You are worthy
I saw your post. Should you commit suicide? you failed as a son and boyfriend . Not just him anyone that felt like that. First I want to say you are lovable you have your own worth that's not everyone can see it . Person who values you will see you worth . However I know we want the affection especially from our closeness like family I was also the same . When I begin to stop ask for that instead love myself, value myself , in the end we only have ourself . I want to tell you that live on for your dream or travel to any place that you never before . If you don't have dream you will discover one . Secondly Learn to forgive who blamed you for your existence when you start learning forgiveness and want nth back . You will start to heal yourself . Remember you have your own value . Fight for yourself love yourself more . You never reward yourself then do it . Give yourself a rest . Thirdly, we are not perfect . We have our own imperfections . Learn from the past ,the mistakes, the trauma ,the misery. And forgive yourself accept those thing, learn it and improve yourself . For anyone who hurts you . You have two choices either keep distancing or be normal you still be yourself doing good deed just be yourself even you realise they never be in good term with you( they might take time to realise it ) But still it is better to distance yourself from them and give yourself growth. I think everyone know commit suicide is not solutions but sometimes we can't fight anymore we are tired emotionally , spiritually, physically . That's why you need to rest . You should forgive them and maybe distance yourself after you start to focus on yourself to heal . Love yourself 🤗. Afterall you only have yourself in the end . You was born alone you will die alone your sadness carry is alone . If you have no friends to share your story with . Write it down to book all the feeling,anger ,happy how is your day ? Planning things ahead . Maybe you should try to learn new things like arts, music discover yourself. One more thing read book or feed your brain with any knowledge if you are into any major feed yourself with it to build yourself . When you are busy with yourself you will eventually not care about other anymore . All your attention shift on yourself . Last but not least again .keep moving forward . You are so awesome human being . Please take care of yourself more and love yourself୧(＾ 〰 ＾)୨. From me Viramoon. sorry for my grammer . I'm still working on it.