08/March/2022

Just found out I failed on every contest that I applied for. Kinda sad sad but not sad at all. Bye 👋

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2025-08-14

Imagine how things between us would be if I met you first

Lately, I realize that we all have done ignoring the “bad stuff” in the person who shattered our hearts in pieces again and again because we loved them and at the same time, we all are ignoring the sweetest people in our life to keep that person. To that sweetest person, you know what I’m regretting doing? I regret that I ignored you. Yet deep inside, I wish that I met you first. Imagine how good it would be? I sound selfish, I know but it could have been You and I. Not everyone will have a happy ending, sometimes it ended just like those Hong Kong movies. WE ALL DIED IN THE END.

2025-08-14

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Today is a good day.

2025-08-14

Goodbye Mr. Panda 🐼

I have crushed on him for months and one day I decided to confess. As a result, he didn't reject me and said "Let see how it's going on." It was the sentence that gave me hope to work harder to take his intention. But next next day, he told me that he didn't want to think about something yet and I said okay even my inside hurt me a lot. I cried for whole night and felt like the whole world was collapsing. After this hard situation has gone, I kept talking to him as normal and acted like nothing happen. After then, I have invited him for a gathering but he rejected since he had his personal matter. I also understood about that situation. However, since that day, I didn't text him anymore plus he also didn't text me so I decided badly to MOVE ON. It is so hard for me to suddenly give up on him but I know clearly that no matter how hard I try, I still can't be good enough for him because I am not his type and his intention is not for me. Anyway, sorry for not saying Goodbye and telling you that I have give up on you because I afraid that when I text you, I will fall for u again. I hope you meet someone who you love and she will love you the way you love her. Time will cure everything. 🥺🥺🥺

2025-08-14

please

it hurts im still fighting for every chance left even though i know you’d end up still pushing me away. every time i’d try and hold conversations, knowing both of us still love each other, it always ended with you saying “how are u going to move on? i want u to move on, find someone better.” Can’t you see that all I’ve ever wanted was you? I don’t want to find anyone better than you but you’re making it so damn hard, love.

2025-08-14

Our love was destined to be just a few pages story.

We were in love, but in the end, we were just a beautiful chapter in each other's lives. Have you ever felt like you could never truly let someone go? Because it was actually so special, you'll always have a piece of them with you. Every memory, every laugh, and even the terrible moments are preserved. It's now as much a part of you as your job. Letting go of them is more akin to realizing that the book series you've been reading won't have the happy finish you'd hoped for. How could they leave the series unfinished? What about all the anticipation? What are character arcs? What is the story's central theme? Well, the writers are no longer together, therefore that's the end of it. Then. The years pass, and before you know it, the writers are back to finish what they started. You love them, but you understand that they must do what their heart and mind desire. And who knows, maybe they'll find their way back home, and we'll be lucky enough to be considered home. You let them go, realizing that no matter how many times you reread the previous book the authors wrote, the next page is blank. Every now and then, there are whispers and small droplets of story and detail. A foreshadowing of a heartbreaking story. Only when everything comes together perfectly does that story get the happy ending it deserves. When two people are separated, anything can happen. Someone meets someone new, people make incompatible life decisions, or people simply grow apart. Accepting reality for what it is is what letting go entails. Two people who do not want to give up their entire outlook and foundations in life for the sake of the other, because doing so would mean a slow and painful death for them both in terms of mental capacity. One day, the time will be right. All the love, C

2025-08-14

I miss you a lot

I miss the days that I drove you home, miss having you by my side, cuddling, as well as the long journey we had shared. It’s sad having to accept the fact that one of us had to part from each other’s in order for things to work out. You were a gf, best friend, and a mom. From someone once was your Antman 😔

2025-08-14

Should I leave?

I read #KJ0470, and I kinda feel related. Yes, from the first time I know her and her past, I always want to treat her better. I want to make her feel luck in her life. I want to make her feel loved, because she deserves all the love. But lately, I feel bad about myself. I made mistake, I made her cry and disappointed. I feel like I can't be the one for her, I'm not good enough to take care of her. At least once a day, I think about breaking up so she can find someone better. But If I leave her while she's still in love with me, I will be the one who hurt her, just again like all her exes. I don't want to be the one who hurt her, but I also don't want to stuck her door, because deep inside I know I'm so incapable, too bad to deserve her love. I do need your advice.

2025-08-14

I almost do-- Taylor swift

I almost contacted you again, but everytime I almost did, I remembered how we're nth to each other. Everytime I almost did, I scrolled through our chats and I saw how pathetic I was. Almost begging for your love. Everytime I almost did, I remembered how you would let me go back home alone. How you had time for everyone else but never for me. How you forgot everything you said. How you told me you would do this and that for me but you never did. Every little things you said you would do. It's the details that matters and show me how much you love me. Turned out I couldn't feel the love at all. I remembered how hopeless and broken I felt to see you never want to give me the title, to never want to commit into the relationship, to never think of us. It was the last straw that broke me. Broke us. They said loving someone too much will make them stop appreciating you, I guess that's true. I gave up my pride for you for so many times. Let's keep this last one for myself. Take care.