Does he feel the same way that I do ? It’s alright. At least, we met.

In my entire life, I’ve never experienced having a huge crush on someone but ever since I met him, I feel like his whole existence taught me the taste of first love because I’ve never been in a relationship once before ( isn’t it odd or an embarrassment, I don’t know but it’s true ) He is the man like the real man who is wholly a gentleman, kind, well-educated and respectful to everyone especially women which I fall for him even more. But the thing is I myself am not confident enough to talk to him like this is just me who is very shy and having the fear being judged from him hahaha since I’m so insecure and the thought of “everything will never work out for you” is always there in my head. And I, too, feel like he’s also feeling the same way as well ( no clue whether or not it’s real hahaha ) because I caught him glancing at me very often ( oops I forgot to mention that we’ve been studying in the same class ). Whenever I say something or respond to the class, he paid well attention to me and his eyes were soft making me feel like he wanted to hear me speaking more. He said that I’m so cute in a low tone and even wrote somewhere on a note but I heard and saw it. And when we got close at some points, he gently smiled like a gentleman he is and also laughed at my sudden jokes. He usually imitated what I did and that was so lovable of him. But does he really feel the same way that I do ? I hate myself for not being confident enough to go and talk to him like everyone does. Whatever the reason is, I’m just wishing the best for him because one day he will meet someone who is better than me and I know we two are not meant for each other. At least, we met.

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Block

Why you keep block and unblock me? What did I do wrong? Or what did you do wrong? What you feel? What you think? Are you trying to show you have move on? So you unblock. Then the guilt build up because you know you have hurt me, broke our bond for no valid reason? You can’t face me because you know what you did? You keep showing that person off, you keep saying you felt heart to heart not just appearance. You keep saying they accept you for who you are but all that person do is remain silent. Seem like their love have change you or you are trying to change yourself for them? Does anything remind you of us? But you can’t make yourself turn around, you keep putting up with your ego. So you’re going to keep fooling yourself that they are better? That you are better with them? and just going to block again? Or this person is the one you truly been looking for? And what we had was nothing? Even after all this time I did nothing, keep praying all the best for you, never intrude you with all the new people you try to build with, stand and watch my seat being displaced, the person I love switching to someone else. Is the present of me that irritating that you have to keep cutting me off?

Lover or stranger

"We care , We call, We Meet and holding hand each other" but still not enough to clarity that I am your lover to other people and you either. Sometime more like lover Sometime more like stranger. It's so damn hurt me