5Year
៥ឆ្នាំដែលស្គាល់អូន ៥ឆ្នាំដេលបងឈឺចាប់ 5ឆ្នាំដែលបងហត់នឿយ ៥ឆ្នាំដេលបងលះបង់ 5ឆ្នាំដេលបងពិបាក ៥ឆ្នាំដេលបងបានបាត់បងអ្វីៗគ្រប់យ៉ាង ៥ឆ្នាំនៃសុបិន្តអាក្រក់ តែ5ឆ្នាំនេះ បងនៅតែស្រលាញ់អូន
Just in case you don't know, ADHD is Attention deficit hyperactivity disorder is a mental health disease characterized by excessive hyperactivity and impulsive conduct. People with ADHD may also struggle to focus their attention on a single task or to sit quietly for extended periods of time. Many people notice fluctuations in energy levels and inattention. This occurs more frequently and to a larger extent in persons with ADHD than in people who do not have the disease. It can have a substantial impact on their education, jobs, and personal lives.
៥ឆ្នាំដែលស្គាល់អូន ៥ឆ្នាំដេលបងឈឺចាប់ 5ឆ្នាំដែលបងហត់នឿយ ៥ឆ្នាំដេលបងលះបង់ 5ឆ្នាំដេលបងពិបាក ៥ឆ្នាំដេលបងបានបាត់បងអ្វីៗគ្រប់យ៉ាង ៥ឆ្នាំនៃសុបិន្តអាក្រក់ តែ5ឆ្នាំនេះ បងនៅតែស្រលាញ់អូន
YOU FELL OUT OF LOVE when I am still in love with you, I became a one sided love without realizing. Remember the last time you said you love me? It's been too long since I last heard your voice. I miss that. You said you were gonna call me after you finished your work but you never did, till now. Still waiting for your texts like how I used to. I'm not blaming you. You said you were gonna take me to a burger shop ( I stopped eating burgers since I thought I would have it with you, screw me), when you finished all the work, drinking our favorite milk tea, going out for dinner. I know you were still in love with me during that time but I didn't realize that I would become a burden after time passed. My notifications didn't make you feel better, you ignored me. My presence doesn't make you feel excited, you don't wanna talk to me. Everytime I ask, it annoys you. You could clear off your schedules but you didn't because you thought I would ask you to spend time with me and it annoyed you or maybe not because I was never really on your mind or I was just nobody. Sorry, I have no idea what made you become like this.
I was made to believe. I underserved of love - both from others and myself. 22 and never date not even once. I never understand the feeling of having another human soul connected to me cause whenever I feel good with someone, a part of me always whisper to my ear “you pieces of shit and don’t deserve anybody’s love. How can a loser fall in love? Don’t you ever see urself in the mirror? How ugly u are? How dump u are? How helpless u are?” These questions always keep repeating day and night until now I started to believe I underserved of love both from others and myself. :)
I believe that living together before marriage is necessary. Living with a non-family member is really difficult. yet, living with family members sucks, too. The next level in every relationship is marriage, where people hope to stay together for the rest of their life. I highly recommend living together before getting married. Some of y’all gonna judge me for this but my boyfriend and I are living together for almost a year now but we have been dating for almost 6 years. I have told myself that I would never get married unless we had been living together for 3 years at least. Loving someone and living with someone are two different things. You are two mature adults with habits and lifestyles of your own, its easy to say you know each other very well just dating. As we all know that in Asian households that couples or even fiancé are not living together. I don't know maybe I'm just too modern, I find this ridiculous. Why would you marry someone who you've never lived with? Sure you might think you know their habits but do you really? Now I'm sure someone will argue that many couples moved from their parent's home straight to their new home as a married person. And that these couples usually ended up staying together. But we also have to acknowledge that divorce was not as accepted as it is today. I know that we have “ culture “ but do you really want a surprise? That surprise will result in either "I like it" or "I hate it". You are betting on "I like it", but it's 50/50, so it could also be, "I hate it", which could make you miserable for the rest of your life or this marriage level may not be so permanent. And you know what would happens when you’re divorced? You’re being blamed and pressured from the culture especially when you’re a female. Most of our parents disapproved it because of “ s€x “ but if some of us gotten to know more about S€x Education, it would be just fine. some of us are sensitive about that topic, I know.
Who would you choose between the one you love and the one who loves you?
... but could never have. We met around the end of 2016. Our first interaction is still somewhat feels recent to me. I bet you don’t know, but you always have a special place in my heart ever since the first day we met. Knowing you is a true blessing for me. We met in high school and then continued to go on same university. At first, I didn’t really like you that much. But, strangely enough, you’re always there whenever I face problems. You helped me, you supportEd me. You were just being you, the kind and supportive you. It was me that took it the other way around. You know, I grown up with no many affection or love. So, when anyone do me good, I get attached easily. However, all of this liking you alone thing is hard for me. It’s been five years already. I think I’ve got enough now. I should move on. That’s why I changed shift to have space from you. Because, I don’t think I can move on if I just sit there and see you almost everyday like that. It’s been months since we last met. Even though you’ve never contacted me; from time to time, I still think of you and try to talk to you. I can’t say that I’m completely moved on from you. But, I can say I’m doing well in moving on. So here is a short message for you: be happy and healthy. Goodbye, my five-years love:) #myfatThor
If someone acts like they don't wanna talk to you and stop reaching out to you, it just simply means they want nothing to do with you anymore, right? It's just that clear and obvious, I don't even know what else I need in order to acknowledge it. At this point, I don't even wanna try to catch up or stay in touch because it's way too late. I just find it weird how we suddenly become strangers even though we didn't argue or anything. It's just that I have never been in this situation before. I used to think it would be better to end all contacts with you because I got my feelings mixed up. "Why do I feel upset and jealous if I don't even like you that way? Maybe friends get jealous too if they feel like they're being replaced?" Those kind of stuffs. Now that we don't contact each other, I no longer know what's going on between you and that person so I don't have to feel that type of upset anymore. But, I start to feel upset at how you're so fine with our situation while I'm not. I'm confused and I don't even know how I want the situation to unfold.
Growing up, not bragging, Ppl tell me I look decent (not ugly, not so pretty either). Those who look decent tends to have people interested in them, right? Not me though. I don’t know why and please tell me if you do. Why isn’t anyone ever interested in me? Do I look so bad? Is my personality that hard? I’ve seen others having people crushing on them and having boyfriend and all those stuff. And I look at myself and my chat box is so freaking quiet, no fling, no flirt, nothing. Trust me, I’m not that desperate, it’s just pure curiosity. Why the hell isn’t anyone interested in me? Why? I see in drama ppl be like having crush and all those fling stuff and my life is so freaking boring 😂😂😂😂. My standard isn’t that high either, just average, like others. I’m also not looking for relationship, just some flirting, just knowing the fact that someone is actually liking me, having a crush on me would be enough. What could be the problem? My problem? 🥲🥲