Why mom?

Why mom? Why do you have to make me feel this way? What have I ever done so wrong? You know, it is very hurtful and very tormenting when you, my mother, care so little of me. Why is it that when my younger brother got a minor cold, you would rush me to buy him medicine, to take care of him, and so on, but when I got tested positive of covid-19 because I have to go to work, you didn't even seem to care about it as a matter a fact, you didn't even want to buy me covid med, you told me I don't need covid med and just take normal coughing med, you thought paracetamol is enough? Just why do I have to feel all this unfairness? Should I just do you and everyone a favor and just take as much paracetamol as I can and just die? Would that have been better for everyone?

Feeling bottled up?

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Time to rest

I have been keeping many problems inside of me, not because I have no one,but there are many people who take care on me, always check up. The point I just want them live their happiness and I don't trust many people to speak out. People thought I'm fine I'm so strong, but I can't stop my tear when my soul mate hit the point. I tried to say "Oh I'm good, I'm fine". Sometimes, I disappear on social media also I stop connecting with friends, close people. Sorry for doing this, I need time to rest. Healing... Disconnected- may the happiness to my people.

My precious Doggos

When I was younger, I had three dogs: two males: Jia and Zong and one female: Lin. Anyways, Jia always acted dominantly, and for years he would regularly beat up Zong to prove his dominance and superiority. Zong finally attacked Jia one day. His entire chest was torn up he barely survived surgery. A week later, his kidneys failed and he died. My dad was going to put him down, but he ended up giving him away instead. I never saw him again. I helped bury Jia, and while he was laying in a blanket as we dug Lin came and sat by his body. Two weeks later I woke to find her dead in her dog house, she had no visible signs of injury and had been healthy. She was buried by morning. It might not compare to other people's stories, "they're only dogs anyways", but it was really hard losing all three of my childhood dogs, friends I'd known my entire life, within a few weeks. I haven't cried ever since I buried Lin.

Confusion

After texting with you for so often, I realize that I have a good feeling toward you. I always get exited chatting with you, getting the butterflies in my stomach whenever you compliment me. But things go wrong when you give me an confused feelings, sometimes you make me feel like you want to chat with me and sometimes you don’t. Sometimes you make me feel like you have feeling for me too, yet you make me feel like you don’t wanna give me hope. The jokes you said, make me feel happy, hopeful and confused. Am I the one who get it wrong or you are the one who make me confused?

More than friend but friend

We knew each other since 2017. We both living in separate way but we know each other well. But in 2021 we talk a lot more than unusual. We about about our day our person we like then until we both feeling something to each other. I don’t think I should confess her.

Main Character

To my most favorite person, I don’t know where you are at right now. I promptly admit that I miss you so much especially your dry sense of humor, you being Dokey-talkative to me. Our big and small fights, LOL. I wish you were here with me. To tell me everything is fine, everything will be better. I badly need your love and comfort because I’ve been so tired of what I’ve been going through lately. I know I have no rights to tell you to stay, but seeing you disappear this time hurt me deeply. I thought I would be okay this time since we already said our goodbye and also had a proper closure even though we ended up in bad term again. In this situation, you probably hate me that much, think of me as a ‘never wrong and always right person’.it’s fine for me. I know I’m at worst. I want to do the same thing as well. Sadly, I can’t make myself hating someone who I’m so in love with. That’s not me! Despite your lies, you being closed-book to me, I’m still enchanted to meet you. I don’t feel any regret falling for you, I really mean it. You are the main character in my story. Your name has in every chapter of my book since May 2020 til now. Imma always feel appreciated and grateful because I found someone who showed me the real definition of ‘Action speaks louder than Word’. You are Jjang! You know what? I can pretend to be happy and laugh at others joke. I can go on other dates and meet new people as you wished me to, but at the end of the day, they aren’t you. We will always be unfinished business and it will always be you although I used to tell you not to cross the path again. Yet, deep inside of me keep hoping that at least we have one beautiful story which I never give up praying for. One small moment together as you knew that I expect less when it comes to you, right? ...

5Year

៥ឆ្នាំដែលស្គាល់អូន ៥ឆ្នាំដេលបងឈឺចាប់ 5ឆ្នាំដែលបងហត់នឿយ ៥ឆ្នាំដេលបងលះបង់ 5ឆ្នាំដេលបងពិបាក ៥ឆ្នាំដេលបងបានបាត់បងអ្វីៗគ្រប់យ៉ាង ៥ឆ្នាំនៃសុបិន្តអាក្រក់ តែ5ឆ្នាំនេះ បងនៅតែស្រលាញ់អូន

Stupid…

Why does girl don’t love someone who love her, but she love someone who hurt her? I wonder why this happened to me? I am always unlucky with love, always always love one side. I try to much to stop my feelings that falling in him but it doesn’t work. I haven’t confess to him yet but I already give up twice because it seems like he will never interested in me. What should I do? Should I move on and find someone or confess to him? I can’t do everything these days , I stuck with this 😭😭 Please help me….!

Am I being too emotional?

Mak I’m sorry for my existence.I know I’m stupid ,useless ,and selfish. she always said that i only know how to dress up but never being helpful in the family. Everyday I study, I help her with the business , I drive around like crazy when she need helps. After school I look after all the kids inside the family, I help my aunt pick her kid up from school, I drive them to playground, I barely got time for myself. I always help her when I got time but at this point she still said that I’m useless ,do nothing but being lazy, know nothing stupid as always. I never even do make up , and she said I only know how to dress up.she used to ask me what grade I got I said I got A, maybe a week later she said that if you don’t want to study anymore just quit school alr without any reason. Bro my heart dropped,my mind stop I got no word to reply. All I can do is cried myself to sleep.