Nightmare

I have a secret that I need to tell. A secret that has made me live in hell. It was quite a long time ago, I was s€xual harassed by someone I trusted and thought of as family. I alternated between guilt for let it happened, feeling dirty and unable to get clean. I haven’t told my parents or his parents because I’m sacred of victims blaming culture in this society. I don’t even told my friends about it either not because of victims blaming but I just can’t talking about it. Lately, something so miniscule triggered me and it’s unbearable. It ended up being connected to my nightmare again and it changed my quality of life. I thought that it was no longer bothered me anymore but it doesn’t. I’m terrified every time I smells the same cologne that he used. I went through “I hate all men” phase. It’s certainly changed my view of men, I’ll be never be able to look at men entirely the same way again. It’s my first time to talk about it since it has happened. Thanks, admin for letting me share it with KnongJit.

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Never be the same

Thought I’ve moved on. Thought u have nomo potential over me. Thought I’ve alr got u out of this place of mine which is called “heart”. But looking back at it, I still found myself searching for you everywhere I go, skimming through every picture of u I saved, imagining how we’ll be if we’re still tgt these days…..and that’s when I realized I’ve never step out to anywhere & move on as I’ve once committed at all cuz without u everywhere I go everything I do seems to have a missing hole & got me feeling empty. How we ended up still aches in me up to these days that it got me thinking why does it has to be that way when everything has solution but we decided to end it all up instead of solving it. Still friend. Still viewing each other’s stories.Still stalking.Still wondering what u’re doing, what u’re up to, how’ve u been. U are the reason I opened my heart & also the reason no one will see it again. Admitted it was indeed a bad timing between us back in the day but I still preciate how we tried to stick with it for so long even tho we both kno we won’t make it after all. As for every memories we’ve created, every step we’ve walked through tgt, every problems we’ve faced & solved, every place we went. I’ll save a spot for every of that cuz I dun want to 4get you & every piece of us. Last words for u: If there’s a day u decided to turn back, u’ll always see me here waitin for you cuz I don’t want no other shade of blue but u. #S to #R
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No title like your heart no longer has me

Again, I’m not the one who likes to express my feelings towards anyone especially in an anonymous platform like this. But yeah sometimes it feels release when I speak it out and it would make me feel a bit better. Let get into the point of my mess up love story. I would say that it’s okay to fell in love with someone who never say yessssss to you yet still stay in between to block your heart. Have you ever asked yourself why you choose to stay in that uncertain relationship? Even you know the consequence that they just want you for a short period when they’re bored. Sometimes I lie to myself that one day she would appreciate what I have done to her and we can be together as a couple. And sometimes I feel that I should not go deep and beg her for attention everyday cuz we’re just friend. It’s a bit unfair for me that every crushes that I have met are always do almost the same way to hurt me. Is it because I’m so soft? easy-going? But I don’t mind at all. I only have one reason that once I love someone I always try my best to show how much I love I care and I wish that they would love me back the same way. But nope, it just doesn’t work for my love life. To the girl who I’m currently fell in love with, I don’t mind that you are lost interest with me and start to put red flag 🚩 between us. But please bear in mind that even though, I still have feeling for you and I hope that you would appreciate my efforts these past months that we’ve been contact with each other. You’re the sweetest crush for me🙂

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You are worthy

I saw your post. Should you commit suicide? you failed as a son and boyfriend . Not just him anyone that felt like that. First I want to say you are lovable you have your own worth that's not everyone can see it . Person who values you will see you worth . However I know we want the affection especially from our closeness like family I was also the same . When I begin to stop ask for that instead love myself, value myself , in the end we only have ourself . I want to tell you that live on for your dream or travel to any place that you never before . If you don't have dream you will discover one . Secondly Learn to forgive who blamed you for your existence when you start learning forgiveness and want nth back . You will start to heal yourself . Remember you have your own value . Fight for yourself love yourself more . You never reward yourself then do it . Give yourself a rest . Thirdly, we are not perfect . We have our own imperfections . Learn from the past ,the mistakes, the trauma ,the misery. And forgive yourself accept those thing, learn it and improve yourself . For anyone who hurts you . You have two choices either keep distancing or be normal you still be yourself doing good deed just be yourself even you realise they never be in good term with you( they might take time to realise it ) But still it is better to distance yourself from them and give yourself growth. I think everyone know commit suicide is not solutions but sometimes we can't fight anymore we are tired emotionally , spiritually, physically . That's why you need to rest . You should forgive them and maybe distance yourself after you start to focus on yourself to heal . Love yourself 🤗. Afterall you only have yourself in the end . You was born alone you will die alone your sadness carry is alone . If you have no friends to share your story with . Write it down to book all the feeling,anger ,happy how is your day ? Planning things ahead . Maybe you should try to learn new things like arts, music discover yourself. One more thing read book or feed your brain with any knowledge if you are into any major feed yourself with it to build yourself . When you are busy with yourself you will eventually not care about other anymore . All your attention shift on yourself . Last but not least again .keep moving forward . You are so awesome human being . Please take care of yourself more and love yourself୧(＾ 〰 ＾)୨. From me Viramoon. sorry for my grammer . I'm still working on it.
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My precious Doggos

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I’m in trouble

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As we fall apart.

Pretty as flower Cold as the wind breeze You will always shine, Our memories will stay but neither of us will be together.