Influence

Do you think, being with someone who is depressed, will turn you into someone like them too? You’re being tortured emotionally by them to the point you just want to suicide with them, but still, you have to be that someone comforting them and tolerating with everything. You changed from someone who is so optimistic to pessimistic, and damn the world is never pink again.

Feeling bottled up?

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2025-08-14

What are we?

I always ask myself, who are you to me? We are close than friend but not in relationship. I am pretty sure that you know how I feel for you. So, please give me an answer. It isn’t fun staying in such dilemma.

2025-08-14

Dear S_Tep

It’s already a month since we apart. May I ask have you ever regretted about your decision that you make​? I’m still think what if we still continue our status, how good or bad it is? I know our time together was short, but it is deep to me.

2025-08-14

once a lover, now a stranger

i will always remember the day we started talking. i would never forget the man whom i used to cherish, and treasure. it's been 2 years already since we were officially broken apart, but still, i couldn't get over you. after all this time, i still think about you, and want you back. however, it seems like you are better off without me. i know you haven't found someone new yet, so has me. day by day, i keep waiting for you, hoping someday you're gonna come back and love me again eventhough i know it's impossible. i know i was the one who asked for the breakup because i was so stupid and immature, and reckless. we had been together for so long and i didn't trust you. i was too afraid that you would leave me someday, so i left you first. we're strangers now. i deserve it. p.s my heart will only be for you #chh

2025-08-14

Failed to delete you.exe 🥑

Do you know how I came here? I’m trying to forget you. It took me five hours to bike here, a coffee store in the middle of a mountain. I was running away from you for six months. I tried so hard to not thinking about you, avoiding your social media, ignoring your favorite meal, when it appears in front of me. Why do you not fade even a little? How could you show up here so easily? and You forgot me so easily. So~ Why can’t I... 😢 This is killing me. Answer me [Why is it so easy for you?]

2025-08-14

Temporary Unknown Status

Hey, you are the one who decided to break up and also you are the one who ignored and closed the communication even said we can’t continue anymore. As time goes by, I’m trying to heal myself and move on, you showed up acting like all the above things didn’t happen. When I ask why would you come back, you said there must be a reason but you don’t know it too. So I’m wondering what am I to you really? A toy?

2025-08-14

Hope someday we will meet again

It has been 2 years and 6 months since we broke up, but I still miss those days That, hours of chatting, Fighting over little things , Late night talks , Sharing secrets , Weird dreams , Being possessive , Attitudes , Waiting for your texts, Watching our pics and texts over and over , Smiling for no reason , Trusting you blindly , Your hugs and kisses , Your innocent wishes… And now it's just having Blank inbox , Hours of loneliness , Unshared emotions , Late night thinking, Heartbreaking secrets ,Shattered dreams, Deleted memories ,Broken trust, Devious heartaches I don’t know why I Am still waiting for you , still hope someday we will meet each other again .

2025-08-14

Why?

Befor we us are best friends, but everything has changed. When I rejected your love.I want everything as before, why not? Why run away from me? Why not talk to me.Why pretend not to know me? Why change school? Why? Why can not we be as good friends as before? 4 years of friendship is not less, why did you choose this way? I want to say thanks very much for everything,I hope you know. I’m Sorry Boy👦

2025-08-14

December 2015

There was a guy that catch my eyes back then during my parent working trip at KPS since 2015. Our eyes catch while I was on my way down the stair and it keep bothering me for around one year and thanks god in 2017 I can forget it because I was busy studying for my BACII . I never thought that we could meet again but in 2018 I end up working in the same place with him until now. I use to be someone who good at controlling myself when it comes to feeling and always try to calm myself down for these few years but lately it seem to be out of control and I cannot stop thinking about him. He keep looking at me when we meet and when our eyes meet my heart keep racing. I always trying to avoid but the more I try the more we accidentally meet. I just don't know what to do now...it's so confusing.....