From gech,

Block

Why you keep block and unblock me? What did I do wrong? Or what did you do wrong? What you feel? What you think? Are you trying to show you have move on? So you unblock. Then the guilt build up because you know you have hurt me, broke our bond for no valid reason? You can’t face me because you know what you did? You keep showing that person off, you keep saying you felt heart to heart not just appearance. You keep saying they accept you for who you are but all that person do is remain silent. Seem like their love have change you or you are trying to change yourself for them? Does anything remind you of us? But you can’t make yourself turn around, you keep putting up with your ego. So you’re going to keep fooling yourself that they are better? That you are better with them? and just going to block again? Or this person is the one you truly been looking for? And what we had was nothing? Even after all this time I did nothing, keep praying all the best for you, never intrude you with all the new people you try to build with, stand and watch my seat being displaced, the person I love switching to someone else. Is the present of me that irritating that you have to keep cutting me off?

2025-08-14

Karma

អ្នកសប្បាយចិត្តណាស់ អ្នកបង្ហាញថាមានភាពកក់ក្តៅ ពេញចិត្តគេណាស់ បង្ហាញថាគេស្រឡាញ់និងទទួលយកអ្នកជាអ្នក។ តែអ្នកភ្លេចគិតហេីយថាគេស្គាល់ គេទទួលយកអ្នកនៅពេលដែលអ្នកល្អប្រសេីរហេីយ អ្នកមានសម្ភារះនិយម មានផ្ទះថ្មី មានម៉ូតូឡាន មានបទពិសោធន៏ពីមនុស្សម្នាក់ដែលអ្នកបោះបង់ចោល។ អ្នកកែប្រែដេីម្បីគេ វាល្អហេីយព្រោះមកពីស្រឡាញ់ទេីបកែប្រែដេីម្បីបន្ត។ តែអ្នកក៍គួរតែចាំដែរថា អ្នកណាដែលទទួលយកអ្នកពេលមិនទាន់មានអ្វីទាំងអស់។ អ្នកណាស៊ូទ្រាំជាមួយអ្នកទោះមានឧបសគ្គរារាំង តាមពង្រាត់។ មានរឿងលំបាក អន់ចិត្ត ក៍មិនចោលអ្នក មិនមែនធ្វេីដោយបង្ខំចិត្ត ធ្វេីដេីម្បីចងចិត្ត រឺ ចេះតែទ្រាំៗព្រោះស្រឡាញ់មកយូរ តែធ្វេីហេីយនិងទ្រាំចេញពីចិត្ត ព្រោះមានគោលដៅ មានសន្យា មានពាក្យសម្តីថានឹងស្រឡាញ់គ្នាសាងអនាគតជាមួយគ្នា។ អ្នកគិតថាបាក់ទឹកចិត្តជាមួយខ្លួនឯងបោះបង់គេចោល ជូនពរគេអោយជួបមនុស្សល្អជាងអ្នករួចហេីយចប់? ពេលល្អប្រសេីរ ទៅស្គាល់មនុស្សថ្មី ស្រឡាញ់មនុស្សថ្មី មេីលថែគេ បង្ហាញក្តីស្រឡាញ់អោយគេ មានច្រេីនទៀត ធ្វេីល្អដាក់អ្នកថ្មីបែបនេះហេីយចប់? រួចខ្លួន? ប្រេីទ្រឹស្តី life need to move on? មានដែលគិតពីអារម្មណ៍មនុស្សម្ខាងទៀតអត់? អ្នកធ្វេីបាបចិត្តមនុស្សដែលកំពុងហេីយតែងតែស្រឡាញ់អ្នកខ្លាំង អ្នកបោះបង់គេចោលកណ្តាលទី។ អ្នកអេីយទោះមិនមែនជាអ្នកមានគុណរបស់អ្នក តែការអោយតម្លៃ ទឹកចិត្តស្រឡាញ់ មិនចាញ់លោកអ្នកមានគុណទាំង2 របស់អ្នកទេ។ អ្នកអេីយគួរដឹងហេីយចាំថាអ្នកហែលឆ្លង ទឹកចិត្តដែលស្រឡាញ់ ទឹកភ្នែកដែលអ្នកធ្វេីអោយហូរនេះមិនផុតទណា។ មិនមែនចេះតែបន្លាច ចេះតែថាទេ ខ្ញុំនៅតែស្រឡាញ់ បន់អោយអ្នកជួបតែរឿងល្អ តែកម្មពារមានពិតណាអ្នក វាសងភ្លាមៗនៅជាតិនេះឯង។

Influence

Do you think, being with someone who is depressed, will turn you into someone like them too? You’re being tortured emotionally by them to the point you just want to suicide with them, but still, you have to be that someone comforting them and tolerating with everything. You changed from someone who is so optimistic to pessimistic, and damn the world is never pink again.

