What am I to you?

I've been trying so hard these few months to win your heart but I feel so tired now. Someday you make me feel like you wanted me and another day u act like I'm nothing to you. Yeah I've changed a lot for you. From a girl who easily get mad to be a calm one because you never give a fu*ck about my feelings. You never care if I'm okay or not. What u said to me always so mean and I used to cry every night about that but still choose to forgive and text to you first in the next morning. You said you don't want to lose me but why I see no efforts at all to me ?. I don't mind to be just friend to you as long as you care about me but you seem not. I will not be able to move on now but I just wanted to remind you that maybe one day I can finally walk away because the patient is always under limited. I tried my best to keep you since the first day until now but if you still act like this sorry maybe I have to lose you to find me. Dear my little star! From me @your bestie 😊

Feeling bottled up?

Recommended Posts

2025-08-14

As if what I've ever done never enough for anyone

It's 12 a.m., I'm staring at the lamp right above my bed, trying to think of a reason why i never receive back the same effort i put on anyone. I've been in a relationship many times, and never in one of these have i ever feel like I'm receiving love from my significant other. I'm either abandoned, ghosted, or being taking for granted. There are lots of things in my chest that i just want to scream it all out right now, but i couldn't. I really wish my current relationship would last, but it seems like I'm being ignore more and more from one day to another. I'm really tired, I just don't understand why you treated me this way after I've give you everything I can. To my gf, I really hope you're not the "good boy ain't fun" type of girl, because I'm almost fed up right now. So done that one day i would walk away and never wish to ever see you again. Please, be good to me. I deserved to love too.

2025-08-14

Undeserved of Love

I was made to believe. I underserved of love - both from others and myself. 22 and never date not even once. I never understand the feeling of having another human soul connected to me cause whenever I feel good with someone, a part of me always whisper to my ear β€œyou pieces of shit and don’t deserve anybody’s love. How can a loser fall in love? Don’t you ever see urself in the mirror? How ugly u are? How dump u are? How helpless u are?” These questions always keep repeating day and night until now I started to believe I underserved of love both from others and myself. :)

