2025-08-14
Always you!
To you my priority, since the day you left, Iβm certain that Iβm not the same person as I used to be. Iβm sure that my feeling right now isnβt okay and it hurts me the most. I wanted to let you know that, youβre the only one who made me know what love is, youβre the only one who made me feel warm and secure while I was with you, youβre the only one that my love for you is still the same since our first day until now, youβre the only one whom I have any plans for the future.
All of the sacrifices, efforts, and times that I put in, I didnβt expect anything in return, other than your love and dedication. I did everything just to make you feel that youβre the only one that got all of those things from me, not everyone else. I did everything just to make you feel happy, warm, and comfortable. Iβve never stopped daydreaming about how Iβm going to build my life, buy my first house, first car with you, and marry you one day.
You know what? I see you every two weeks, and when I return home I feel as if I've lost something that no one or nothing can replace. I had the feeling that I was leaving something behind that would never come back. I miss you, I'm upset, I didnβt want to return home, and I want to spend the rest of my life with you. Youβre the only one, when Iβm having fun and all I could think of is what if you were right here with me? Iβd go on trips and while living in the moment, I allowed my imaginations to get ahead of me and I was able to picture you beside me and I got that feeling of βhow nice would it be for you to be here with meβ.
To me, youβre perfect. To me, youβre beautiful as always in my eyes. Iβm grateful you came into my life, Iβm grateful for everything youβve done for me. My love for you hasn't changed, and no one can take your place in my heart, my mind, and my brain. And Iβm so sorry for what Iβve done to you. Sorry that I canβt keep you by my side. Iβm still hoping everyday that you will come back to me again. Youβre special to me. Iβm so proud to have you in my life. I want to spend the rest of my life with you. Your photo is still in my wallet, and your picture is still on my lock screen wallpaper.
I wrote these letters with a song that I used to sing for you, When youβre home - Tyler Shaw.
Itβs 3AM now and Iβm still thinking about you. I hope you will come back to me!
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