបងស្រលាញ់អូនខ្លាំងបំផុត I wanna pat your hair, kiss your forehead and keep you in my arms again. please stay healthy and happy until the day we meet again. from your one and only R.