To love of my life

sorry for asking you for take a break from you for awhile , but doesn't i stop loving you or i stop care about . I want to text you daily asking how was your day ? did you eat ? we both missunderstanding sometime , sorry for telling you that i'm tired , I do tired how to make thing right for you and it make myself feel so dump everytime we fight about that . i knew the world is so hard for you and i want to be your safe place enough that you can take a rest with me I hope you understand about that i gave you everything sorry for take care of me i'm love you still . I'm glad see you smile from a far . I MISS US

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2025-08-14

Hatred

What would you do if you found out you're just an alternative or a shadow to his ex? Do you feel hurt? Angry? Hatred? Because I do. It was not wrong to not love somebody. What's wrong is how you keep telling me how much you love me, then keep going back to your ex. What's wrong is how you told me to forget the past and start it all again, then betray me and do all those things again the next day. What's wrong is how you told me to put my heart into trusting you, but you're using my trust against me. You kept saying you love me, but that's not love. There's no way you can love me when you still keep everything from your past. There's no way you can love me when you can fall in love with another girl within a week. There's no way you can love me when you regret being with me and hope you have chosen her instead. The funny thing is, people hurt me, but I'm now the bad guy. I hope all those people who did me wrong, who invalidate my feeling, who blame me for reacting the way I did, will all get their karma very soon. I have all this rage in me because I'm the one that has been suffering. To the people that said that it was normal and I was the one that overreacting, I hope you will be treated like this for the rest of your life. I was never someone who hold a grudge and be so revengeful, anyone who knows me knows how I always forgive people, but not this time. I choose to heal in hell.

2025-08-14

I thought I can love you enough to change you

I fought for you and I waited… I thought I could fix you. I chose you, again and again…. but you chose to be an immature man who refuse to communicate and be responsible for your own life. There is no commitment now. Be free. I will move on and love like I’ve never been hurt. I deserve better and I will grow to be a better person. You can go live and sort yourself out. Because this time, I choose to fight for my own happiness. The next man deserves the best of me, not what you put me through.

2025-08-14

Never Be Fooled By A Smile

I lost my friend several months ago. she was someone I talked to every day and even asked for advice. and we met when we’re studying in Australia. It still feels unreal every time I see her photos with a smiley face, I still have difficulty believing she’d do it. how can a girl who is always smiling dealing with mental illness and nobody knows about it. There were no warning signs. she is a person I wished I could be more like (not jealousy, I’m just admire her). Happy, creative, smart, perfect family status, beautiful smiles. Always upbeat and looking out for others. She texted me a day earlier before it happened. I should’ve talked to her that day a little more…why didn’t I. The way it happened was shocking. I still wonder if I could have helped her that day. It's almost like it never happened because it just doesn't seem real, it was so unexpected. As I'm typing this its just actually hitting me again that she is really gone. but looking back, yeah, there were some signs because I accidentally saw her searching about medicine but she said it was just research projects. the guilt in my guts is overwhelming. I also noticed that she was extremely exhausted and kinda isolated herself from anyone earlier that month but I was pretty naive on top of that. It really bothers me now, because she was obviously giving some signs but I was too stupid to realize what was going on. I LOVE YOU, S P.S If someone is popping up in your mind while reading this please don’t ignore them and checking on them every chance you get as the last chance you will ever have may have been yesterday. Be there when you can. Even if its just checking up on someone. If you care about someone, let them know. If someone reaches out to you, even a little... be there for them. You never know when they are in their final moment of desperation. Not everyone will have the same signs. Some won’t have any at all. If you suspect something at all... just let them know you care and that if they ever need to talk, that you are there for them. That they are never a burden, not to you. Even if they never open up to you, just hearing that can make a world of difference. And if you are struggling yourself, please open up to someone. Anyone. Even if its someone you don't know that well. There is nothing wrong if you’re going to met therapist.
2025-08-14

Missed Connection

You found me when I had already been found. We were 9,118km or at least 28hr of flight apart, but you still asked me “What’s the name of my city?” so you could save it to your World Clock. Your city was mine too a few years ago, and you sometimes forgot that. You opened up yourself to me with an expiration date. For 3 days, getting to you know lifted me up. The 4 days following that, I hit rock bottom as I was searching for the closure that you never left me with. I wished you “Have a good life!” like I was ready to give you up. I lied, and Chungking Express lied. How can people say that missed connections don’t hurt so long when it’s been more than 7 months and I still miss you?
2025-08-14

Untitled

Is my hint not clear enough or you are just not into me? Are we talking or you just replying my text? Are we gonna talk again if I don’t start the conversation? Do I ever cross your mind?

2025-08-14

Hey Mr. Panda! I feel so hard 🥺

I've told myself to move on and give up on you. I've tried my best to forget you, to ignore you and to not talking to you. 🥺🥺🥺 BUT - Can you tell me why I can't take my eyes off from you? - Why I can't let you go? - Why my heart is hurting all the time that I miss you? - Why you don't care about me even a bit? - Why why and why? All the questions keep appearing in my mind every late night that I can't sleep. I am about to feel depressed with this stupid one-side lover. I am about to lose my happy signature because of you. I sometimes ask myself that why do you become this importance to me until I almost lose myself. The answer is loving someone without reasons called as real LOVE that's why I can't find any solution to solve this matter. Anyway, now I feel so hard, I wish you can comfort me and going on with me 🥺
2025-08-14

Healing

Although my ex-boyfriend cheated on me , I’ve learned to move on without having anyone new. Deep down inside, this process is literally miserable since he’s the only one on my mind. After 2 months of breakup, I can say i don’t utterly heal from this heartbreak , but my inner wound has been gradually healing day by day to the point where I finally say I’m better off without him . To all the heart-broken girls out there, don’t pressure yourself. Moving on is not easy as some people say , but one day, pain that you have tried to handle will be finally withdrawn. Embrace yourself as much as possible. Self-love is a must.

2025-08-14

Wish I could uncrush u

Dear crush, ik ure in love with somebody who ain’t me, yet I hope u’ll never be lonely like u always told me n realize this world as a beautiful place. I hope she’ll take good care of u n I wish u live in this love life ever after. My happiness is seeing u happy. Love u my dearest crush:) #m