What were we?

I couldn’t call it an end because we have never begun anything. We were friends, but both of us have crossed the line. He told me that he had feelings for me, that he wanted to be with me, but he wouldn’t be committed to me. Later on I asked him what were we, he ignored my question and changed the topic. I guess that’s where my insecure became worse. He always had time for everything except me. For his movies, games, football, friends... He always forgot things that he said he will do with me. From small daily things to dates. Whenever I was feeling down, he ignored me. I kept being insecure and mad over everything, and finally he fell out of love. I guess it was my fault. For being broken and unable to love properly. I didn’t know if I am to blame or the environment I’m in is. However, he was different. He was enthusiastic about everything in life. Maybe, we weren’t just meant to be. We were too different. From background to personality. Now, I think he’s seeing someone new. Honestly, I felt miserable. I questioned myself if I was that easy to forget and replace? Did everything between us mean nothing for him? Was he just lonely and that’s not love for him? Whatever it is, I wish him all the best. I hope he’s happy with her. That’s the last thing I can do for him, giving him the peace he’s always wanted. I learned my lesson here. There’s no way someone will be ready for you if they weren’t from the start. Don’t wait for them. When they aren’t sure about you, and won’t commit, leave. Turn away and run and never coming back.

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I didn’t break u and her, but I found out herself.

#KJ0456 It is really hard to let go of you oun. I know that you are facing a mental problems and yeah we broke up months ago due to my ex breaking both of us up...I just want you to know that I won't be giving up on you and hoping one day you shall return to me. Please don't believe nor falling for those horrible things she said. Remembering those hard time we've been together....It really hits me most of the time because of all those struggling time I've been facing there will always be you whom is consulting me and even calm me down. I Hope You Are Coming Back Soon. I promised you that one day we will be holding each other hands in front of our parents. Moonlight ;)) Well, I will answer that, She found out herself and I didn’t mean to break yours, she wanted to break up with you. So just leave her alone. And remember what you’ve done to me on those days🙂 should I tell her again #s_Thara

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