We got back together last month and m trying my best to confront my feelings for him because he didn’t like my cold hearted behavior and now yeh I feel like m the one who try harder (completely changed myself) and been waiting for his late response messages while himself hanging out with his friends and completely ignoring me and very funny right?
I feel that every single day and I hate it. I hate myself for having that feeling when I'm supposed to feel so grateful for whatever I have right now. People around me are all so successful and smart and everything and I look like a clown by existing everyday. I freaking hate it.
Ex, I changed myself alot about personality. And im glad and proud that i did it success even i can’t move on from u. I wanna ask u 3 questions: 1. I have everything especially my personality isn’t like before, ik im still me but i just changed my toxic personality so what else im still missing? 2. Do u have a true woman to love u yet? 3. And do u change urself some of mistakes? Cuz u also have alot of mistakes too. Did u change anything?
After all you have done to me, and you say សុខចិត្តលះបង់ខ្ញុំអោយជួបមនុស្សល្អ? Remember the way you still keep in touch with your ex (up until now) that hurts me so bad? No matter how many times I tell you to have limit (by understanding the reasons, I agree to accept the relationship), you keep ignore my frustration, and say I don’t have trust on you. Until the day I ask to break-up, you only asked that whether I think clearly about the decision? You didn’t try to keep me, and I was not your choice. You trying to get back with me a FEW TIMES without any changes. I gave you chances to make it up and wanted to know what have you done to get back the relationship, but you have done nothing. The last one was, you came back and decided to agree with my conditions, after 2 days you said you couldn’t do it and ended it. After one and half month, you came back again. Am I just a thing to you? Where is my value? How do you so confident that I still give you a chance? Why are you so selfish? And after I raised up the question that why should I give up other good people for the one who has broke me a lot of time and never give value to me? You said បើគេល្អយកគេចុះ សុខចិត្តលះបង់ខ្ញុំអោយមនុស្សល្អ lets me tell you, that’s not call លះបង់. For sure, I haven’t move on completely, but I also need to keep my value, and self-esteem. I gave too much value to you, now it is time that I value myself. Lets the Karma do the work. #ks
ខ្ញុំមានរឿងក្នុងចិត្តមួយមកនិយាយខ្ញុំមានអារម្មណ៍ខុស បន្ទាប់ពីខ្ញុំបានធ្វើទង្វើអាក្រក់ដាក់អ្នកជាច្រើនប៉នែ្តមិនមែនខ្ញុំមិនស្រលាញ់អ្នកទេខ្ញុំស្រលាញ់អ្នកស្ទើរលេបទៅហើយប៉ុន្តែដោយសារតែខ្ញុំខ្លាចបាត់បង់អ្នកទើបខ្ញុំធ្វើបែបនេះព្រោះពេលនោះខ្ញុំមិនទាន់ស្គាល់អ្វីទៅដែលហៅថាការស្រលាញ់ខ្ញុំដឹងត្រឹមថាការស្រលាញ់គឺការប្រច័ន្ឌហួងហែងគ្នាទើបហៅថាក្ដីស្រលាញ់ប៉ន្តែបន្ទាប់ពីខ្ញុំបាត់បង់អ្នកទើបខ្ញុំដឹងថាការប្រច័ន្ឌហួងហែងគ្មានបានអ្វីក្រៅពីរឿងឈ្លោះប្រកែកគ្នានោះទេការដែរស្រលាញ់ពិតគឺជាការទុកចិត្តគ្នាទៅវិញទៅមកការដែរដឹងសុខទុក្ខគ្នាទៅវិញទៅមកការដែរយល់ពីគ្នា... ខ្ញុំទើបតែយល់ថានេះហើយគឺជាការផ្ដល់សេចក្ដីស្រលាញ់ឲ្យគ្នាពេញលេញ។ ខ្ញុំគ្រាន់តែមកសុំទោសនៅរាល់កំហុសដែលខ្ញុំបានធ្វើខុសដាក់អ្នក😊។ បន្ទាប់ពីពួកយើងបែកគ្នាហើយខ្ញុំនៅតែមានអ្នកក្នុងបេះដូងខ្ញុំជាប់ជានិច្ចនៅតែគិតនៅតែខ្វល់ខ្វាយប៉ន្តែមិនអីទេប្រហែលអ្នកបានជួបអ្នកថ្មីនោះគេល្អជាងខ្ញុំហើយ😊។ បន្ទាប់ពីខ្ញុំឃើញអ្នកនិងសង្សារថ្មីអ្នកសប្បាយខ្ញុំក៏មានអារម្មណ៍ថាសប្បាយដែរប៉ុន្ដែបើថ្ងៃណាមួយគេធ្វើបាបត្រូវចាំថាខ្ញុំនៅទីនេះនៅចាំលើកទឹកចិត្តអ្នកជានិច្ច។
When I am tired, I always think of you. But who am I really referring too? And why would i do that? I want someone to be with me, but i haven’t met that someone yet. S.o who was a great partner together, we broke up 2 years ago because of different views. We work really hard for the goal we want. In 2020, when I struggle the most where i was at the lowest part, I met another someone. S.o who show me care, and gave me hope and made me smile . Until 2021, when our path are separated again. Same reason was about goal and future. We’ve been working hard, aiming for goal, but haven’t taken good care of ourselves in the present time. My perspective on love hold me back to allow carefully who i want to be with. I am closed minded and pushing people away. But deeply inside, I hope I meet a person who would share the thought and work toward the future we want to built together. As we grow up, we grow to see more thing, and more careful in life. I hope to be carefree and believe in love again! You said love was a destiny. I agree. But maybe we should interfere in our destiny a bit too. Shall we wait until we meet again and keep wasting time? How can love happen? How do you know you love a person? How can 2 people live together ? What should we keep in mind when we are in love? For love and future full of uncertainty, I cannot promise forever. Maybe we can play it safe by making time pleasant together, and not stress too much about commitment to love. Take it one step at a time, and if we break up, don’t break yourself!