2025-08-14

αžŸαž„αŸ’αžŸαžΆαžšαž€αŸ’αž“αž»αž„αž…αž·αžαŸ’αž

αžšαžΆαž›αŸ‹αž‘αž„αŸ’αžœαžΎαž”αž„αž’αŸ’αžœαžΎαž‚αŸ’αžšαž”αŸ‹αž™αŸ‰αžΆαž„αž€αŸ’αž“αž„αž“αžΆαž˜αžαŸ’αžšαžΉαž˜αž‡αžΆαž”αŸ’αž’αžΌαž“αžšαž”αžŸαŸ‹αž”αž„ αž€αŸ†αžŠαžšαž”αž„αž–αŸ’αžšαŸ„αŸ‡αž–αŸαž›αž“αŸαŸ‡αž”αž„αž“αŸ…αž†αŸ’αž„αžΆαž™αž–αžΈαžŸαž„αŸ’αžŸαžΆαžšαž”αž„ αž€αŸαž˜αž·αž“αžŠαŸ‚αž›αž˜αžΆαž“αž”αŸ†αžŽαž„αž”αŸ†αž”αŸ‚αž€αž”αŸ†αž”αžΆαž€αŸ‹αž”αž„αž–αžΈαž‚αŸ αž˜αžΆαž“αžαŸ’αžšαžΉαž˜αžαŸ‚αž…αž·αžαŸ’αžαžŸαŸ’αžšαž›αžΆαž‰αŸ‹αž”αž„αžαŸ‚αž˜αŸ’αžαžΆαž„ αž’αžšαž‚αž»αžŽαžŠαŸ‚αž›αž˜αž·αž“αž—αŸ’αž›αŸαž…αžαŸ’αž„αŸƒαžαž½αž”αž€αŸ†αžŽαžΎαžαžšαž”αžŸαŸ‹αž”αŸ’αž’αžΌαž“αž˜αŸ’αž“αžΆαž€αŸ‹αž“αŸαŸ‡ αž’αžšαž‚αž»αžŽαž‡αžΆαž˜αž“αž»αžŸαŸ’αžŸαž‘αžΈαž˜αž½αž™αžŠαŸ‚αž›αž‡αžΌαž“αž–αžšαž”αŸ’αž’αžΌαž“ αž’αžšαž‚αž»αžŽαžŠαŸ‚αž›αž”αž„αž…αŸ†αžŽαžΆαž™αž–αŸαž›αžœαŸαž›αžΆαž‡αžΆαž˜αž½αž™αž”αŸ’αž’αžΌαž“αžαžΆαž˜αž–αžΆαž€αŸ’αž™αžŸαž“αŸ’αž™αžΆαžšαž”αžŸαŸ‹αž”αž„ αž“αŸ…αžαŸ‚αž‡αžΆαž€αŸ’αž˜αŸαž„αžαžΌαž…αž˜αŸ’αž“αžΆαž€αŸ‹αžšαž”αžŸαŸ‹αž”αž„ αž”αž„αžŸαž˜αŸ’αžŠαŸ‚αž„αžšαžΊαž˜αž·αž“αžŸαž˜αŸ’αžŠαŸ‚αž„αž”αŸ’αž’αžΌαž“αž˜αž·αž“αžŠαžΉαž„αž‘αŸ αžαŸ‚αžšαžΆαž›αŸ‹αž‘αž„αŸ’αžœαžΎαžŠαŸ‚αž›αž”αž„αž’αŸ’αžœαžΎαž–αŸαž›αž“αŸ…αž€αŸ’αž”αŸ‚αžšαž‚αŸ’αž“αžΆ αž”αŸ’αž’αžΌαž“αž–αž·αžαž‡αžΆαž˜αžΆαž“αžŸαŸαž…αž€αŸ’αžŠαžΈαžŸαž»αžαžŽαžΆαžŸαŸ‹ αž”αŸ’αž’αžΌαž“αžŠαžΉαž„αž…αŸ’αž”αžΆαžŸαŸ‹αžαžΆαž–αŸ’αžšαŸ†αžŠαŸ‚αž“αžšαž”αžŸαŸ‹αž”αŸ’αž’αžΌαž“αž“αŸ…αžαŸ’αžšαž„αŸ‹αžŽαžΆ αž”αŸ’αž’αžΌαž“αžŸαž»αŸ†αž‘αž»αž€αž”αž„αž“αŸ…αž€αŸ’αž“αž»αž„αž…αž·αžαŸ’αžαž”αŸ’αž’αžΌαž“αž”αž“αŸ’αžŠαž‘αŸ€αžαž…αž»αŸ‡ αž”αž„αž“αŸ…αžαŸ‚αž‡αžΆαž˜αž“αž»αžŸαŸ’αžŸαž˜αŸ’αž“αžΆαž€αŸ‹αžŠαŸ‚αž›αž”αŸ’αž’αžΌαž“αžˆαŸ„αž„αž˜αž·αž“αžŠαž›αŸ‹ αžαŸ‚αž”αŸ’αž’αžΌαž“αž“αŸ…αžαŸ‚αž”αŸ’αžšαžΆαžαŸ’αž“αžΆαž αžΎαž™αžŸαŸ’αžšαž›αžΆαž‰αŸ‹αž”αž„αžŠαžΌαž…αžŠαžΎαž˜ αž€αŸ’αžŠαžΈαžŸαž»αžαžšαž”αžŸαŸ‹αž”αž„αž‡αžΆαž€αŸ’αžŠαžΈαžŸαž»αžαžšαž”αžŸαŸ‹αž”αŸ’αž’αžΌαž“αž˜αŸ’αž“αžΆαž€αŸ‹αž“αŸαŸ‡αžŠαžΌαž…αž‚αŸ’αž“αžΆαŸ” αž–αžΈαž€αŸ’αž˜αŸαž„αžαžΌαž…αžšαž”αžŸαŸ‹αž”αž„αžŠαŸ‚αž›αžαŸ‚αž„αžαŸ‚αžŸαŸ’αžšαž›αžΆαž‰αŸ‹αž”αž„β­οΈβœŒοΈ

2025-08-14

πŸ₯‘

Sometimes, happiness is only a cloak to hide one sorrow.

