hey there, life has been so much going on right now. The life itself is going downhill to the hell or maybe I misinterpret that. I have been feeling lonely and unimportant after some hardships, breakup, lots of work, study and many more when they all come to my face at the same time. Probably I am stressed out or burnout that makes me feel like that way. Nevertheless, I feel like I am such a useless person, where everyone starts to blame me for everything even the little mistakes I made. I feel so little and just wanna go away from it. Saying those words make me such a self pity person. As day by day, i feel myself just like a smaller and smaller person and feel like s**t somehow. People say you gotta love yourself and have fun all by yourself, but when it comes to everything not going well as expected and everyone starts blaming me for little things, I just…. any advices?
i saw admin's post #AdminKJ001, i kinda agree but during this time, no matter how good u did, u still get ur heart broken. somehow, i still believe in love bcuz of the way i love. yet, im better off alone bcuz love in this generation sucks. prolly, no one deserved my feelings and love anymore.
I'm mad about the waste that happens when people who love each other can't even bring themselves to talk.
“Are u gonna miss me, when im gone?” YES, DEFINITELY. U tried to come back for many times, but I rejected u b’cuz of the all the guilt. I regret everything but I don’t want to go back. I really wish things to go back as before, but I don’t want u back. This may Sound like I’m complicating my feelings, but one thing I know for sure is I still love u, I can’t move on but I don’t want to go back. Sometimes when I miss u, I want to reach out to u so bad but I don’t want u to see how miserable I am atm. U also knew that and always trying to reach out to me ask me if u need any help when I’m on my own and I really appreciate that. One question I wanted to ask u rn, do u sympathize me or are u still here waiting for me as u promised me after we broke up?
Hey you ! Am I your brother or your toy? Sometime you make me feel like I am good as your brother, but sometime you mess it up like I am special to you. Hit me if you wanna cross the line before I consider accepting someone else !
Thanks for letting me to be part of your life even if my role is too short for the chapter you've been through. Still, I'm glad that somehow I made you happy in the things I did. Be strong always, don't let your guard down. It’s okay to be sad after making the right decision.
