Indecisive

Who would you choose between the one you love and the one who loves you?

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Crush on someone you can't fall in love

Dear Admin! Yes, I'm talking to you. I am not sure if you know me, but we know each other for a while, and I used to have a crush on you; and yet it's impossible. At that time, we are completely different, far from each other, we didn't talk much, but I noticed you every time. You were hardworking, full of commitment, and you are pretty. Your smile bright my day, your eyes sparkle like the stars, you are so good. And I could feel that you also had the same feeling about me. However, this relationship cannot happen because I have a girlfriend and I know it's wrong to have this kind of feeling, but it's temporary, and now I can get myself together, and stop thinking about it. No matter what, I hope to see your smile every day, hear your voice every day, look into your bright eyes every morning. It makes me feel so happy. I hope we see each other again soon, not as lovers, but as 2 aquaintances who has the same feeling to each other.

Suicide!

This isn't really a confession about anything, but more like an announcement. I don't know if I will be able to continue this thing we called living any longer. I guess it like I'm running away but I don't think I can keep doing this so when I hit my 20th birthday, I think I'm going to kill myself. I think it gonna be the right thing to do because I'm pretty worthless and my life meant nothing so yea. Cheer to the next 2 months of my life.

Dear Lover/Third Person

We broke up a while ago, and I knew you with someone new. I knew that you had been in contact with them during our relationship. And, this is the act of cheating. Still, I couldn't bring myself to hate you, and I also took all the blame for myself even though you committed such an act to me. I always give you the benefit of the doubt. I know that you are still in love with me, then why you don't break up with them? Because they are treating you good right now? Oh yeah, you knew their past, they are well known as a cheater. I understand that they haven't done anything to you there is no point in breaking up with them. After knowing that fact, I am always worried about you. What if they did something bad to you? With all your problems are you able to handle the stress? We have been with one another for 2 and a half years, and I mean nothing to you? I always put you over myself. Yes, it is true in our relationship there is up and down. That is called a mature relationship it is not always fun. Dear Third Person, You should know what you had done. Karma is real, you have done that too many people. Your pretentious act will soon be exposed. You know a third person who stole someone else partner won't last long and I hope you understand that. Still many knew about you, yet you still acting the same. You ruined many people. Sheesh, What a person you are... You will receive your Karma.

Our story

Even the title is “ Our Story “ but you have no idea about it. I wrote it my own , you are the main lead who, the main actress which is me fell in love with every piece of mine whereas you don’t know you are the main lead who the main actress adore so much. No matter how cold or heartless you’ve been to her. You mean a lot to her and for you , we just mean to meet. I was a barely page in your book but you filled every space in mine. This is the end of the story that never start but here I am still admiring you from far apart.

My life was a mess ~

My life has been the whole mess until I met you. I’m so happy that I’m having you to stop me from giving up on my life. I was happy to continue my goal and pursue my higher degree. Then you suddenly left me hanging there while you already knew you’re the only person I go to whenever I have problems. You start talking to someone else while I can’t move on from you. I start to be unproductive at work. I lost my motivation to study. I no longer have any appetite. I mess up my sleeping schedule again. I start taking more and more medicine. I can’t do anything right. I can’t get my mind right on the track. I can no longer focus while riding or driving. I’m completely losing myself cuz I’ve been giving all myself to you and my feeling is depending on you. My life become miserable again. Whenever everyone ask what happened, I can’t answer, I can’t tell them what happened to me. Just mentioning I’m stressing out abt my work, while in fact I still want you back even though I know you don’t want to and already having someone new.

December 2015

There was a guy that catch my eyes back then during my parent working trip at KPS since 2015. Our eyes catch while I was on my way down the stair and it keep bothering me for around one year and thanks god in 2017 I can forget it because I was busy studying for my BACII . I never thought that we could meet again but in 2018 I end up working in the same place with him until now. I use to be someone who good at controlling myself when it comes to feeling and always try to calm myself down for these few years but lately it seem to be out of control and I cannot stop thinking about him. He keep looking at me when we meet and when our eyes meet my heart keep racing. I always trying to avoid but the more I try the more we accidentally meet. I just don't know what to do now...it's so confusing.....

The universe

An advice to KJO484 (Regret,Love). I'm just a stranger here, but if in your case, I'm probably the "you" you mentioned. Let's me give u this small advice, Leave him/her alone if you still dont know what to do with your feeling toward them. You mention your regret losing them and that you still love him/her, my dear, this is too late. If you knew their worth earlier, thing wouldn't be this way. I am not blaming you or anything but I'm pretty sure him/her is in a good place right now. If you still "dont know what to do", dear, do him/her a favor and not interrupt their peace. Your uncertainty will only bring the worst. If one day in the future, your heart remain the same and they too, universe will pull you together. Who know.

Right person at the wrong time

We met each other in October last year. I never thought we both could come across and fell for each other. We've been talking and dating for almost 4 months until I realized I was a third-person in her private relationship. Shocked and furious I was at that time but I couldn't say it out loud cuz I was already in love with her. I used to think that I'd settle down with this girl and see our future together cuz I was so sick of falling in love again and again. Things went south and I decided to walk away from her with an unbearable pain for 4 months after we compromised. The last message I wanted send to her was "You are the greatest dream that I've ever had but it's time for me to wake up now".