DearMyFavperson
Long distance relationship between us can’t go any longer. Isn’t our fault but we decided to end up this relationship. I am okay, I hope you find a person who understand and love you the most .❤️
Throw back to yr 1, I think I had the most beautiful moment crushing on someone. She's my first love, I'm just not lucky enough to make her mine. Plus I crushed on her knowing she got a boyfriend. We became close, probably because of our personalities match and had alot of things in common. I think she is a type I always ask for. We got the same age, but she is so much more mature. She cared and noticed every little thing about me. She always make me feel special. Sometimes, we hold hands in the mall and during class. She used to called me her soulmate. We are lovebird in our class. I kept rejecting, saying no when our classmates talked about us as a couple.(inside, smiling and wishing it was true) xD I really miss me being with her. I miss reading book, paying attention in class, finishing my homework, learning new things, improving my grammar, caring my own health, going to gym, eating healthy food, being kind to other, fullfiling my commitment, keep things under control, keeping my promise, calming down my anger, being a reasonable person, being okay to say sorry. I miss being a better person, just to catch her attention. I miss trying to be a person that come in package. Being an understanding, a sweet, responsible, respectful and a romantic boyfriend, that she always wanted. I remembered days, the first thing I do when I got school is looking for her white scoopy and pink helmet. Everytime I saw her motor at the parking lot, I was so happy going to class, knowing I'm going to see her in any minute soon. Till today, with a little pain in my heart, such a warming one, I still can say I'm glad not telling her about my feeling toward her. We are now still friend, kinda close as before. I got a girlfriend, and sometimes I run to her when I fight with my girlfriend. She's still the same, being an understanding one, giving advice and comfort with care. I'm glad, staying in her life in a position that I able to hear everything about her, everything she wanna talk and going through. I'm glad being a shoulder she can cry on, playing her hair, stabbing her head gently anytime I want to. I am now graduated 3yr already. If I can keep it this long time, I really wish this can be forever. I think I am now being selfish. The thought of losing her is really scary. PS: I am gay.
Long distance relationship between us can’t go any longer. Isn’t our fault but we decided to end up this relationship. I am okay, I hope you find a person who understand and love you the most .❤️
It sounds stupid of me but I still want to share it. First of all, i dint know that he had a gf, and I dint mean to like him as well. But he always tried to be close to me. I didn’t know when I started to like him. From day to day, I liked him more and more. One day I got to know that he already had a gf. Yeahh!!! I was shocked when I first heard. Yet, I couldn’t stop this feeling even I know it’s a Kama to love s.one else’s bf. You know, he acted like my bf. Always called me even he had nothing to say, made a video call to show me what he was doing, teased me, helped me with a little thing and etc…He even showed me of his younger pictures and his family members. At that time, I felt like I was in a relationship. I knew that it was impossible to go further but you know I just went with the flow even I knew it would hurt me but I still wanted it. I admit that I was selfish cuz sometimes I also wanted him and his gf break up and I always thought he would choose me over his gf. Unfortunately, he disappeared without noticed. Since then, we had no longer contacted to each other for almost two years now. Since we hadn’t followed each other on social media, so now I don’t know anything about him. If this message is happened on his new feed, I hope he would notice it. And I want to confess my feeling for him right now that I still have feeling for you but I don’t expect anything from you. I just want to show my feeling. That’s all from me. And lastly, I just wonder did u have any feeling for me a little bit?
When things got too caught up, I disappeared, I shut down that just how I am, that’s how I cope with stress. So sorry, I think this time I shut down too long didn’t I? I didn’t talk for months instead of hours. Actually, during those months I hope that u would comfort me but u never once message me during those months and all these thoughts that were all up in my head like “you don’t love me anymore” start to come up and it’s true. When I finally open up again, when I feel better and talk again You already decided to abandon me. It’s hurtful but it’s understandable so I respect your decision. Hope that’s the best decision you’ve ever made. Hope you are happy. Some people are blessings, some are lessons so Thank you for the lesson. 🥰
I’m clingy, moody, insecure, have trust issues, self doubt, and lots of mental breakdown, which people categorize me as “toxic”. I’m trying to change. I really do, because I’m not feeling fine and happy with all those toxic traits too. I stay up every night questioning my own worth and existing. I don’t know why am I like this. And I thought, you would stay. I thought, you were different. I thought, you would wait for me to heal. Eventually, it was all my thought. Don’t take this wrong. I’m not blaming you. I was just hoping you stayed. I hope it was you who would have been there for me, but you have never been there with me on my bad days, not even once. I’m too much to be handled. I always know.[newLine*]Let’s be honest with me one last time, what is your feeling for me the last few months we talked? Did your feeling fade away? Was it not strong? From the start? Or from when I started to show you my true self? My dark side? [newLine*] I miss you, a lot. However, I know being with me is too tiring for people, I love you so much that I don’t want you to suffer with someone like me. I hope you’re with someone better, healthier, happier. Someone who loves life, someone who will match your energy, someone who is normal.
Regret? I'd say no. Because deep down I know you chose the right path. Pain? I'd say no. Because when I see how happy you are without my standing beside you, 'who am I to say "It's hurt." if you're happy?'--I ask. Miss? I'd say no. Because it would make no sense that someone, who hurt you, approaches you and say "I miss you". Love? Oh lord, No. It doesn't make any sense to love something you shattered, right? The only question to which I'd say yes is: "Is this the last time we talk to each other?" I'm not in a position to regret, miss, love, or even complain about the pain I've been going through. But at least I'm happy. I'm happy to know that I can no longer hurt you, and you're happy--even if someone else is the reason for that happiness.
I know we both had a hard time. I am sorry for everything that I had done. Wish I could turn back time to the good old days. Wish everything could turn back to day we laugh together at stupid things. I know you might not be to move on now. It broke me into pieces knowing that you've been crying because of me. The more I think of how much you've been hurting, the more I hated myself. I will always love you. I hope one day, I'm not sure when but I hope it's soon, we will be back to where we were. Continue where we paused and start all over again with stronger deeper connection. And I see ....
If someone acts like they don't wanna talk to you and stop reaching out to you, it just simply means they want nothing to do with you anymore, right? It's just that clear and obvious, I don't even know what else I need in order to acknowledge it. At this point, I don't even wanna try to catch up or stay in touch because it's way too late. I just find it weird how we suddenly become strangers even though we didn't argue or anything. It's just that I have never been in this situation before. I used to think it would be better to end all contacts with you because I got my feelings mixed up. "Why do I feel upset and jealous if I don't even like you that way? Maybe friends get jealous too if they feel like they're being replaced?" Those kind of stuffs. Now that we don't contact each other, I no longer know what's going on between you and that person so I don't have to feel that type of upset anymore. But, I start to feel upset at how you're so fine with our situation while I'm not. I'm confused and I don't even know how I want the situation to unfold.
One Tip I have learnt and I wanna share: Before you let someone into your life, ask them this question “ Do you love yourself enough?” Because only the people who love themselves, can give love.❤️🙂 If they couldn’t love themselves, all they can do it depends on your love to have their happiness and they couldn’t give you the love you deserve, and if you couldn’t satisfy them, they will cheat by finding other to full fill their need ❤️🖋 Hope everyone find a significant other and treat you right, don settle for less❤️🌟