Is it wrong?
We both broke up because there a third person in the relationship… now we’re seeing each other behind the third person back… i know it bad, but i don’t feel bad… is it wrong?
Write tang sunday title : me and her, the never ending circle.
We both broke up because there a third person in the relationship… now we’re seeing each other behind the third person back… i know it bad, but i don’t feel bad… is it wrong?
I've told myself to move on and give up on you. I've tried my best to forget you, to ignore you and to not talking to you. 🥺🥺🥺 BUT - Can you tell me why I can't take my eyes off from you? - Why I can't let you go? - Why my heart is hurting all the time that I miss you? - Why you don't care about me even a bit? - Why why and why? All the questions keep appearing in my mind every late night that I can't sleep. I am about to feel depressed with this stupid one-side lover. I am about to lose my happy signature because of you. I sometimes ask myself that why do you become this importance to me until I almost lose myself. The answer is loving someone without reasons called as real LOVE that's why I can't find any solution to solve this matter. Anyway, now I feel so hard, I wish you can comfort me and going on with me 🥺
Dear beautiful souls Breakups are hard, we all been there but you’ve got to ask yourself how many times can the same person break you. How many times can the same person let you down, there must come a time when you come to your senses. A moment when you realize your worth. Ask yourself these questions. is it worth being unloved. Is it worth being misunderstood. You knew that you deserve much more than that but you're letting this pain go on over and over again, and it keeps cycling. you cry, you heal, you make-up to break-up with no end. Ask yourself when is it enough, and if you can’t answer it, then it’s time. You must re-evaluate everything, take time on yourself , set standards for yourself and you were born to live, to love and to learn and never have to go through endless cycle.
It's been a while since our last conversation, at first I've gone through many hardships and confusion, wondering what was the real reason. After some time have passed I've come to the realization stage where I realized many things. I realized what is the thing that makes you upset, the words I could say, and the actions that I could do to make things better. I understand why you always want me to change. I'm so happy to see that you're doing well with your life journey right now. I wish that one day you can open up for me once again and I'll make sure that you meet a better version of me. I don't want you to build me for another person.
I almost contacted you again, but everytime I almost did, I remembered how we're nth to each other. Everytime I almost did, I scrolled through our chats and I saw how pathetic I was. Almost begging for your love. Everytime I almost did, I remembered how you would let me go back home alone. How you had time for everyone else but never for me. How you forgot everything you said. How you told me you would do this and that for me but you never did. Every little things you said you would do. It's the details that matters and show me how much you love me. Turned out I couldn't feel the love at all. I remembered how hopeless and broken I felt to see you never want to give me the title, to never want to commit into the relationship, to never think of us. It was the last straw that broke me. Broke us. They said loving someone too much will make them stop appreciating you, I guess that's true. I gave up my pride for you for so many times. Let's keep this last one for myself. Take care.
This feeling....... Sometimes I always try my best to make everyone happy but when I'm down, I couldn't find anyone. I'm not always happy as you see my smile on my face, but I always remind myself to calm down and deal with the problems one by one. But when the problems come together, I don't know what the solutions to those problems are. I start to feel stressed out and blame myself. I also start to feel useless. Sitting alone and crying in a silent place are the best solutions that can release my stress. And, I know that if I share all those difficulties in my mind with others, I will feel more relived. However, I could not find anyone to listen to my story, and feel me and support me. And, Sometimes when I tell those problems to others or s.o, they just feel that I'm being so dramatic, but actually, I just want someone to listen to my problem and that's enough for me.
After texting with you for so often, I realize that I have a good feeling toward you. I always get exited chatting with you, getting the butterflies in my stomach whenever you compliment me. But things go wrong when you give me an confused feelings, sometimes you make me feel like you want to chat with me and sometimes you don’t. Sometimes you make me feel like you have feeling for me too, yet you make me feel like you don’t wanna give me hope. The jokes you said, make me feel happy, hopeful and confused. Am I the one who get it wrong or you are the one who make me confused?
I know it not really good to hearing those words. For me , yeah I am really tired of benign a live. I wish that I will sleep forever and never wake up. Only sleep that can help me stay aways from my nightmares, stress , tóxic , depress , sad , cry and more that I usually felt every night. At age 22 , the more I grow the more I scare . I really wish that I could sleep forever and never wake up. I am really tired of everything, study , family, love , friendship, future and everything around me . I really tired . I know it too hard but why I don’t be strong and don’t give up ? I try tooo . I really try to ne strong and don’t give up . But I still can’t survive at all . People thought that I am unless. I am usefulness . I couldn’t do anything better like other. I am really tired of hiding my broken pieces. And I tired of getting hurt again and again . I really wish that I could sleep forever and never wake up.