ពេលវេលា
មិត្តខ្ញុំតែងប្រាប់ខ្ញុំថា "ទុកឲ្យពេលវេលាជាអ្នកព្យាបាលរបួសនៃចិត្ត" ប្រហែលជាខ្ញុំមិនសូវមើលម៉ោងទេ ទើបបានជាពេលវេលានៅជុំវិញខ្ញុំហាក់ដើរយូរបែបនេះ
I did the best I could but the result doesn’t satisfy me one bit. I want to give up but it means that all my effort have gone to waste, I also have no motivation to continue on. Everyone will just tell me to push through it but people have different tolerance. I don’t want to lose this but there’s also nothing ahead of me to look forward to
មិត្តខ្ញុំតែងប្រាប់ខ្ញុំថា "ទុកឲ្យពេលវេលាជាអ្នកព្យាបាលរបួសនៃចិត្ត" ប្រហែលជាខ្ញុំមិនសូវមើលម៉ោងទេ ទើបបានជាពេលវេលានៅជុំវិញខ្ញុំហាក់ដើរយូរបែបនេះ
Don’t be disappointed in Khmer, you already did a really good job. I can see your hard work. Congratulations!!!!!! As I said, no matter what grade you get, I’ll always be proud of you and yesssssss I’m so proud of you. I’m so sorry that I don’t have the nerves to text you and tell you in person. However, I really hope that you can see this post and find it relatable. PROUD OF YOU! CONGRATULATIONS! #254
I’m wondering if he hates me that’s why he blocked me. :) loved him so much still do but what can you do when a person want to leave? And this pretending that everything is fine sucks. It’s been 6 months and I still can’t move on. Really hate this.
I grew up in a very dysfunctional family. Even though it was very clear at a young age to me that mommy and daddy absolutely hated each other’s guts and only got married in the first place cause of my birth, they refused to divorce. “Staying together for the kids” is the absolute worst thing you can do to a child. Mom and dad, What did I do wrong?? my existence??? [newLine*]Personally, it effected my general self esteem and the way I formed and behaved in relationships for the rest of my life. I was diagnosed with PTSD, (yess PTSD) as growing up in a house that was literally a battlefield. I always blaming myself for being existing. I thought my family was normal. It wasn’t until i turned 15 when I had friends whom I would go visit and then I started seeing something completely different. My friends had normal parents. Before that, I thought a dysfunctional family was normal. I still suffer from anxiety to this day and self-esteem. My problems are a constant fear of getting too close to people, including friends. As I grew older I became more quiet. It’s effected my relationships and friendships to a point where I end up pushing people away. I like being alone where there’s complete silence and nothing can bother me. I think I came to this point due to growing up in my parents house and constantly hearing them scream at each other, doors slamming. My self-esteem problems are mostly from being ignored and neglected through out my early life. My parents whose were never involved with anything of my childhood despite us living in the same household. The cause of their arguments has always been about me, and still is to this day. My dad came home from work and fighting with my mom because of me, it became worse with age. I feel embarrassed or ashamed to even talk about this with my close friends. My family was of the type that everything happened behind closed doors and out in public. If I had friends come over, they became entirely different people in front of my friends. They could actually act right and tolerate each other when they had company- (why the hell can’t you be normal like that all the time?) For this reason, I never opened up and told my friends what happened in our house cause I feared they’d never believe me. It wasn’t until my early adult years, I finally opened up and started telling my friends what really going on at home but some of them told me that no matter what it is, they’re still my parents and they loves me but they don't seem to loves me nor even care about my feelings except for their own. I always want to get away from them and living my life without them. Sometimes when I opened up about it not because I want empathy nor attention but I just need someone who listen to me, listen to me without judging me. Don’t get me wrong I do appreciate my friends and understand that they’re just trying their best to comfort me.
Brings back the day that he asked me for an artist’s recommendation and i told him about keshi. He says that he also listens to keshi and his fav track is besides you. I secretly felt happy because it was my favorite song.
Having feelings on my friend... this should not be happening!
You were the best, you were the one who i trully “Love”. The word ‘Love’ is a strong word for both of us to use. We cross path as if fate brought us together for a reason. We clicked so well, it feels like 2 broken pieces were placed to complete each other missing parts. We both have the same taste in Movies, Music, things that revolve around us, We like to spend quality time together. It gets to the point where the word ‘Love’ grows on me and It gets to the point where i can’t go on a day without talking to you. You are just as cold as the winter, independent as you are and i love you. It’s hard for you to show your feelings toward others, you said it’s lame to ask for affections. but we eventually part ways. Months have passed, I started to live without you, I couldn’t move on from you if gets to the point where i have to date someone to move on from you, for godsake i couldn’t you were there everywhere i go, on my mind like a lyric that stucked in my head and i kept repeating it over and over. Everywhere i go i see familiar faces, where they looked like you, same glasses, same length of hair, the same hair style, the same way u walk, everything just reminding me of you. I was a fool to let you go, everything leads to regret, i should have never left you in the first place, i should have changed for you. You loved me, you moved on. I’m happy for you. We both crossed path and i’m glad. Our time that we’ve spent it will shine like gold in my memories. Irreplaceable you, no one can take your place.
I felt inspired by watching the rain through my bedroom’s window with my light off. What if the rain were just like us human when crying? Those droplets were just like our tears. Those rumbled thunder was just like us yelling out for help, and those lighting strikes were like us trying to hurt ourselves. It would be unfair if so. Instead of having friends staying besides to comfort like human, the rain doesn’t. Even worse, people would just run away as fast as they can just to avoid it; they get scared, cover their ears even eyes, and curse when they see or hear it thundering. I am one of them too. I get scared and cover my ears when hearing ones. But now, by sitting in my room and considering it, I feel sorry for it. Imagine having no one to turn to or understand you when you need them, and that’s how the sky feels right now. It has been hiding its pain for so long that it couldn’t hold it back anymore, so it had to let it out by pouring rain on us, hopelessly crying and asking for help. That’s why I sit here in my room looking at you and admire you from afar without you noticing or even knowing that I exist. You are doing a great job. Yes! Let it all out; however, I can’t assure you that there won’t be any day like this again, but one step at a time. Remember all those days that the sun was burning all of the creatures on earth while you were their savior? You gave us rain, shades, and good days to us. We are grateful for that. You know what? Without you raining (crying and getting things out of your chest), the presence of rainbow means nothing at all. Therefore, look at those good things you have done for us to keep you going. #sciencefailed