Can we be more than friend?

I have this friend and well, one day we're friend and another day he's being so sweet and all. He tells me about the other girls he met or girls that he's into. Being a good friend, I'm always there listening and giving him advices so that other girls will like him. When little did he knows that it hurts me like hell because I have feelings for him. We have almost nothing in common as far as I know but we are cool with each other. Or maybe we are only cool with being friends but why does he keeps taking care of me and making me flatter with butterflys in my stomach. I want to tell him how i feels but if things dont go well I also dont want to lose him as a friend. We chat abit before this and he's so supportive and nice and tell me to tell him if something is going on but I just cant bring myself to say anything. Staying up late and overthinking this things is killing me and I feel like I'm about to explode.

Feeling bottled up?

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