The tough days I went through by myself, the darkness nights I cried without anyone knowing, the unexplainable thoughts I unable to solve, the overthinking idiot and the mentally tiring soul, I don’t freaking know how long I can deal with it anymore. I wish I could give myself the loves and comfort the way I always have for others. I wish I could put myself as my first priority AT LEAST FOR ONCE, but the freaking soft me can never do that. I wish I could speak my mind and express how I feel inside but the thought of people will leave me is frightening me. Sometimes all I need is comfort, but how can I expect people to comfort me when I can’t even do it to myself? I wish I could control the emotion I have against myself, but nahhh the stupid me don’t know how to do that. Maybe I’m the problematic one…
I'm scared because if no one makes me feel the way you did. but I'll be ok for a few days but then it hits me, I stop functioning and everything falls apart again. What hurts is that we never really said goodbye. We just kind of ended. And I'm afraid I'll miss you forever. But then again, you didn't say goodbye, and a part of me believes that means you're coming back.
No one talks about how hard it is to get your life back on track after a depressive episode, I planned on ending my own life which is why I slowly stop putting effort in my study, relationships and work…now that I’ve seek help and gotten better, I have to deal with the consequences of my actions.
"You deserve to be treated like the way you treated me. I'm sorry I can't treat you like that."
Dear Santa Last last last…..years you grant someone wish, and we get to be together. I ain’t want you to grant me to s.o else. I have had enough watching that person walks away, fall with s.o new. If you can hear my wish, please let us collide once again.
We have just ended our relationship a week ago and it seems like you are so fine about us breaking up while I have always thought about you and everything about us. It is so disappointing that I have been stuck there. Is it because you do not want to show it or breaking up have always been on you mind!? I just don’t get it.
I find it funny considering that I always understood your needs but you never tried to understand mine. How does asking about something I wanted to know make me toxic? your words hurt me so much to the point I feel numbed already. Everyday I just feel like this piece of puzzle you just used to complete your needs. If you love according to your mood, then don’t. I deserve better.
Isn't it really hard to find and choose a right person? I find it so difficult to being in a healthy relationship. Going from one to another, make it look like i had lots of partner and សាវា so i choose to stay single. Treating myself love, care and attention which no one can give me. I find peace♡
''I got my hopes up.'' He whispered. ''About what?'' She asked. ''About you actually loving me back." ''I tried to show you I loved you and you wouldn’t let me which is fine.'' ''But you know the worst feeling is when you find out you didn't mean as much to someone as you thought you did and you look so stupid for caring too much." "I'm sorry.'' She said.