ការបែកគ្នាដំបូងខ្ញុំគិតថា ខ្ញុំជាអ្នកធ្វេីឲ្យគេឈឺ ដោយសារតែខ្ញុំអ្នកសុំគេបែក តែការសុំបែកនោះ គ្រាន់តែជាអារម្មណ៍ខឹងមួយឆាវ ដោយសារតែយេីងឈ្លោះគ្នា ហេីយពេលនោះក៏ចង់សាកចិត្តថាតេីគេនិងឃាត់យេីងទេ ប៉ុន្តែអ្វីដែលទទួលបានគឺពាក្យថាokay និងពាក្យសម្ដីប៉ុន្មានឃ្លាតដែលធ្វេីឲ្យយេីងគិតថា យេីងជាអ្នកធ្វេីបាបគេ ទាំងដែលគេគ្មានឃាត់យេីងបន្ដិច នេះឬដែលគេប្រាប់ថាគេស្រលាញ់ខ្ញុំខ្លាំង? ទាំងដែលព្រមឲ្យទៅឡេីងងាយស្រួល គ្មានសួរហេតុផលសូម្បីបន្ដិច។ បន្ទាប់ពីថ្ងៃបែកគ្នា មួយខែជាងពេញដែលខ្ញុំគេងយំនឹកគេ ស្ដាយក្រោយដែលសុំគេបែក បន្ទោសខ្លួនឯង និងអាណិតគេដែលទុកគេចោលគិតថាមិនដឹងគេខូចចិត្តប៉ុណ្ណាទេ ប៉ុន្ដែអ្វីដែលនឹកស្មានមិនដល់ គឺគេមានអ្នកថ្មីបាត់ទៅហេីយ ទាំងដែលបែកពីយេីងមិនទាន់បានប៉ុណ្ណាផង ។ ហេីយទាំងដែលយេីង គេងយំសឹងតែរាល់យប់ ព្រោះស្រលាញ់គេខ្លាំង ព្រោះនៅបារម្ភពីគេ។ មិនខឹងព្រោះគេមានថ្មី ប៉ុន្ដែខឹងដែលគេធ្វេីខ្លួនជាជនរងគ្រោះ ដែលធ្វេីឲ្យខ្ញុំគេងគិតរាល់យប់ យំរាល់យំដោយគិត អាណិតពីគេ ដែលតាមពិតទៅគេកំពុងសប្បាយឆាត និយាយជាមួយអ្នកថ្មី ហេីយអ្វីដែលខឹងទៀតនោះគឺនៅនឹកឃេីញកំឡុងពេលមានយេីង គេលួចទាក់ទងជាមួយអ្នកផ្សេង ហេីយនៅពេលអស់ចិត្តពីយេីងក៏មិនប្រាប់ ទាំងដែលយេីងធ្លាប់និយាយប្រាប់ថា បេីទៅថ្ងៃមុខ ឃេីញអ្នកណាល្អ ឬមានចិត្តលេីអ្នកផ្សេងយកគេទៅ ហេីយសូមប្រាប់ឲ្យត្រង់មក ខ្ញុំនិងយល់ព្រោះអារម្មណ៍ស្រលាញ់គឺមិនអាចហាមឃាត់បានទេ។ ខ្លាចបំផុតគឺការកុហក ការបោកប្រាស់ ប៉ុន្ដែគេធ្វេីវាយ៉ាងបានល្អ។ ប៉ុន្ដែបែកគ្នារាងយូរដែលហេីយ ទោះដឹងគេមិនល្អ គេកុហកបោកប្រាស់យេីងយ៉ាងណា ក៏មិនអាច move on បានឆាប់ ហេីយនៅតែគិត និងលួចនឹកគេ។ជាចុងក្រោយ ឥឡូវខ្ញុំក៏មិនគុំកួនខឹងទៀតដែល ហេីយសង្ឃឹមថាអ្នកនិងមានក្ដីសុខជាមួយអ្នកថ្មី។ ហេីយខ្ញុំក៏សង្ឃឹមទៀតថាបេីសិនថ្ងៃណាមួយ ទោះបីខ្ញុំឮគេនិយាយពីឈ្មោះអ្នកក៏ខ្ញុំនិងលែងមានអារម្មណ៍អ្វីទៀតដែល។ #neath
We’ve known each other for quite some times now. It’s no surprise to say we’re more than friends. We share secrets that we once promised ourselves to never disclose it ever, we rode to places together, we’ve gone to see the movies together, we hugged each other when we slept together (nothing sexual lmao just sleep), and there are tons of things that we have done together which to me are memorable. But I slowly came to realize that I am not that important to you as I thought I am. I’ve been striving for this alone while you were free riding this whole time. I tried to hold you tight while you didn’t even try. I shared my happiness/sadness with you while you laugh/cry alone. I’ve been fooled all these times. I was never an important person to you. I’m merely a friend. So why should I keep trying?
My parents’ marriage was a train wreck. They were unsuited to one another, married for the wrong reasons, and stayed married for the wrong reasons. It did us kids a world of damage from which we will never completely recover. It also taught us some important lessons, largely about what NOT to do! I loose my belief in relationships. They taught me everything about what a marriage shouldn't be like. my parents fight all the time, and they never hide from me. As long as I can remember, they fight about everything, when one of them know he/her is wrong but didn’t care to admit it and the only best thing they have as a couple is that neither of them never cheat on each other or even alcoholic. When I need to take major life decisions, it always gets confusing because of how both of them have different views of things. And they don't communicate so I find myself stuck. As a mother, my mother is a good one. And my dad is a good dad too. But together they are far from the ideal couple. Have you ever heard of “គូកម្ម” ?