That’s one boy who I used to love the most

So we both end up about 4years ago because you said you didn’t love me but I still remember how we talk to each other play game together share my story to you every day. And I never see you for long time ago and today we met again we talk again and I kinda feel like I still like you but not like how I used to love you more than myself before.

Feeling bottled up?

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No Reason to Stay 🥑

Is spending time with me exhausting? What? You said it's because you tired from work, that's why you act like this? I mean you know, I'm super busy at work and I'm really burnt out too. But still, I carved out time to spend it with you, and I want our time together to be special, you know! and I bring you here because I wanted us to reconnect, and... do you seriously think I came here to just shop? I want us talking and walking together... but you always want to go eat~ is it because you're hungry or are you just trying to kill time? You don't want to do anything with me anymore, do you? 😞 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g6qdzjTSgH0
2025-08-14

:(

Where have been to for so long??? I am not okay here. I feel like I am all alone. Hug me tight please.

2025-08-14

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I felt inspired by watching the rain through my bedroom’s window with my light off. What if the rain were just like us human when crying? Those droplets were just like our tears. Those rumbled thunder was just like us yelling out for help, and those lighting strikes were like us trying to hurt ourselves. It would be unfair if so. Instead of having friends staying besides to comfort like human, the rain doesn’t. Even worse, people would just run away as fast as they can just to avoid it; they get scared, cover their ears even eyes, and curse when they see or hear it thundering. I am one of them too. I get scared and cover my ears when hearing ones. But now, by sitting in my room and considering it, I feel sorry for it. Imagine having no one to turn to or understand you when you need them, and that’s how the sky feels right now. It has been hiding its pain for so long that it couldn’t hold it back anymore, so it had to let it out by pouring rain on us, hopelessly crying and asking for help. That’s why I sit here in my room looking at you and admire you from afar without you noticing or even knowing that I exist. You are doing a great job. Yes! Let it all out; however, I can’t assure you that there won’t be any day like this again, but one step at a time. Remember all those days that the sun was burning all of the creatures on earth while you were their savior? You gave us rain, shades, and good days to us. We are grateful for that. You know what? Without you raining (crying and getting things out of your chest), the presence of rainbow means nothing at all. Therefore, look at those good things you have done for us to keep you going. #sciencefailed
2025-08-14

Unclear Relationship.

I was interested in him. I found his Instagram and I just clicked follow ‘cause I wanted to stalk him. Once, he had reacted on my story, then he replied to my story. We started talking to each other since that day. We’ve met 4times in person. We have a good connection. We keep contacting, checking up and talking to each other almost every day and night. We become more closer and closer. We’ve been knowing each other for 7months and we decided to go on date. We have a road trip. We created so many good memories together. There’s nothing between us. But when we were together, our action is more than a couple. I fall for him since the day we dated. But I keep it in mind ‘cause I’m not sure if he feel the same. I just play along day by day. One day, I decided to make the first move, I express all my feeling to him. I confessed to him. But… sadly, I got reject. So I choose to walk out and move on. BUT! He didn’t let me go! That’s the point!! He once said that we can’t be in a relationship. Also, we can’t end up. He tryna fix it. I muted and ignored all his social media but he keep contacting me everyday. Until today, he still ghosting me. I don’t really know what kind of relationship is this. I just wanna walk out and move on with peace. I don’t wanna waste each other time. I’m so tired of staying in this kind of situation. In the end, we’re not friend. Not a couple. We both just a stranger that used to have good memories. But please, let me go…
2025-08-14

Move on or waiting?

I hope u read this kmeng komhoch🤣 this name maybe can help remind you who was called you like this. It's been 4months that we haven't talked to each other. How have you been? How is ur mental health? U might be find someone else, be with someone else or losing feeling on me I guess. Also as I knew from my friends they told me that you came back to Khmer? In this 4months I still can't move on from you, can't get you out of my mind even I tried everyday to make myself busy, tryna stopped thinking about you but can't, I really can't. Just know that I love you a lot. We don't even have a lot of memories with each other but why are you so hard for me to unlove u? My friend said "យូរខែហេីយសុខៗទៅចឹងមិនបាននិយាយគ្នា គេមិនបានស្រឡាញ់ហែងទេកុំភ្លេីពេក" and idiot me still here just waiting for that person. Still praying the best for him every day to get everything he worked so hard for.

