To the Girl Name Samphors

I know it's been a while since we have broken up but every night I still thought of you and how you have treated me....I don't really know the real reason behind the breakup but I really want you to know that I always have your picture in my wallet as a lucky charm and also I miss you so much. if there's a right time in this life I hope we can meet again

Feeling bottled up?

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2025-08-14

Upset

I’m a type of person that value friendship more than relationship , I rather not date anyone just so I have more time to hang out with my close friend. We share stuff no one ever know about us , enjoy each other’s company without saying a word to each other , inside jokes , hangout non stop…But then things change , third party comes in , she is still my friend but someone else has become her closest friend. They share conversations day and night , calling non stop , playing with each other all the time . I feel like I’m left out but who am i to be jealous of that , you guys seem to be enjoying each other company so much , why would i ruin that because of my feeling , I’m just upset that I can’t provide you that feeling , but it is what it is . I don’t know if you know that I’m upset with that but since I’m not good at opening up to you anymore, I hope the best for you guys even if we become stranger one day…
2025-08-14

Green flag but actually it’s red flag

Why I said it is green flag but actually it is a red flag? Yes, we both can see it is as green flag when we both call every night and it’s kinda understanding and sweet at first three months. The day I started talking to you, the chemistry feels so right, and a clicking. My brain started to pumping a serotonin and dopamine. But, I may click the wrong tap, not that you treated me wrong, yet you love me more than yourself. It’s real attachment and attention that you don’t want to untie. It’s red flag because you don’t love yourself enough. You love me too much that you upon your whole happiness on me. You get jealous easily. You wish me to be your shooting star all the time. Yes, I’m not perfect, I made mistake that I ignore you sometime and want my space a lots. You are overthinking what if chat to other guy? While I’m not. It’s unfair that we are happy together, but you are hiding those sad moment in your life alone. I love you and I want to know what’s going on too. It’s so hard for us to leave each other while we both still love each other. I hope this break up taught you to love yourself enough to discover the sun within yourself and shine in kaleidoscope ways, so you don’t need others’ dimly light to guide you. As, you finally can firmly stand on the ground and feel happy again. I’m always grateful that you were part of my life. Thank you for your pure love and understanding. Hope we meet again when you are able to love yourself more. I still love you, and wait for you.

2025-08-14

#URMYPGB

Idk where to start so, 2018 the new term start and i got to meet her. She changed into my class with her friends. Her group and mine are two different world from eachother. Actually ik her even before she got to know me. We started studying in the same class, and extra classes. I really like her and i really wanna get to know her more. One day i reply her Instagram story and we got to talk. Later on, she replied my story, and here the our conversation started. We've been texting in Instagram for like about a year. We sometimes flex to messenger. I always asked her to send me lesson as an excuse to talk to her. At that time, those conversations were just normal but i was damn happy because i like her so... Her group and mine are still not boning together idk why but prolly idk lol. We were such a good talker in chat but in person lol awkward affff So 2020, COVID. We were still texting intelegram, messenger and Instagram. She always sent me her fav songs, what she watched on YouTube, forward me food or place or meme content from Facebook to messenger, and also send me video and meme, sth cute on Instagram. I did the same too. Ik you prolly can't feel the feeling from reading this but ... Sorry I'm not so good at expressing So here let me continue Idk but tbh covid got us both close to eachother. We talked everyday, she texted me just to tell it time for extra classes, or else send me food. She sometimes went out and when she's back, she always told me about her day tho i don't ask. Tbh i confused. I myself i know i like her, i mean i have feelings for her but what about her? She did like we're sth. Idk how to explain it all here but later on when 2020 about to end, we don't talk anymore, she just went silent on me and i have no clue what to do till now. My friends all know i like her, they also said they bet her group also know about this but no one dares to say. One of my friends said, I'm too obvious whenever it comes to her, she prolly knows but pretend like she doesn't. Hmm but it doesn't matter anymore. Right now i only wish she and i can still be friends. The thing is i only got to see her like 3 to 4 times in this 2021. And the last 2 times, she didn't even talk to me or even look at me. Heartaches lol. I was there like...? You didn't see me? Or what? She has changed... I mean she's not that excited to see me like before. Before whenever she saw me she always comes to me amd hit me as a greeting hut now lol, even my face she didn't even look at. You might wonder what happened between us. Seriously i have no answer cuz I don't even know what's wrong, she just gone silent and ... You won't see this anyway so imma just write it here

2025-08-14

"Our Beloved Summer" vs. Our Story

I never relate to anything as much as this drama. It's literally the story of us except they could meet again after 5 years while we couldn't even after more than 5 years.Ung's character is pretty much similar to yours and he reminds me so much of you. It pains me to see him suffered from the breakup and how it changed his life as I realize you had suffered this much too after I coldly left you. Watching Ung feels as if I'm watching you and it hits me hard. I wonder if you're doing better now; and whether or not you still overthink and having trouble sleeping.I wonder if you hate me as much that you could have thrown salt and sprayed water at me if we met. Even if our path will never be crossed again, I'll still be happy for your happiness. I hope you never doubt yourself again, just live well and be happy.
2025-08-14

What if

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2025-08-14

Depressed

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2025-08-14

What is this feeling

Can anyone tell me what is this feeling It been a long time since they broke the bond. We try to understand them and wish them all the best. However, seeing them with someone new, doing all the things that we should do together some how hurt. It like trauma, it hit right there in the heart, it got you tremble, feeling lost, all the hope we try to hold on are gone, almost down on the knee. I swear there is no hatred, there is no evil though to break them apart. It just feel like can’t stand seeing it, can’t accept it, bare to see it but Why it is someone else in that place? How could? Did we really do sth wrong? Were we never good enough for them? How could they just switch to do all the things with someone else while our heart still beat for them? Why do they treat us this way while our intention is only love and to be with them?

2025-08-14

You ruined me

Why did you leave me like that? How could you start over with her? Do you ever feel de ja vu? Do you feel the guilt? Why did you treat me this way? It wasn’t in our promise. What we had plan why did you do it with someone else? Why do you have to ruin me this way? Idk anything. Idk why you did this to me. But one thing I am sure of is my love for you have never been less than hers.