I want him back

fri: heyy! He left, why u still waiting for him Me: coz you only need the light when it’s burning low_ only miss the sun when it start to snow_ only u love him when u let him go. I really miss him so bad and I’m still here waiting u. គេទៅបាត់ទើបស្តាយក្រោយ😢😭 #2016 #English School #Province

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Farewell..

Hey it's been almost two months since we broke up, I still remembered you left me on 4th Sep with a short meaningless message "I want to be alone" without any explaination without a closure you just left me there in the dark wondering what did i do wrong but now that you seems happier i guess i was the problem. I wonder what went wrong i wonder if we give up too early or if i held on for too long? I never thought goodbye would be so hard. I'm writing this because i'm going to let go of us of you..life been awfully hard on me these days. My family my work nothing really works out for me i miss venting out to you about my problems yes i miss you i still do but its not that i want us back i'm glad that you are doing well on your own. it's sad because what i felt for you was really special and now i have to let go of everything as much as i hate giving up but i have to this time because i can't keep torturing myself like that, I stayed up all night crying i woke up in the morning crying i barely even touch food i didn't even go out and meet my friend all i did was getting drunk every nights so i can fall asleep,i keep doing things that i don't enjoy doing like active on the social media adding story publicly so you could see you know me better than anyone i aint the type to do that i ususally really private about my life it's getting tiring..this getting too long i'm gonna make it short..Take care T, you're a good person thanks you for the time we spent together, the calls the texts the late night conversations. i hope that you're happy with the way your life is right now i wish only the best for you ..Goodbye.

BACII

A few days more till bacII and I’m here to wish you all the best bcs we don’t talk anymore… Don’t over-stressed and don’t overthinking! Goodluck for the upcoming exam!!! I believe that u can do it. No matter what grade you get, I will always be proud of you. If you need helps, pls rmb that I’ll always be right by your side so don’t hesitate to text me. My inbox is 24/7 opened for you. <3

Unforgettable

Well, we started off at a good term but i’ll just say we’re not mature enough to make this last longer. For all these months, i was genuinely happy as you can see I appreciated every moment with u because all the time we spent tgt I was happy. Remember one rainy night, that was our first time riding motorcycle under the rain i hugged you tight from behind “ it was one of the best feelin ever. I wish i can have this moment with you once last time but i guess my wish will never come true. Anyway thank you for the hoodie you gave with your scent on it promise i’ll keep it here forever ( it was my first time wore boyfriend hoodie as well ) I wish I could just learn how to unloved and deleted u out of my head the simplest manner. U’re my favorite person, but maybe favorite don't really mean to be last forever? I wish I could talk to you again the same way we did before, because I freakin damn miss you. Every single thing about you right now already causing me pain that I keep seeing you in my dreams, ur words, ur face and i still can feel ur touches. How could I move on? I wish I was once crossed ur mind and you miss me just as much as i did too. Im sorry it was my mistake and i just wanna let you know that Im happy that at least we made it here. Thank you for all the wonderful memories lover❤️ I love you so much.

To the Ex, who say សុខចិត្តលះបង់

After all you have done to me, and you say សុខចិត្តលះបង់ខ្ញុំអោយជួបមនុស្សល្អ? Remember the way you still keep in touch with your ex (up until now) that hurts me so bad? No matter how many times I tell you to have limit (by understanding the reasons, I agree to accept the relationship), you keep ignore my frustration, and say I don’t have trust on you. Until the day I ask to break-up, you only asked that whether I think clearly about the decision? You didn’t try to keep me, and I was not your choice. You trying to get back with me a FEW TIMES without any changes. I gave you chances to make it up and wanted to know what have you done to get back the relationship, but you have done nothing. The last one was, you came back and decided to agree with my conditions, after 2 days you said you couldn’t do it and ended it. After one and half month, you came back again. Am I just a thing to you? Where is my value? How do you so confident that I still give you a chance? Why are you so selfish? And after I raised up the question that why should I give up other good people for the one who has broke me a lot of time and never give value to me? You said បើគេល្អយកគេចុះ សុខចិត្តលះបង់ខ្ញុំអោយមនុស្សល្អ lets me tell you, that’s not call លះបង់. For sure, I haven’t move on completely, but I also need to keep my value, and self-esteem. I gave too much value to you, now it is time that I value myself. Lets the Karma do the work. #ks

I’m afraid to be selfish

My significant other deserves the world. They were there when I was at my lowest and had nothing. I’ve always put them first, pour everything from my heart and be the selfless person that I am. I can feel that we mean a lot to each other, but sadly when I am speaking of this, I can only continue with past tense. The passion for me has already long faded, only traces remain of it’s former glory, whereas theirs still shine so brightly. An age old saying goes that if it no longer brings you joy, then let it go. In my case, I am not holding onto a rose with thorns, but simply a flower I no longer wish to hold. So it’s okay, for I have already picked up this flower, it is my duty to continue to hold and protect it, for I am afraid to be selfish, and let this flower go.

Sunflower

This sunflower is wilting… so love you, for me. Take care of your heart and soul. Some couples just don’t work out and… that’s okay… I guess…. as long as your life works out fine. At the end of the day, you are still a part of me. Thank you for showing up back then… I enjoyed my time with you… hope you did too. If ever our path crosses again, I want to know that you’re succeeding in life. I want to hear about your dream come true. My darling, you are not cursed nor broken. You are just bent as you were adapting to life circumstances. You are perfect the way you are so let nobody tell you otherwise. Love you, for me.

If I told you my feelings, would you feel the same?

My story is similar to your chapter 20. I have a friend and we both are girls. We kinda keep our lives low-key so no one really knows what’s going on in our lives (personal problems and stuff) except that we told each other our stories. It all began when my life had fallen in the darkness where I pushed everyone away and I didn’t even talk to anyone but not until she was there for me. She gave me the kind of feelings that I’d never had before. Not once in my life had felt like that with anyone although I have many friends. She told me that she would look at her phone for 24hours just to waiting for me to reply her texts. But then things started to falling apart. We would just stop talking for no reason. Instead of talking to each other, we just assumed if the other one was okay or not. It’s really toxic I know even we tried to talk about it, it was still getting worse. I kept wondering “is she okay?” “what if she tries to do something bad?”. I would stalk all her social media accounts and then I noticed her bio. So if we wanted to say something during the time that we ignored each other, we would change our bio. After months and months, I realised that I actually got attached to her. I needed her validation. Unlike anyone else, she made me feel so special. But the thing is I don’t understand this feeling. I wasn’t sure if she would feel the same way. I thought it’s just impossible cause we’re best friends and I didn’t wanna ruin this great friendship that I have ever had in my entire life. The connection was just different from others. The connection wouldn’t last so long. I still feel the same but I don’t know about hers. We’re like strangers with many unforgettable memories now. However, thanks to her for being a huge part of my life. Thank you.

Waiting…

We broke up and you found someone new. It was a dark time for the two of us. I got my problem and you got yours. Yes, we start spending less time together because life keep throwing us lemon and make everything sour between us. Deep down in my heart, I still love you, I still miss everyplaces we went together, drink, eat … The parking spot that i park my car and we shared about problems… I missed all of that. Now that you left, I try to avoid all the places that we been to together… every time i when there, in my head, I saw shadows of your and flashbacks of you every details your orders, your favorite drinks… it hurt me.