2025-08-14

I thought I can love you enough to change you

I fought for you and I waited… I thought I could fix you. I chose you, again and again…. but you chose to be an immature man who refuse to communicate and be responsible for your own life. There is no commitment now. Be free. I will move on and love like I’ve never been hurt. I deserve better and I will grow to be a better person. You can go live and sort yourself out. Because this time, I choose to fight for my own happiness. The next man deserves the best of me, not what you put me through.

2025-08-14

αž αŸαžαž»αž’αŸ’αžœαžΈ?

αž αŸαžαž»αž’αŸ’αžœαžΈαž”αžΆαž“αž‡αžΆαžαŸ’αžšαžΌαžœαžŸαž½αžšαžŸαŸ†αž“αž½αžšαžαŸ’αž›αž½αž“αž―αž„αž‡αžΆαž…αŸ’αžšαžΎαž“αž”αŸ‚αž”αž“αŸαŸ‡? αž αŸαžαž»αž’αŸ’αžœαžΈαž–αŸ’αž™αžΆαž™αžΆαžšαž€αž›αŸαžŸαž›αŸ’αž’αŸ—αžŸαž˜αŸ’αžšαžΆαž”αŸ‹αž‚αŸαž’αŸ’αžœαžΎαž’αžΈ αž”αžΎαž‚αž„αŸ‹αžαŸ‚αž˜αžΆαž“αžšαžΏαž„αž˜αž€αžαŸ’αž˜αžΈαž‘αŸ€αž αžαžΎαž“αžΉαž„αž αžαŸ‹αž“αŸ…αžαŸ’αž„αŸƒαžŽαžΆαž˜αž½αž™αž‘αŸ? αžαžΎαž–αŸαž›αž“αŸ„αŸ‡αž‚αŸαž“αžΉαž„αž…αžΆαž”αŸ‹αž™αžΎαž„αž–αŸαž›αž™αžΎαž„αžšαž”αžΌαžαžŠαŸƒαž‘αŸ? αžαžΎαž˜αž€αž–αžΈαž‚αŸαž˜αž·αž“αž™αž€αž…αž·αžαŸ’αžαž‘αž»αž€αžŠαžΆαž€αŸ‹ រឺ αž™αžΎαž„αž˜αž·αž“αžŸαŸ†αžαžΆαž“αŸ‹ រឺ αž˜αž€αž–αžΈαž™αžΎαž„αžŸαŸ’αžšαž›αžΆαž‰αŸ‹αžŠαž›αŸ‹αžαŸ’αž“αžΆαž€αŸ‹αž…αž·αžαŸ’αžαž…αž„αŸ’αž’αŸ€αžαž–αŸαž€? αž˜αž·αž“αž˜αŸ‚αž“αž˜αž€αž–αžΈαžαŸ’αž™αž›αŸ‹αž‡αžΆαž’αŸ’αž“αž€αž”αž€αŸ‹αžŸαŸ’αž›αžΉαž€αžˆαžΊαž’αŸ„αž™αž‡αŸ’αžšαž»αŸ‡αž‘αŸ! αžŠαžΎαž˜αžˆαžΎαž‘αŸ…αžœαž·αž‰αž‘αŸαžŠαŸ‚αž›αžŠαž›αŸ‹αž–αŸαž›αž’αž“αž»αž‰αŸ’αž‰αžΆαžαž·αž’αŸ„αž™αžŸαŸ’αž›αžΉαž€αžˆαžΎαž…αžΆαž€αž‘αŸ…αŸ”

2025-08-14

Unexpected dream

Dear mystery man, I still remember the trace of your hands that was slowly embracing me into your arms. It was such a wholehearted moment that I ever experienced, even though it was just a dream. The moment you hugged me, I immediately felt warmth from you already. I do not understand why nor remember your face however, the touch that you gave me in that dream was the best thing that ever happened to me.

2025-08-14

....!!!!

