Tiring decision

I did the best I could but the result doesn’t satisfy me one bit. I want to give up but it means that all my effort have gone to waste, I also have no motivation to continue on. Everyone will just tell me to push through it but people have different tolerance. I don’t want to lose this but there’s also nothing ahead of me to look forward to

Feeling bottled up?

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Hatred

What would you do if you found out you're just an alternative or a shadow to his ex? Do you feel hurt? Angry? Hatred? Because I do. It was not wrong to not love somebody. What's wrong is how you keep telling me how much you love me, then keep going back to your ex. What's wrong is how you told me to forget the past and start it all again, then betray me and do all those things again the next day. What's wrong is how you told me to put my heart into trusting you, but you're using my trust against me. You kept saying you love me, but that's not love. There's no way you can love me when you still keep everything from your past. There's no way you can love me when you can fall in love with another girl within a week. There's no way you can love me when you regret being with me and hope you have chosen her instead. The funny thing is, people hurt me, but I'm now the bad guy. I hope all those people who did me wrong, who invalidate my feeling, who blame me for reacting the way I did, will all get their karma very soon. I have all this rage in me because I'm the one that has been suffering. To the people that said that it was normal and I was the one that overreacting, I hope you will be treated like this for the rest of your life. I was never someone who hold a grudge and be so revengeful, anyone who knows me knows how I always forgive people, but not this time. I choose to heal in hell.

The saddest thing …

The saddest thing in the world is loving someone who used to love you :)))

I don't know

''It never stops hurting, does it?" ''What?" "Giving someone the best of you and watching them choose someone else."

A point where ......

I reached a point where love is not that necessary to me. Idk, i feel like I'm waiting for something yet i don't even know what it is. (my kiddo back from UK, or Angel falling from a sky ? or That kretttt Sound from ATM?) seeing people i know going through from one relationship to another one- sometime i feel like i'm just a NPC in a game. i don't have to feel, whatsoever... just be there and stand still. Someone said to me " if you really love something, beside of scare being hurt- you should go for it like you used to." - it's not like i don't want to, It's just people take you for granted for so long and you tend to lose a soft spot for them and that SXXT traumatized you. To all people who like me ~ i hope you take it easy on people who want to be with you - idk give them a chance and try be reasonable with them. (esp: cancer sign woman: They are the purest people i know (alot of them but not all) - if they love you- trust me- Even godzilla can't do anything to you) All they want is just being with you ! Btw, Go stream BIGBANG- Still life ~ Thank you 🔥🤍

Unrequited love

I want to give up on you since it’s not going to happen. Because I clearly told me so. But all I can do is daydreaming about us being together. I’ll go to you one more time when my life is stable.

To the Ex, who say សុខចិត្តលះបង់

After all you have done to me, and you say សុខចិត្តលះបង់ខ្ញុំអោយជួបមនុស្សល្អ? Remember the way you still keep in touch with your ex (up until now) that hurts me so bad? No matter how many times I tell you to have limit (by understanding the reasons, I agree to accept the relationship), you keep ignore my frustration, and say I don’t have trust on you. Until the day I ask to break-up, you only asked that whether I think clearly about the decision? You didn’t try to keep me, and I was not your choice. You trying to get back with me a FEW TIMES without any changes. I gave you chances to make it up and wanted to know what have you done to get back the relationship, but you have done nothing. The last one was, you came back and decided to agree with my conditions, after 2 days you said you couldn’t do it and ended it. After one and half month, you came back again. Am I just a thing to you? Where is my value? How do you so confident that I still give you a chance? Why are you so selfish? And after I raised up the question that why should I give up other good people for the one who has broke me a lot of time and never give value to me? You said បើគេល្អយកគេចុះ សុខចិត្តលះបង់ខ្ញុំអោយមនុស្សល្អ lets me tell you, that’s not call លះបង់. For sure, I haven’t move on completely, but I also need to keep my value, and self-esteem. I gave too much value to you, now it is time that I value myself. Lets the Karma do the work. #ks

Emotionally neglected kid.

My parents’ marriage was a train wreck. They were unsuited to one another, married for the wrong reasons, and stayed married for the wrong reasons. It did us kids a world of damage from which we will never completely recover. It also taught us some important lessons, largely about what NOT to do! I loose my belief in relationships. They taught me everything about what a marriage shouldn't be like. my parents fight all the time, and they never hide from me. As long as I can remember, they fight about everything, when one of them know he/her is wrong but didn’t care to admit it and the only best thing they have as a couple is that neither of them never cheat on each other or even alcoholic. When I need to take major life decisions, it always gets confusing because of how both of them have different views of things. And they don't communicate so I find myself stuck. As a mother, my mother is a good one. And my dad is a good dad too. But together they are far from the ideal couple. Have you ever heard of “គូកម្ម” ?

Love at first sight

អ្នកផឹកឡើងក្អូត អោយគេជូនទៅផ្ទះ? ចេញមុខមកភ្លាម I went to have a drink with group of guys (workmates), so did he, with his buddies too. Our table was around few steps each… His small eyes with thick glasses with his សំពោង hair really catches my eyes. I can help to join his table and asked his name yet I didn’t have confidence to share my social contact. After few bottoms up, I came back to my table. He keep raised his glass and cheer with me from other side. Finally my table was over, my workmates left the shop-I wasn’t ready to say goodbye then I joined his table. He kept asking me លើកដាច់ រួចគាត់ក៏ក្អួត ហើយយើងគិតលុយ។ ខ្ញុំផ្ញើរម៉ូតូទុកនៅហាង រួចជិះម៉ូតូជូនគាត់ទៅផ្ទះ។ តាមផ្លូវ គាត់ប្រាប់ខ្ញុំថា គាត់មានសង្សារហើយ។ សូមអរគុណ សូមជម្រាបលា។