2025-08-14

The good guy

ធ្លាប់ជួបមនុស្សដែលអ្នកតែងតែប្រាថ្នាអត់? យើងធ្លាប់តែស្រឡាញ់មនុស្សម្នាក់ហើយ ចូលចិត្តស្រឡាញ់ម្នាក់ហ្នឹងក្នុងរូបភាពនៃការស្រម៉ៃរបស់ខ្លួនឯង ដែលយើងហៅថា "Falling in love with the idea of the person"។ ប៉ុន្តែអ្នកធ្លាប់គិតអត់ថាមនុស្សដែលអ្នកសម្រម៉ៃក្នុងខួរក្បាលហ្នឹង អាចនឹងជាមនុស្សពិតប្រាកដក្នុងជីវិតពិត? សង្ឃឹមតិចណាស់មែនអត់? អ្នកក៏ធ្លាប់ស្រម៉ៃថា បើម្នាក់ហ្នឹងចេះសួរសុខទុក្ខយើងរាល់ថ្ងៃ បារម្ភ ផ្ដល់ក្ដីស្រឡាញ់ នាំយើងញ៉ាំអីដែលយើងចូលចិត្ត សួរនាំពីអ្វីគ្រប់យ៉ាងដែលយើងចង់បាន លើកទឹកចិត្តយើងរហូតក្នុងការងារ ឬអ្វីដែលយើងធ្វើ...មិនដឹងយើងស្រឡាញ់ម្នាក់ហ្នឹងប៉ុណ្ណាទេ។ ជឿអត់ថាការស្រម៉ៃមួយហ្នឹងក្លាយជាការពិត? មិនដឹងថាទេវតាទើបតែស្ដាប់ឮពាក្យបន់ស្រន់របស់ខ្ញុំឬយ៉ាងណាទេ ប៉ុន្តែខ្ញុំក៏បានជួបម្នាក់នោះ។ គេមិនមែនស្រឡាញ់តែខ្ញុំទេ គេយកចិត្តទុកដាក់ទាំងគ្រួសារខ្ញុំ គេល្អមករហូត ព្រោះមិនមែនជាសកម្មភាពដែលយើងធ្លាប់ឃើញមនុស្សប្រុសល្អដាក់យើងតែដំបូងទេ។ គេបន្តសកម្មភាពនោះច្រើនខែណាស់។ ពេលវេលាចេះតែដើរទៅមុខ ទង្វើរបស់គេមិនមែនខ្សោយទៅៗទេ ប៉ុន្តែគេកាន់តែល្អជាងមុន កាន់ធ្វើឲខ្ញុំមានអារម្មណ៍ថា ម្នាក់នេះខុសពីអ្នកដទៃ។ ខ្ញុំចាប់អារម្មណ៍ដឹងថាគេជា មនុស្សដែលខ្ញុំតែងតែប្រាថ្នា ជាមនុស្សដែលខ្ញុំហៅថា "idea of the person I love"។ ពេលដែលខ្ញុំដឹងហើយ ខ្ញុំបានផ្ដល់ឱកាសឲខ្លួនឯងបើកចិត្តទទួលយកគេ ព្រោះខ្ញុំមានអារម្មណ៍ថា ខ្ញុំនិងគេដូចជា 2 broken souls ជួបគ្នាចឹង។ ខ្ញុំគិតថាដល់ពេលដែលអាចសាកទៅជិតគេជាងនេះ ស្គាល់ពីគេជាងនេះ ទើបពួកយើងបានជួបគ្នានៅក្រៅ។ ការដែលជួបគ្នានៅក្រៅ គេក៏នៅតែល្អចឹង និយាយទៅដូច បានជួបការស្រម៉ៃខ្លួនឯងក្នុងជីវិតពិតចឹង។ តែអ្នកទាំងអស់គ្នាដឹងថាចម្លែកម៉េចអត់? អារម្មណ៍ខ្ញុំ!! គឺវា!! អត់មាន😞។ ឲនិយាយថាម៉េចទៅ?? ខ្ញុំប្រហែលជាអត់ស្រឡាញ់គេទេ!! ហើយអ្នកអានឆ្ងល់អត់ ថាម៉េចអត់ស្រឡាញ់បើល្អចឹងហើយ?? ខ្ញុំឆ្លើយអត់ចេញទេ។ គ្រាន់តែដឹងថាខ្ញុំបានប្រើពេលវេលា ព្យាយាមស្រឡាញ់គាត់ ព្រោះខ្ញុំដឹងក្នុងចិត្តថាគាត់ជាមនុស្សដ៏សែនល្អ ហើយខ្ញុំមិនដឹងពេលណាបានជួបមនុស្សល្អដូចគាត់ទៀតទេ។ ខ្ញុំចាប់ផ្ដើមកុហកខ្លួនឯង ថាប្រហែលជាមិនទាន់ស្រឡាញ់ ឬត្រូវការពេលបន្តិចទៀត...។ ប៉ុន្តែខ្ញុំអាត្មានិយមណាស់! បើអត់ស្រឡាញ់គេហើយ ម៉េចមិនប្រាប់គេ? ខ្ញុំអត់ទាន់ចង់បដិសេធព្រោះខ្ញុំចង់ស្រឡាញ់គេវិញដូចគ្នា។ អ្នកណាចង់បោះចោលមនុស្សល្អចឹង? មកដល់ពេលហ្នឹងទើបយល់ថាទេវតាឆ្លើយតបហ្នឹងការប្រាថ្នារបស់ខ្ញុំ ដោយឲខ្ញុំជួបមនុស្សក្នុងក្ដីស្រម៉ៃ ប៉ុន្តែខ្ញុំភ្លេចគិតថា ស្នេហាមិនមែនស្រឡាញ់តែម្ខាងទេ។ ខ្ញុំតែងសុំឲជួបមនុស្សដែលស្រឡាញ់ខ្ញុំ ប៉ុន្តែ ខ្ញុំមិនដែលធ្លាប់ប្រាថ្នាឲជួបមនុស្សដែលខ្លួនស្រឡាញ់ទេ។ យើងពិតជាមិនអាចព្រោះតែគេជាមនុស្សល្អ ត្រូវកុហកគេ និងកុហកខ្លួនឯងដើម្បីបោកប្រាស់ក្ដីស្រឡាញ់របស់គេទេ។ ចុងក្រោយគឺខ្ញុំសម្រេចចិត្ត និយាយការពិត ព្រោះទោះយូរប៉ុណ្ណាក៏មិនអាចឲចិត្តនេះស្រឡាញ់គេ ដូចដែលគេស្រឡាញ់ខ្ញុំដែរ។ ពួកយើងមាននិស្ស័យត្រឹមស្គាល់ បេះដូងគ្នា តែក៏មិនបានមានពេលវេលានៅក្បែរ ថែរក្សាយូរដែរ។ ខ្ញុំដឹងថាមនុស្សល្អមិនងាយរកបាន ប៉ុន្តែព្រោះតែអ្នកជាមនុស្សល្អ ខ្ញុំរឹតតែចង់ឲអ្នកជួបនឹងមនុស្សដែលអាចផ្ដល់ក្ដីស្រឡាញ់ឲអ្នកវិញដូចគ្នា។ និយាយដល់ចំណុចនេះទើបដឹងថា ក្ដីស្រឡាញ់គឺឋិតនៅលើយើងខ្លួនឯង វាអត់ឋិតនៅលើទង្វើរបស់ម្ខាងទៀតទេ ព្រោះមិនថាគេល្អយ៉ាងណា អាក្រក់យ៉ាងណា, បើស្រឡាញ់គឺស្រឡាញ់ បើអត់គឺអត់ហើយ។ រឿងនេះដូច តួឯកស្រី បដិសេធតួរងប្រុសចឹង។ អ្នកមើលឆ្ងល់ណាស់ម៉េចតួឯកស្រី មិនស្រឡាញ់តួរងប្រុសហ្នឹងចឹង ទាំងដែលតួរងប្រុសលះបង់គ្រប់យ៉ាង ហើយល្អគ្រប់10។ ពេលនេះខ្ញុំយល់អារម្មណ៍ហ្នឹងហើយ គ្រាន់តែរឿងខ្ញុំគ្មានតួឯកប្រុសទេ ហើយក៏មិនដឹងថា ថ្ងៃក្រោយតួឯកប្រុស ចេញមុខឲអ្នកទាំងអស់គ្នាអានឬក៏អត់ដែរ។ ដឹងត្រឹមថា I feel stupid for letting a good guy go, but at least I don't lie to anybody.
2025-08-14