αž–αž½αž€αž™αžΎαž„αž‘αžΆαŸ†αž„αž–αžΈαžšαž“αžΆαž€αŸ‹αžαŸ’αžšαž‘αž”αŸ‹αž˜αž€inrelationshipαžœαž·αž‰ αž”αŸ‰αž»αž“αŸ’αžαŸ‚αž’αŸ’αž“αž€αž˜αž·αž“αžŠαžΌαž…αž˜αž»αž“αž“αŸαžΆαŸ‡αž‘αŸαŸ” αž’αŸ’αž“αž€αž–αŸ’αžšαž„αžΎαž™αž“αžΉαž„αžαŸ’αž‰αž»αŸ†αžαŸ’αž›αžΆαŸ†αž„αžŽαžΆαžŸαŸ‹αŸ” αžαŸ’αž‰αž»αŸ†αžŠαžΉαž„αžαžΆαž–αŸαž›αžŠαŸ‚αžšαž–αž½αž€αž™αžΎαž„broke upαž’αŸ’αž“αž€αž€αŸαž’αŸ’αž›αžΆαž”αŸ‹αž˜αžΆαž“girlfriendsαžšαž αžΌαžαž˜αž€αŸ” αžŠαžΌαž…αŸ’αž“αŸαŸ‡αž αžΎαž™αž–αŸαž›αžŠαŸ‚αžšαž’αŸ’αž“αž€αžαŸ’αžšαžΌαžœαž‚αŸ’αž“αžΆαž‡αžΆαž˜αž½αž™αžαŸ’αž‰αž»αŸ†αžœαž·αž‰αž’αŸ’αž“αž€αž–αŸ’αžšαž„αžΎαž™αž“αžΉαž„αžαŸ’αž‰αž»αŸ† αž’αŸ’αž“αž€αž‚αž·αžαžαžΆαž˜αžΆαž“αžαŸ’αž‰αž»αŸ†αž€αŸαž”αžΆαž“ αž’αžαŸ‹αžαŸ’αž‰αž»αŸ†αž€αŸαž”αžΆαž“αŸ” αžαŸ’αž‰αž»αŸ†αžŠαžΉαž„αžαžΆαž‘αŸαžΆαŸ‡αž‡αžΆαžαŸ’αž‰αž»αŸ†αž“αž·αž™αžΆαž™αž…αŸ’αžšαžΎαž“ αž€αŸαž’αžαŸ‹αž”αŸ’αžšαž™αŸ„αž‡αž“αŸαžŠαŸ‚αžš αž–αŸ’αžšαŸ„αŸ‡αž–αžΆαž€αŸ’αž™αžŸαž˜αŸ’αžŠαžΈαžαŸ’αž‰αž»αŸ†αž›αŸ‚αž„αžŸαŸ†αžαžΆαž“αŸ‹αžŸαž˜αŸ’αžšαžΆαž”αŸ‹αž’αŸ’αž“αž€αžŠαžΌαž…αž˜αž»αž“αž‘αŸ€αžαž αžΎαž™αŸ” αž‚αŸ’αžšαž”αŸ‹αž™αŸ‰αžΆαž„αž‡αžΆαž€αŸ†αž αž»αžŸαžšαž”αžŸαŸ‹αžαŸ’αž‰αž»αŸ† αž‘αžΎαž”αžšαžΏαž„αžšαŸ‰αžΆαžœαžœαžΆαž”αŸ‚αž”αž“αŸαŸ‡αŸ”αžαŸ’αž‰αž»αŸ†αžαŸ‚αž„αžαŸ‚αž‚αž·αžαžαžΆαž’αŸ’αž“αž€αž“αž·αž„αžαŸ’αž‰αž»αŸ†αž“αžΉαž„αž’αžΆαž…αž†αŸ’αž›αž„αž€αžΆαžαŸ‹αž‚αŸ’αžšαž”αŸ‹αž§αž”αžŸαž‚αŸ’αž‚ αžαžŸαŸŠαžΌαž‡αžΆαž˜αž½αž™αž‚αŸ’αž“αžΆ αž€αžΆαž“αŸ‹αžŠαŸƒαž‚αŸ’αž“αžΆαžŠαž›αŸ‹αžαŸ’αž„αŸƒαž’αž“αžΆαž‚αž