Are We Really FRIENDS?

We started to know each other at the University by our mutual friends a year after enrolling the University. Our class were next door and we were complete stranger. We completely came from different world. Her friends got a project. I was asked to help. We became friend at first but not really closed one. Months later, I started to care, to curious, to chase, and to chat to her. I didn't know that it was a beginning of catching feelings for someone since I have never had one. I was pretty annoying her by some of my actions because I didn't know how I should do to express my feelings. I was unreasonably angry at her when she ignored me like I was invisible. Unfortunately, I changed class to another shift. We separated. I did miss her. Whenever, she asked me for help. I never said "NO" because I made me happy for helping her. I thought alone that she would have feelings for me, too. And yeah, it was one-sided love from me. She was already in relationship with someone whom I knew at that time. My heart broke into pieces. I cried without being aware of it was a heart broken feelings. I pretended to congrats her and be laughing in front of her. Years passed by, we didn't contact. She only chatted to me once she needed helps. Still, I didn't reject any requests. She sent me some songs, yet I didn't realize what the meaning of sending a song. I asked her why she sent me songs. She said "nothing" just send to me and listen. I was so dumb or I thought that she was in relationship. I shouldn't care about her anymore. She may be breaking up with someone I know. And, getting into another relationship. I also realized that. I always kept my distance just don't want to hurt myself more than before. She did reply to my story sometimes. I didn't reply much as before. Yeah, my feelings for her still remains the same until now and it's been 4 years. I met new people. Those closed friends told me that I should move on and opens for new one because she didn't have any feelings for me as they can assume of my storytelling. We both don't cut each other off. We are still contacting. We sometimes talk deeper, flirting, and argue. However, I don't really want to express my feeling because I don't know whether she is available. Whatever, I still care, love, stand behind her, buy her food. I do everything I could do for her in the name of her friend. You will always be in my heart, my friend. 👩‍❤️‍👩

Dear My Little Seth <3

I hope you doing well my little Seth. I miss you so so bad. I miss the way we talked. I miss how lovely you are to me. I miss how gentle you are. I miss the way you called me my little Junn, Junn Junn, baby Junn... and I also miss your questions, are you tired? where are you now? what are you doin? have you eaten?... Even though we met by online but i admit that i like you for real. and yeahh, if we are meant to be, we will meet each other again someday. Please be safe, take careeeee, get some rest and dont forget to drink water a lot naaaaa. Sethh San, Anata ga koishī.

dear you...

Trust me, if I could turn back time to the moment we're together, i would hold you longer, hug you tighter, kiss you more and tell you how I feel. Our moment might be short but trust me, you have a special place in my heart, always. Because everytime I look into your eyes, i could still see "us". I dont regret meeting you, i regret not be able to tell you how i feel toward you. Thank for all these moment we had. And in the end we're just stranger who know each other a little bit more than anyone else. A stranger with memories. </3

Am I that pathetic?

Is it wrong to have feelings for your own friend? And is it wrong to still have hope that we might end up together? Is it too pathetic to continue liking him? I can say that we are quite close, and by far, he’s the closest guy friend I’ve ever had. Close in the sense of me sharing with him about my day, my struggles, my happy moments, etc. He was very understanding, kind, and not to mention very smart. He listened to me ranting about my days very well. He also consults me whenever I’m down. We exchanged many texts. We texted non-stop until the early morning. He made me feel somewhat important and special. We also countdown together on New Year’s Eve. But, little did I know, he treated other friends (he had a lot of girl friends) the same way too…… I tried to distance myself and cut off my feelings, but no matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t. Even to this day, I still have feelings for him and still hope that I’m special to him in some way. My pathetic self.

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