From s1 u used to loved 💖

Just feel sad

I'm not sure u'll see this post or not but it always simple like the way u never see me too ;( I know that was along journey between us, being with you as I always wish but I know I went too far from what u never want to, feel like I'm the only once, It a bit hurt but I could understand we can't push someone to love us back it because u also have someone special in your heart someone that u feel different way from me, still I'm asking myself why I'm jealous since I'm not him. It okay to be hurt like this because I can feel your feeling too to be with person we don't want to, I always want to be just like him the once that u always take care of, the once that u never ignored ... look how stupid I think this never gonna happen stupid me. Ur happiness was always my happiness even with or without me :))

Impossible crush

Are we really can’t moving forward ? I like you at first without expected anything from you I just wanna smile at you wave at you and have a small chit chat and it’s enough for me. But the moment that I know that actually you had been talked to someone. You are in a good stage with her knowing this made me realize that are we really impossible or should I move forward and give it a little try to see is there any hope for me or should I just back off since It’s really impossible for me to be near you. She come first she talk to you first she got your heart and I just having an illusion that you might actually interest in me a little bit but I don’t think so anymore. To conclude , I will try to move forward just a little bit to see if there any hope in us is your heart really fill with her and I will back off immediately if I see there is no chance for me🙂

Don't worry!

Where should I start... So you guys might not know who am I and I love to keep it that way. But some might notice by the way I write this confession. So just like the title said "don't worry". Recently, both my mental and physical health is not doing good. I sometimes experience chest pain whenever I wake up from my sleep, I can't eat much even though I try, I've been having insomnia for 3 years already. There are some people who actually worry about me and tell me to visit a doctor and even want to help me with all the stuff that have happened; I really appreciate your kindness guy, really. I have visited the doctor, but I don't want to describe what he told me here. I have never asked anyone for anything; however, here I am for the first time, asking my friends, family to smile at my funeral when I'm gone. I know it's impossible for you, but let just say that it's my last wish and please help me fulfill it. I've been fighting so hard, but I'm sorry I can feel that I'm not strong enough, not anymore. I'm not gonna do anything stupid but I know that my time is coming, sooner or later. So please don't worry about me.

To all the girls who are hating their body

This is to #KJ0605 . It breaks my heart seeing girls being guilt tripped about this topic. I hope this message goes to all girls who are hating her body regardless of you breaking up with your boyfriend or not. I hope it goes to all fathers and brothers, hopefully all the future husbands as well. Broken hymen is a myth. You may do some research on this if you like. My love, Virginity is a social construct, and your value is not attach to it. Your hymen doesn’t break, and no not everyone bleeds on their first sexual intercourse. Every hymen looks different, have different shapes and holes, some ppl are born without one. It is very important to understand your body anatomy. My love, you are beautiful and strong. If you are worried, please worry whether your beliefs on the “purity” of women is actually worth believing. Whether you are 18 or 21 or 31, whether you are married or single, you are worthy of respect. You are more than your virginity. If nobody loves you, this sister loves you❤️

To strong

I heard people said "when u are a girl and u're strong is hard for a man to catch u up. Because when u sad or depress and in a hard situation u never need ur man to comfort u cause u can deal it on ur own. That will make up think u are strong enough to deal with ur proplem and he is too useless and starting to distance himself from u cause he think u are to high like a star for him to catch and he to weak, not a man who u deserve". I think they are right. I had been in 3relatio ahips now. The reason of my break up are I am to strong and i never show my weakness and even not talk about my things to my man, so they broke up with me. They never knew i am living a misirible life. I had all kind of pain and trying really hard each day until everything become a habbit. The pain can hurt me anymore.

Actually, I’m Jealous….

I would say that I’m a well reserved kid and always think it through before I take action. I’ve always thought that I’m strong enough to deal with all the problem. I’ve always thought that I am not jealous of anything or anyone around me. But, I realize I do care. I’m jealous that other family is having fun with their children. I’m jealous that their parents are always be there and give them the support. I’m jealous that others don’t have to deal with mental pressure. I’m jealous that things have never been well no matter how hard I try to fix. When will this end? I’m tired…..

2025-08-14

What was all that for?

(I have wrote my first sentence and deleted it so many times, I lost count. So here goes nothing.) ....When we first met, I had no idea how much you could mean to me. You stayed when I needed you most, you told me I'm loved, and you held my hands through one of the hardest times in my life. But my heart shattered when I say, it was a false start to my cruel fairytale. You have made me surrendered, I gave you my all. I had never felt so deeply for anyone, and you knew how to make me fell for you. Maybe my love spoiled you, because darling you have changed. From the woman who could no wrong, to your worst enemy. It could be the day I breathed the wrong way, asked you the wrong question, said what you did upset me, asking too many questions. Those things made you reset me. Am I to walk on eggshells around you if we want to be together? Am I just to be the person you pick up the phone whenever you feel like calling? Am I to be the one you apologize and make amends? Am I the one to always be dealt a lower hand? Is it wrong to want to feel loved my the person you feel so deeply for? Is it wrong to want your partner to care about you? Is it wrong to not want to be ignored for hours? I never regretted the love I gave you. But my biggest regret was I had convinced myself that you cared for months. I let it continued when I knew there was no way I can live with this forever. I used to think that having you smiling at me a few times was better than none. Having you for an hour to myself was better than not talking to you at all. How it broke my heart to admit the truth today, you had no idea how much you hurt me. I wonder if you cared, you probably don't. I don't think you ever did in the recent months. This is my peace offering to you, I'm leaving. DONE. I'm done making excuses for you, I'm done being treated like the person you hated. I'm most certainly done with being your last priority. I don't know what love should be, but I'm sure as hell our relationship isn't what love supposed to be. I'm writing this to all my girls out there, when things changed. You know. No matter how many times you have lied to yourself for him, you can't lie forever. If he truly wants to be with you, you will know. And when you do, leave.