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Confess ot del approve sos tang pi khae 3:D
He was the one ex-bf that i feel wronged to break up with. But after that we're still seeing each other as a normal friend. It's look like he already moved-on and ready for a new start while i still stuck in the past, and keep thinking if there anyway that make us back together? Or should i keep silence and wait for him? Sometimes i really want to move on but i don't know how
Confess ot del approve sos tang pi khae 3:D
Disclaimer: If you're sensitive to any pessimistic contents, please skip this. You would not want anything to discourage you. I do not know where to start or what to write but here is my story. I'm born in good family, somehow i feel my life is not. I do not if i am overthinking or i am being too emotional. I am youngest child, my age is over 2 decades, my parents are over half of hundred. I am just still live by my parents, accomplish nothing but troubles. My parents spent nearly a million of dollars for my education somehow i feel to learn n.th useful to make them proud. My friends at this point, they made the name for themselves, they have a family. I feel like i am a lose. i fail as a child, as brother, and as a friend. I do a lot of things to disappoint my family. I know my family is well-known but this burden has pressure me more since i have a lot of expectation from people. In life, i want to have friends to hang out with but no one want to be near me, i had friends only in high-school that was because i see them everyday after that we cut off the contact. Even with my parents, i seem to grow distance, i could not do anything to help them. I want to be near them but i do not know how or where should i start. People might see me as out-going, friendly, extrovert but inside i am just a boring guy, emotional sh**, loner. I feel like darkness is my favourite place, like Batman but Batman is rich while i m poor. I just want to run off from home, and cut off the contacts just to free everyone's burden. I see myself with no real skill or ability even now i am just too afraid to be in love too, i know no one wants a useless guy. When people ask me, why do not i hang-out with my friends? I do not want to answer them, just because they do not like me, i do not blend in, or i have no friends. I know nothing beside being in the gym, fashion, and beauty. They are useless since I am not a model. It contributes nothing as incomes, only splurging. I need someone to understand me, lend me their shoulders, and telling me "Everything is alright", and somehow i just want to be alone. I sometime feel numb from sarcasm. I am also afraid to be in love since i got rejected on every of my confessions, i feel like i am not good enough for anyone, i just afraid to be in love, afraid to hurt someone too. I am just too insecure about everything. so far, i think i have reached my opinions. I do not know what to say anymore Thanks for reading
The person I have a crush on is also an audience of this page. I’m hoping he’ll read this. I've liked him for quite a while now. I react to his posts here and then, but we never actually talk, so I couldn’t come forward with my feelings toward him. There’s no such thing as waiting for the guy to text first, and I’m not scared to reach him, but there’s no opportunity for it at all, and I’m guessing it wasn’t meant to be, but the other me thought that how could I know if I hadn’t tried? By the way, this guy is my type, so I guess he’s worth my time siming over him. This is so frustrating and I hope no one else can relate to this because it is giving me headaches and starting to drive me crazy now.
How many time do i have to say sorry? I don’t know why I’m the one who said sorry every time my ex texted me. What did i do wrong? Did i cheat like he did? No. But why do I have to keep saying sorry? Is it because i break up with him while he’s cheating behind my back? Do I have to say sorry every fucking time he send me a text that’s he misses me? Please stop haunting me. Im scared, fr. I’m wrong for breaking one’s heart, but who’s responsible for my heartbreak? No one. Please stop i’m begging. I always want my ex to be my friend, no matter how we end it. I still love them as a friend but this guy haunt me like a ghost that I don’t want to mention that I’ve ever been with him. The aftermath is a mess💀
How are you doing ?? You have been so silent. Don’t you even miss me ?? What do you say ?? But fuck you, you leave me worried and not even fucking let me hear out a word.
Why don't you just say it if you no longer want to talk. It hurts me but It’s probably easier for either of us and you have to leave me alone and waiting for your replies for hours or even days. It’s so exhausted to question my own worth. Just spill it out and let’s move on.
Said im fine and said i moved on Im only here passing time in his arms
I’m wondering if he hates me that’s why he blocked me. :) loved him so much still do but what can you do when a person want to leave? And this pretending that everything is fine sucks. It’s been 6 months and I still can’t move on. Really hate this.