Should’ve known earlier
I thought I was special. Maybe not to anyone but to you in specifically and yet she was the one that you always have and going to choose. I have nothing to complain tho but it still strings me ‘til these days.
ទើបតែដឹងថាស្នេហាឈឺចាប់បែបនេះ ពេលដែលយើងចេះស្រលាញ់គេយើងគួរតែទទួលស្គាល់ថាគេមិនមែនជារបស់យើងទុកមុនទើបមិនសូវឈឺចាប់។ កាលដែលស្រលាញ់គេដំបូងមិនដែលគិតទេថាគេសំខាន់ហើយនឹកគេគ្រប់វេលាបែបនេះទេ។ សួរថាឈឺចាប់អត់ស្រលាញ់គេម្នាក់ឯង? ចម្លើយប្រាកដជាអត់ហើយ ប៉ុន្តែប្រសិនបើសួរថាហត់អត់? គឺហត់ខ្លាំងណាស់។ បើហត់ចុះទ្រាំធ្វើអ្វី? ទ្រាំព្រោះតែស្រលាញ់។ ស្រលាញ់មនុស្សម្នាក់គ្មានហេតុផលទេហើយយើងក៏មិនអាចហាមឃាត់ខ្លួនឯងមិនឱ្យស្រលាញ់គេបានដែរ ... ការស្រលាញ់នរណាម្នាក់វាអាចមកពីព្រហ្មលិខិតក៏ថាបាន ..។ នៅតែស្រលាញ់ទោះបីជាធ្វើឱ្យឈឺចិត្តប៉ុន្មានដង ក៏ស្រលាញ់ យើងអាចជាមនុស្សអធ្មានិយមក្នុងរឿងស្នេហាក៏ព្រោះតែពាក្យ ធ្វើតាមបេះដូង ហើយមិនចង់ឱ្យគេក្លាយជារបស់អ្នកណា។ តាមបេះដូងនៅថ្ងៃនេះអាចខុសនៅថ្ងៃក្រោយ តែយើងអាចស្ដាយក្រោយមួយជីវិតបើយើងមិនបានធ្វើតាមបេះដូង.....។ ពេលខ្លះយើងកំពុងនឹកគេ ទាំងដែលគេនឹកអ្នកផ្សេង សប្បាយជាមួយអ្នកផ្សេង .... គេធ្វើអ្វីមួួយក្នុងចិត្តនេះរំភើបណាស់ ទាំងដែរគេធ្វើដាក់អ្នកផ្សេងបែបនេះដូចគ្នា។ ជាមនុស្សឆ្លាតតែបែរជាល្ងង់រឿងស្នេហា ទាំងដែរមិនមែនជាមនុស្សបែបហ្នឹងពីមុនមក.. អារម្មណ៍អីហ្នឹងឈឺម៉េស? ហ្នឹងមែនស្នេហា? ចង់ប្រាប់ថាយូរប៉ុណ្ណ៉ាក៏ចាំឱ្យតែការរង់ចាំនេះមានតម្លៃ គ្រាន់តែចង់បានគេ តើខ្ញុំទាមទារច្រើនពេកមែនទេ? ណ្ហើយ ទៅមុខក៏មិនកើតថយក្រោយក៏មិនបាន xD បើពេលនោះមិនស្នេហ៍ ប្រហែលមិនឈឺដូចពេលនេះទេ ..៕
I thought I was special. Maybe not to anyone but to you in specifically and yet she was the one that you always have and going to choose. I have nothing to complain tho but it still strings me ‘til these days.
Why would some men still post and share things related to the women when they clearly no intention to be back with her or love her anymore? Was it to grab her attention? Was it an act? Was it just to make sure she won't move on from h even when he no longer want her? Or was he just trying to make sure she still in love with him so he can hold his head up high and his silly pride? Or he can go brag to his friends how she still care and hurt because of everything he did? Or he simply just miss the idea of having her love him so much? No matter what it is, men will be men, if they want you, you will see them by your side, not from their stupid stories or posts. Stop thinking of all the possibilities. Stop thinking that he wants you back, he clearly doesn't. Stop falling into his traps once again. Turn around and leave. Stop imagining fake sceneries inside your head. You don't love him, you just love your idea of him and the unreal perfect future you wish you will have with him. If you can't change a man, change the man. He's not worth your time. Go hunt for the better guys.
I think I’ve built a very convenient Persona for myself to get by this world. Everywhere I go, Every group of people, or everyone that I met, I know what they see me but not in me, they find I’m a very polite, friendly, good manner person. I know this, because that is all my persona shows them. But their instincts would tell them to be care to approach me with their good intentions, maybe it’s a friendship or love. Their instincts would tell them, I’m not just they see, there are something more beneath that. And it’s right, I’m hiding myself under this forged amour because I can’t be who I actually want to be. How I was treat from a very young age had traumatized me to be myself. I’ve lived my life forged with lies that I tell myself, that now it makes me terrified to unfold the truth. Now at the end of everyday, I feel so empty, like an empty void that can’t never be filled. I named this “empty bin”, because that’s just how I am, loud but empty. I’m tired of this life. Even though I know life is pain and suffering, but how I still couldn’t get used to if? And it’s even more tragic if you live a life with full of self-deception. lately, all I could think of is, how to die and leave no pain to everyone around me. “How should this empty bin should leave?…”
I read #KJ0470, and I kinda feel related. Yes, from the first time I know her and her past, I always want to treat her better. I want to make her feel luck in her life. I want to make her feel loved, because she deserves all the love. But lately, I feel bad about myself. I made mistake, I made her cry and disappointed. I feel like I can't be the one for her, I'm not good enough to take care of her. At least once a day, I think about breaking up so she can find someone better. But If I leave her while she's still in love with me, I will be the one who hurt her, just again like all her exes. I don't want to be the one who hurt her, but I also don't want to stuck her door, because deep inside I know I'm so incapable, too bad to deserve her love. I do need your advice.
Dating suppose to be people being in love with each other but for me it’s different, i’ve been in multiple relationships and its always just them giving and showing me love and affection while i’ve never actually fallen in love with them. Doesn’t mean that i don’t love them, i do but i don’t feel the spark or the exciting feeling when i’m with them. And i never get jealous maybe it’s because i’m not in love with them that’s why i never feel jealous over anything.
What does it mean when someone used to promise that we will be forever together. But then how long is that forever? Maybe I define it wrongly by myself….. his meaning of forever is different from mine…… Maybe I’m too dumb to believe in such words, such promise.
#firstandlastpt1 Everything start from me, it was my fault that fall in love with him. It was me who start to message him first everytime and he really friendly that make me feel he has feeling for me too. I spent 3 year to know his information and start to message him in 2019.I don't except he really talkative in message and I have good memories with each other since 2019-2020. As a girl who never had experience in love, I was so brave to proposal to him first and he reject me and said sorry. It's hurt me alot but I pretend to be okay and text him we still can be cousin like before. After that moment, I only text him whenever it's related to family issues. Someday I really miss how funny conversation I had with him even I start it first. 2021 I start to move on because I learn some advice through the book , listen to music and start to working outside cause I was a junior now. It's really work for me, I'm happy with book and my friend, we go out and had fun time and I thought I'm not into him fr. But in 2022 March, He start to message me first and I start to ignore but after 2 day ago, he talk about his family issues related to me. I decided to reply short message and he ask me to join his sister's wedding. I said yes cause we're cousin and live next to each other now. But....he make me disappointed in him again. I'll update next part 🔜
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