Jealous

Sleep forever

I know it not really good to hearing those words. For me , yeah I am really tired of benign a live. I wish that I will sleep forever and never wake up. Only sleep that can help me stay aways from my nightmares, stress , tóxic , depress , sad , cry and more that I usually felt every night. At age 22 , the more I grow the more I scare . I really wish that I could sleep forever and never wake up. I am really tired of everything, study , family, love , friendship, future and everything around me . I really tired . I know it too hard but why I don’t be strong and don’t give up ? I try tooo . I really try to ne strong and don’t give up . But I still can’t survive at all . People thought that I am unless. I am usefulness . I couldn’t do anything better like other. I am really tired of hiding my broken pieces. And I tired of getting hurt again and again . I really wish that I could sleep forever and never wake up.

Dear #C

We've been broke up for 2 years but idk why i always miss you even though i was with someboday Else. I was hugging and kissing her but all my mind was thinking about you and I still imagined it's was u. I know u still have a feeling for me but i really can't move on from what u did to me. I choose to ignore u for ur good and it's really hurt that i'm ignoring a girl that i love the most. I just want to tell u that you're the girl i love the most. I want congrat u for ur dream become true even without me. I always love you ❤️

2025-08-14

As if what I've ever done never enough for anyone

It's 12 a.m., I'm staring at the lamp right above my bed, trying to think of a reason why i never receive back the same effort i put on anyone. I've been in a relationship many times, and never in one of these have i ever feel like I'm receiving love from my significant other. I'm either abandoned, ghosted, or being taking for granted. There are lots of things in my chest that i just want to scream it all out right now, but i couldn't. I really wish my current relationship would last, but it seems like I'm being ignore more and more from one day to another. I'm really tired, I just don't understand why you treated me this way after I've give you everything I can. To my gf, I really hope you're not the "good boy ain't fun" type of girl, because I'm almost fed up right now. So done that one day i would walk away and never wish to ever see you again. Please, be good to me. I deserved to love too.

please

it hurts im still fighting for every chance left even though i know you’d end up still pushing me away. every time i’d try and hold conversations, knowing both of us still love each other, it always ended with you saying “how are u going to move on? i want u to move on, find someone better.” Can’t you see that all I’ve ever wanted was you? I don’t want to find anyone better than you but you’re making it so damn hard, love.

is it really a "karma" or "love" in this generation sucks

i saw admin's post #AdminKJ001, i kinda agree but during this time, no matter how good u did, u still get ur heart broken. somehow, i still believe in love bcuz of the way i love. yet, im better off alone bcuz love in this generation sucks. prolly, no one deserved my feelings and love anymore.

Will we be something?

I have a crush on my senior, idk when was it that I start have that feeling. I like him a lot but I always hide my emotions sooo well, uhhmm I’m not quite sure tho abt this😂. I think we start to get pretty close lately that he share about his plan with me without telling anyone else and of course I’m always the supporter, he even help me with my health issue he tryna find the solution for me and he even helping me out a lot, like guiding me to his uni since I want to study there too. He encouraged me with so many things. But I’m still not sure if we both have a mutual feeling… I never expected much since he always a kind person he might have done the same things to everyone.

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