I know u have feeling on me, but don't know begin when. We both talk like a sweet couple, u call me bby I call u bby too. But u know! Everytime I did I feel embarrassed. Honestly, I'm not sure about that. When u confessed I always pretend not to know and changed our talking topic. Another thing that I can't accept u is bec I clearly don't have feeling on u. Everytime I think about u but never seen u. Maybe I still love #R, cuz he always exist in my dream when I think about u. I'm still thinking and asked myself " what should I do?? ". Now I got the answer, maybe I should let u go n end up our fake relationship. I'm sorry! I never want to hurt u. Maybe someone waiting for u, so let begin with her not me. #P
Ex, I changed myself alot about personality. And im glad and proud that i did it success even i can’t move on from u. I wanna ask u 3 questions: 1. I have everything especially my personality isn’t like before, ik im still me but i just changed my toxic personality so what else im still missing? 2. Do u have a true woman to love u yet? 3. And do u change urself some of mistakes? Cuz u also have alot of mistakes too. Did u change anything?
We've been broke up for 2 years but idk why i always miss you even though i was with someboday Else. I was hugging and kissing her but all my mind was thinking about you and I still imagined it's was u. I know u still have a feeling for me but i really can't move on from what u did to me. I choose to ignore u for ur good and it's really hurt that i'm ignoring a girl that i love the most. I just want to tell u that you're the girl i love the most. I want congrat u for ur dream become true even without me. I always love you ❤️
I would have felt a little better if you could at least hear what I was talking:) #fromkid
Well, we started off at a good term but i’ll just say we’re not mature enough to make this last longer. For all these months, i was genuinely happy as you can see I appreciated every moment with u because all the time we spent tgt I was happy. Remember one rainy night, that was our first time riding motorcycle under the rain i hugged you tight from behind “ it was one of the best feelin ever. I wish i can have this moment with you once last time but i guess my wish will never come true. Anyway thank you for the hoodie you gave with your scent on it promise i’ll keep it here forever ( it was my first time wore boyfriend hoodie as well ) I wish I could just learn how to unloved and deleted u out of my head the simplest manner. U’re my favorite person, but maybe favorite don't really mean to be last forever? I wish I could talk to you again the same way we did before, because I freakin damn miss you. Every single thing about you right now already causing me pain that I keep seeing you in my dreams, ur words, ur face and i still can feel ur touches. How could I move on? I wish I was once crossed ur mind and you miss me just as much as i did too. Im sorry it was my mistake and i just wanna let you know that Im happy that at least we made it here. Thank you for all the wonderful memories lover❤️ I love you so much.
If I’m honest, I’d say it hurts me too. It’s like something is stuck inside my chest that I don’t even know how to get it out. It hurts even worse when I ended it and you didn’t even bother to ask for explanation as if you were waiting for me to leave all along.
I want to apologize for my mistake. I was wrong my dear that I asked for a break up. I was short-tempered and didn't think wisely. As for now I miss you so bad, think about you every night. I miss your face that I used to see. I miss your hair I used to touch. I miss our memories that we'd done together. I miss this feeling when I have someone by my side. someone who truly love me. I feel so guilty and lonely. It's ashamed to ask for a second chance. I wish you all the best of luck and maybe meet someone who could treat you better. Im sorry :((
Perhaps power is letting go of the grips of the past and standing empty handed in the future. It all come down to the last person i think of at night. That’s my heart is. The people that are quick to walk away are the one who never intended to stay. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that given us. And then we decided to distance between us define our love. And once my bestfri said “my standard is not to ask anyone to stay , If they want to leave , let them . Even we broken but im still support u behind ur back if u success one day. Maybe in the future we cross each other path and grow a little more so we can be tgt again , im hopefully. Anyway im more me now like im matured. I love myself more than before. I can say im better. I know my value. Im stronger. I did everything for myself and for u. So friendly reminder: Dont give all your love to only one person because u should love urself first before others , if u won’t, u will hurt in the end.
Dope I am a kind of person that would build the walls instead of the bridge because I used to experience some trauma events in the past. [newLine*] [newLine*] They used to call me “ sensitive, dramatic, self victimized, stupid, etc.” And here I am, being a cold hearted person ever in my life. I don’t like the version of today’s me yet, I am still glad that it kinda makes me stronger and be more careful around my surroundings. Running away from my own feelings is one of my coping mechanisms since it is the best way to do so when it comes to expressing emotions. I wanted to open up and have the healthiest relationship with others but the dark inner part of me is still keep telling me that they will judge me in every possible way that they could also the people that I expect then to be will be leave me eventually anyway so instead of being my real self, I just show them what they wanted to see from me.[newLine*] [newLine*] Losing the ones that I love is also a tragic cause for my mental health too. My mom passed away since I was 6 years old and I hadn’t had the mother-daughter moments yet and it really broke my heart ‘til nowadays. So instead of crying, I usually hide my true emotions and keep moving forward when I was still not healed from what broke me in the past. I used to held grudges, always get jealous when they got what I wanted, they have the best relationship with their families, they have a strong self confidence and many more. Very toxic person I could possibly find. [newLine*] [newLine*] But here I am, after all what I have been through both mentally and physically. A cold hearted b*tch also I am still keep finding out who I really am and what is my purpose of life. I still feel guilty when I hurt the ones that love me so, but nothing is permanent anyway so I’ll live the best of my life instead of pleasing other people. [newLine*] [newLine*]From, thyka. ♡︎