What if I am just the girl who comes into his life just to help him be a better man for another girl?

We werent supposed to meet. I was supposed to walk a path set out for me...i was supposed to never step a foot or breathe into your world...but a moment of recklessness brought me into a new world that made me into a happier person. And I met you. You were always like a shadow until one day i stopped, turned around, and fell immediately into your cold, indifferent eyes. You barely talked to anybody, but you were responsive to me. You tolerated my meanness, you listened to my sob stories, and you let me talked abt my drama without making me feel like i am a bother. Slowly, you opened up to me...but I know there is still a deeper part of you I might never get to know. Nevertheless, as friends, you are the best friend a girl could ever asked for. I've never had a male friend, so thank you for making me feel appreciated. Thank you for making me feel safe. Most important of all, thank you for making me realize what it feels like to fall in love with a true gentleman. I know my feelings arent mutual, but that is fine. We are still young. Our dreams are still far. One day, I will look back at us and smile. One day, when I am ready to move on, I will picture you in my head and tell myself, "This is the standard you're aiming for. Do not settle for less." Please...please dont get tired of me. I scolded you, nagged you because i care. I know you have the potential to be a succesful man that is why I do not want you to waste your potential. I want your family and the girl whom you will end up with to be proud of you. Why? Because you deserve the world. I care about you. A lot. I always do and I always will.
2025-08-14

I didn’t break u and her, but I found out herself.

#KJ0456 It is really hard to let go of you oun. I know that you are facing a mental problems and yeah we broke up months ago due to my ex breaking both of us up...I just want you to know that I won't be giving up on you and hoping one day you shall return to me. Please don't believe nor falling for those horrible things she said. Remembering those hard time we've been together....It really hits me most of the time because of all those struggling time I've been facing there will always be you whom is consulting me and even calm me down. I Hope You Are Coming Back Soon. I promised you that one day we will be holding each other hands in front of our parents. Moonlight ;)) Well, I will answer that, She found out herself and I didn’t mean to break yours, she wanted to break up with you. So just leave her alone. And remember what you’ve done to me on those days🙂 should I tell her again #s_Thara