A secret untold

My mom married this guy since I was like 8. We've been living together like a family but I'm not close to my mom neither do her husband. I don't call that guy dad either. They had two kids together, my younger siblings and I have a family bond, we're close to each other. But started when I'm grown up, this guy somehow touched me jokingly. Sometimes this guy would laugh and touch my toes, hands, and there's one time he pointed my boob. That makes me very uncomfortable and I couldn't point him out since he acted like it was unintentional. One time he showed me my picture (I stand and bend my back, it was a picture took from a trip) and said laughing, look at your picture it looks like... He didn't finish his sentence but you should know very well what he means. Normal people wouldn't look at one's picture and think about that unless they have lewd thought with them. I think he secretly watched me showering at night too by some hole on the bathroom's wall (they intended to make another bathroom but til now they didn't do it yet) I was too slow to notice. Every time I'm in the shower he would disappear too, and every time he heard me entering the bathroom he would go outside the house even if it's 12am and cameback right in time when I'm done. About my mom, I think she suspects this too. But instead of holding her husband accountable. She confronted me instead, I was so upset. Imagine your own mother is jealous of you and her husband and she's too scared to lose that guy and started confronting you. She really makes me lose faith in mother-daughter's bond. I know we're not close but this is too much. She questioned me everytime like I was a prisoner but never says a word to her husband. I'm starting to hate her now. Fuck. I hate this so much. I've never said a word about this to anyone because I think I can hold in. But it started getting heavy now.

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I don't like my boyfriend.

Thanks for letting me getting this out as this is something I can't normally share with my friends. I have been together with my boyfriend for almost 3 years. He's someone I can share everything with and someone I'm comfortable to be with. We are on the same page in term of life goals and other stuff. I have no eyes for anyone else or think about having choices because my life already suffered me enough and I love him. I long for someone who share the same passion and energy as I do and someone I can RELY on. My boyfriend is great but there are certain times that I feel like if something were to happen in the future, I'll be the one who has to take control. Those certain times and little things make me doubt if I can stay with him because I don't want to be unsatisfied after I'm married, right? I don't want to leave him but personality traits aren't something I can change. It's started to build up inside me and it affects my action towards him too. I feel like shit. ដូចគ្រប់គ្នាតែងនិយាយថាការហើយអត់សប្បាយចិត្តព្រោះប្តីឬប្រពន្ធពឹងពាក់មិនបាន. I don't want that. At first, you love each other unconditionally and as times goes by, you realize that there many things to look for. Love doesn't solve the problem.

Love at first sight

អ្នកផឹកឡើងក្អូត អោយគេជូនទៅផ្ទះ? ចេញមុខមកភ្លាម I went to have a drink with group of guys (workmates), so did he, with his buddies too. Our table was around few steps each… His small eyes with thick glasses with his សំពោង hair really catches my eyes. I can help to join his table and asked his name yet I didn’t have confidence to share my social contact. After few bottoms up, I came back to my table. He keep raised his glass and cheer with me from other side. Finally my table was over, my workmates left the shop-I wasn’t ready to say goodbye then I joined his table. He kept asking me លើកដាច់ រួចគាត់ក៏ក្អួត ហើយយើងគិតលុយ។ ខ្ញុំផ្ញើរម៉ូតូទុកនៅហាង រួចជិះម៉ូតូជូនគាត់ទៅផ្ទះ។ តាមផ្លូវ គាត់ប្រាប់ខ្ញុំថា គាត់មានសង្សារហើយ។ សូមអរគុណ សូមជម្រាបលា។

Stupid…

Why does girl don’t love someone who love her, but she love someone who hurt her? I wonder why this happened to me? I am always unlucky with love, always always love one side. I try to much to stop my feelings that falling in him but it doesn’t work. I haven’t confess to him yet but I already give up twice because it seems like he will never interested in me. What should I do? Should I move on and find someone or confess to him? I can’t do everything these days , I stuck with this 😭😭 Please help me….!

Umm

So my boyfriend said following each other on social media (we only have each other fb) is stalking, telling each other what we’re doing, where we are and who we’re with is controlling, and posting each other is not a good thing. Asked him why he won’t tell me his other social beside fb does he have sth that he’s hiding from me? He said thinking like that is really childish?? These are red flags right?

Never be the same

Thought I’ve moved on. Thought u have nomo potential over me.Thought I’ve alr got u out of this place of mine which is called “heart”. But lookin back at it, I still found myself search for you everywhere I go, skimming through all the photo of u I saved,

Online Crush

I crush on someone who I met in online app. At first he add friend to me. In

Toxic

My mental health is breaking down so is my mind. The cheerful me have gone and I wish I could have someone who stay by my side and tell me “Everything will be fine.” :)

The never coming date we planned

Remember when we used to say we will meet? Remember when you said you were so eager to meet me? Remember how we were happily discussed about this so call date and plan it all out perfectly? Remember how you and I both had our hands on our first date gift for each other? I still had those photos of our gifts which we had sent to one another. But now, where was it? Where had it gone to? Where are you? Just how cruel are you leaving me all alone in this world before we could ever meet. Just…why? Why did you have to leave so soon? It’s been 1 year and a half since you’re gone from this world. May your beautiful soul be at ease. You are the most beautiful human I ever meet.