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Sometimes I just want to get the feeling of love from someone because I never receive that at all. š¶ when you love someone and they never love you back and itās hurt so bad itās been twice for me already and actually I never been in any relationship
She just wants people like me, but she doesnāt need me.
I really wish that was from you #KJ0227, You know We both follow ā Knong Jit ā. Cuz when we were on phone, you told me that you saw me follow this page already. And Since the day youāve left, I keep checking every post if there is sth from you to me. Wellā¦. Everyday, I still feel like sh*t without you being around and you know it clearly HOW HARD IT COULD BE FOR ME !! I MISS US !! IāLL ALWAYS LOVE YOU !!
(I have wrote my first sentence and deleted it so many times, I lost count. So here goes nothing.) ....When we first met, I had no idea how much you could mean to me. You stayed when I needed you most, you told me I'm loved, and you held my hands through one of the hardest times in my life. But my heart shattered when I say, it was a false start to my cruel fairytale. You have made me surrendered, I gave you my all. I had never felt so deeply for anyone, and you knew how to make me fell for you. Maybe my love spoiled you, because darling you have changed. From the woman who could no wrong, to your worst enemy. It could be the day I breathed the wrong way, asked you the wrong question, said what you did upset me, asking too many questions. Those things made you reset me. Am I to walk on eggshells around you if we want to be together? Am I just to be the person you pick up the phone whenever you feel like calling? Am I to be the one you apologize and make amends? Am I the one to always be dealt a lower hand? Is it wrong to want to feel loved my the person you feel so deeply for? Is it wrong to want your partner to care about you? Is it wrong to not want to be ignored for hours? I never regretted the love I gave you. But my biggest regret was I had convinced myself that you cared for months. I let it continued when I knew there was no way I can live with this forever. I used to think that having you smiling at me a few times was better than none. Having you for an hour to myself was better than not talking to you at all. How it broke my heart to admit the truth today, you had no idea how much you hurt me. I wonder if you cared, you probably don't. I don't think you ever did in the recent months. This is my peace offering to you, I'm leaving. DONE. I'm done making excuses for you, I'm done being treated like the person you hated. I'm most certainly done with being your last priority. I don't know what love should be, but I'm sure as hell our relationship isn't what love supposed to be. I'm writing this to all my girls out there, when things changed. You know. No matter how many times you have lied to yourself for him, you can't lie forever. If he truly wants to be with you, you will know. And when you do, leave.
So we both end up about 4years ago because you said you didnāt love me but I still remember how we talk to each other play game together share my story to you every day. And I never see you for long time ago and today we met again we talk again and I kinda feel like I still like you but not like how I used to love you more than myself before.
(This is like a note to myself) Thereās a quote said donāt expect the happiness from where u lost it and theyāre right. No matter how much u still love someone or feel like u want to give someone another chance just because u feel bad about it, just donāt do it. Itās not worth it. If thereās moment when u feel like u should go back, just remember how much u have strived, how much u have tried to moved on from all the trauma, how hard u have tried just to get urself back up again. I have come so far just to get over all the trauma that he gave me, now that I gave him a chance, he flipped on me and now I have to go through the same process all over again. Itās hurting and itās embarrassing at the same time. He making me feel like a clown, but thanks for the lesson.
When I was a kid I wanted to marry my dad when I grow up. In my eyes, he was the ideal husband. Growing up to an adult now I am, it's been 1 year since I last talked with my dad. All of the experience I witnessed from hurting my mom to verbally abused my mental health, I grew apart and swear to myself I will never meet anyone like my dad. It's probably affect to my relationship life because I somehow ended up taking a bare minimum to feel loved. I somehow fool myself that it was love while instead it wasnt even close to love. I have a daddy issue and I afraid that I no longer looking in love in a man or knowing what I deserve more in love.
Since I broke up with my ex bf in March 2021, I never had any bf until now. Not because I didnāt fall in love with anyone else. Itās because I used to asked s1 abt feeling during I broke up. And the answer is ā death both sideāxD. And yeah at the time heās the only person that I chatted with, told him howās my feelings, sometime cried while sending my voice to him. Then we havenāt chatted for awhile. Currently, And he just text me and get on with each again.