Dear Admin! Yes, I'm talking to you. I am not sure if you know me, but we know each other for a while, and I used to have a crush on you; and yet it's impossible. At that time, we are completely different, far from each other, we didn't talk much, but I noticed you every time. You were hardworking, full of commitment, and you are pretty. Your smile bright my day, your eyes sparkle like the stars, you are so good. And I could feel that you also had the same feeling about me. However, this relationship cannot happen because I have a girlfriend and I know it's wrong to have this kind of feeling, but it's temporary, and now I can get myself together, and stop thinking about it. No matter what, I hope to see your smile every day, hear your voice every day, look into your bright eyes every morning. It makes me feel so happy. I hope we see each other again soon, not as lovers, but as 2 aquaintances who has the same feeling to each other.
So how do you describe your current lover who still screenshot their ex's recent photos? what if the feelings are still there or was it just my stupid imagination? lmao, isn't it funny they keep on telling you they love you, but still do things like this? i mean do you really love me or just for fun or just to forget your ex who has a better body, face than me?
Throw back to yr 1, I think I had the most beautiful moment crushing on someone. She's my first love, I'm just not lucky enough to make her mine. Plus I crushed on her knowing she got a boyfriend. We became close, probably because of our personalities match and had alot of things in common. I think she is a type I always ask for. We got the same age, but she is so much more mature. She cared and noticed every little thing about me. She always make me feel special. Sometimes, we hold hands in the mall and during class. She used to called me her soulmate. We are lovebird in our class. I kept rejecting, saying no when our classmates talked about us as a couple.(inside, smiling and wishing it was true) xD I really miss me being with her. I miss reading book, paying attention in class, finishing my homework, learning new things, improving my grammar, caring my own health, going to gym, eating healthy food, being kind to other, fullfiling my commitment, keep things under control, keeping my promise, calming down my anger, being a reasonable person, being okay to say sorry. I miss being a better person, just to catch her attention. I miss trying to be a person that come in package. Being an understanding, a sweet, responsible, respectful and a romantic boyfriend, that she always wanted. I remembered days, the first thing I do when I got school is looking for her white scoopy and pink helmet. Everytime I saw her motor at the parking lot, I was so happy going to class, knowing I'm going to see her in any minute soon. Till today, with a little pain in my heart, such a warming one, I still can say I'm glad not telling her about my feeling toward her. We are now still friend, kinda close as before. I got a girlfriend, and sometimes I run to her when I fight with my girlfriend. She's still the same, being an understanding one, giving advice and comfort with care. I'm glad, staying in her life in a position that I able to hear everything about her, everything she wanna talk and going through. I'm glad being a shoulder she can cry on, playing her hair, stabbing her head gently anytime I want to. I am now graduated 3yr already. If I can keep it this long time, I really wish this can be forever. I think I am now being selfish. The thought of losing her is really scary. PS: I am gay.
you disappeared. months passed, kept checking up your account, viewed your stories, trying to move on, tried filling the void that was missing, tried focusing on myself, but in the end, only your text can make me felt those happiness i’ve been looking for. thought you missed me, thought you was waiting for me, thought you still missed those times with me, decided to text you again. all those thoughts dropped. it was only my thoughts all along. met many girls, none caught my attention. but you, i sometimes wonder why. “no matter how far we will be, you will always have a spot in my heart. you will always be welcomed here.” let’s meet again in the right time, or maybe next life. i’ll wait.
Hi Manil, I know you won’t be able to see this message anyway but I kinda have a little crush on you and I’m still insecure about my look also my personality. You kinda deserved a sunshine types more than the grumpy ones like me. :)
Is my hint not clear enough or you are just not into me? Are we talking or you just replying my text? Are we gonna talk again if I don’t start the conversation? Do I ever cross your mind?
I can say that i’m a girl who comes from one of the most honorable family. i have everything but love...? All i want is a man who loves me as who i am and not take me for granted, not take me for advantage especially not loving me for my money? All the boys that came into my life only saw my status, they thought it was cool to have me as an ex. And for those who have a crush on me, always say “ you’re like a moon and i’m just a rabbit” why cant you see me as a normal person? We’re all equal? I just want a love that lasts, i just want a good man to stick by my side through thick and thin, forget about the status and wealth. I’ve always been unlucky in love and friendship. I just want a pure bond, i never see myself above everyone, and i’m willing to take down my wealth if it’s a wall that part us.
I'm sorry I couldn't properly say good bye to you nor celebrate ur birthday with u as I planned, but hey, I'm glad you've found someone who makes you feel happier, who treats you better and someone that you can be yourself around her. I'm so happy for you! Now that you've found ur one, I shouldn't be worried anymore. And it’s time for me to disappear from ur life. Please take care of urself na and I know she'll take better care of u! Lastly, thank you for all the beautiful memory we shared. Your love for me may disappeared but our memories won’t and at least we met… Be happy and last long my dear D.V! Love you as always, From a clumsy girl you once loved.
Just because I'm okay now doesn't mean that the feeling I lost will come back.