he left at a time where i was still deeply in love with him. he silently left me without a word. he left without explaining. all my texts were unanswered and all my calls were never picked up. gosh, it hurts to be ignored. its been 3 long months and i’m still attached to him. no words could describe the damaged my heart felt. i felt betrayed i would’ve never treated him like that. i couldn’t wrap my head around why he left me the way he did. some nights, i would cry because i missed him so much. i can still see his smile , still hear his voice, still feel his warmth and still remember his words… i’m gonna wait and pray that maybe one day he’ll return back to me. i still have hope because i still love him.
To you my priority, since the day you left, I’m certain that I’m not the same person as I used to be. I’m sure that my feeling right now isn’t okay and it hurts me the most. I wanted to let you know that, you’re the only one who made me know what love is, you’re the only one who made me feel warm and secure while I was with you, you’re the only one that my love for you is still the same since our first day until now, you’re the only one whom I have any plans for the future. All of the sacrifices, efforts, and times that I put in, I didn’t expect anything in return, other than your love and dedication. I did everything just to make you feel that you’re the only one that got all of those things from me, not everyone else. I did everything just to make you feel happy, warm, and comfortable. I’ve never stopped daydreaming about how I’m going to build my life, buy my first house, first car with you, and marry you one day. You know what? I see you every two weeks, and when I return home I feel as if I've lost something that no one or nothing can replace. I had the feeling that I was leaving something behind that would never come back. I miss you, I'm upset, I didn’t want to return home, and I want to spend the rest of my life with you. You’re the only one, when I’m having fun and all I could think of is what if you were right here with me? I’d go on trips and while living in the moment, I allowed my imaginations to get ahead of me and I was able to picture you beside me and I got that feeling of “how nice would it be for you to be here with me”. To me, you’re perfect. To me, you’re beautiful as always in my eyes. I’m grateful you came into my life, I’m grateful for everything you’ve done for me. My love for you hasn't changed, and no one can take your place in my heart, my mind, and my brain. And I’m so sorry for what I’ve done to you. Sorry that I can’t keep you by my side. I’m still hoping everyday that you will come back to me again. You’re special to me. I’m so proud to have you in my life. I want to spend the rest of my life with you. Your photo is still in my wallet, and your picture is still on my lock screen wallpaper. I wrote these letters with a song that I used to sing for you, When you’re home - Tyler Shaw. It’s 3AM now and I’m still thinking about you. I hope you will come back to me! #NL
Why I said it is green flag but actually it is a red flag? Yes, we both can see it is as green flag when we both call every night and it’s kinda understanding and sweet at first three months. The day I started talking to you, the chemistry feels so right, and a clicking. My brain started to pumping a serotonin and dopamine. But, I may click the wrong tap, not that you treated me wrong, yet you love me more than yourself. It’s real attachment and attention that you don’t want to untie. It’s red flag because you don’t love yourself enough. You love me too much that you upon your whole happiness on me. You get jealous easily. You wish me to be your shooting star all the time. Yes, I’m not perfect, I made mistake that I ignore you sometime and want my space a lots. You are overthinking what if chat to other guy? While I’m not. It’s unfair that we are happy together, but you are hiding those sad moment in your life alone. I love you and I want to know what’s going on too. It’s so hard for us to leave each other while we both still love each other. I hope this break up taught you to love yourself enough to discover the sun within yourself and shine in kaleidoscope ways, so you don’t need others’ dimly light to guide you. As, you finally can firmly stand on the ground and feel happy again. I’m always grateful that you were part of my life. Thank you for your pure love and understanding. Hope we meet again when you are able to love yourself more. I still love you, and wait for you.