αž”αŸ‰αž»αž“αŸ’αžαŸ‚αž˜αž·αž“αžŠαžΉαž„αžαžΆαž’αžΆαž…αž‘αŸ…αžšαž½αž…αž”αŸ’αž‰αž’αžαŸ‹αž‘αŸ αž–αŸ’αžšαŸαžΆαŸ‡αž’αŸ’αž“αž€αž˜αž·αž“αžŸαžΌαžœαž’αžΎαž–αžΎαž“αžΉαž„αžαŸ’αž‰αž»αŸ†αžŠαžΌαž…αž˜αž»αž“αžŸαŸαžΆαŸ‡αŸ” αž’αŸ’αž“αž€αžαŸ‚αž„αž“αž·αž™αžΆαž™αžαžΆαž’αŸ’αž“αž€αž“αžΉαž„αž˜αž·αž“αž‘αŸ…αžŽαžΆαž…αŸαžΆαž›αžαŸ’αž‰αž»αŸ†αž‘αŸ αžαŸ’αž‰αž»αŸ†αž“αžΉαž„αž…αžΆαŸ†αž˜αžΎαž›αžαžΆαžαžΎαž‘αž„αŸ’αžœαžΎαž’αŸ’αž“αž€αžŠαžΌαž…αž–αžΆαž€αŸ’αž™αžŸαž˜αŸ’αžŠαžΈαž’αŸ’αž“αž€αžŠαŸ‚αžšαž‘αŸ!αž”αŸ‰αž»αž“αŸ’αžαŸ‚αž”αžΎαžŸαž·αž“αž’αŸ’αž“αž€αž“αŸ…αž€αŸ’αž”αŸ‚αžšαžαŸ’αž‰αž»αŸ†αž’αŸ’αž“αž€αž˜αž·αž“αž˜αžΆαž“αž€αŸ’αžŠαžΈαžŸαž»αž αž˜αž·αž“αžŸαž”αŸ’αž”αžΆαž™αž…αž·αžαŸ’αžαžŠαžΌαž…αž˜αž»αž“αž αžΎαž™αž’αŸ’αž“αž€αž…αž„αŸ‹αžαŸ’αžšαž‘αž”αŸ‹αž‘αŸ…αžšαž€αž‚αŸαžœαž·αž‰ αž’αŸ’αž“αž€αž€αŸαž”αŸ’αžšαžΆαž”αŸ‹αžαŸ’αž‰αž»αŸ†αžαŸ’αžšαž„αŸ‹αŸ—αž˜αž€!!!αž”αžΎαž’αŸ’αž“αž€αžŸαŸ’αžšαž‘αžΆαž‰αŸ‹αžαŸ’αž‰αž»αŸ†αž–αž·αž αž’αŸ’αž“αž€αž€αž»αŸ†αž›αžΆαž€αŸ‹αž”αžΆαŸ†αž„αž“αžΉαž„αžαŸ’αž‰αž»αŸ† αž€αž»αŸ†αž€αž»αž αž€αžαŸ’αž‰αž»αŸ† αž€αž»αŸ†αž€αŸ’αž”αžαŸ‹αžαŸ’αž‰αž»αŸ† αž€αž»αŸ†αž…αŸ‚αž€αž…αžΆαž™αž€αŸ’αžŠαžΈαžŸαŸ’αžšαž‘αžΆαž‰αŸ‹αž±αŸ’αž™αž“αžΆαžšαžΈαžŠαž‘αŸƒ(αž€αž»αŸ†friendly with girlsαž–αŸαž€) αž˜αžΆαž“αžšαžΏαž„αž’αŸ’αžœαžΈαžαŸ’αžšαžΌαžœαžŸαž½αžšαž“αžΆαŸ†αž‚αŸ’αž“αžΆ αž›αžΎαž€αž›αŸ‚αž„αž±αŸ’αž™αž‚αŸ’αž“αžΆαž‘αŸ…αžœαž·αž‰αž‘αŸ…αž˜αž€ αž•αŸ’αžŠαž›αŸ‹αž–αŸαž›αžœαŸαž›αžΆαž²αŸ’αž™αž‚αŸ’αž“αžΆαžαžΆαž˜αžŠαŸ‚αžšαž’αžΆαž…αž’αŸ’αžœαžΎαž‘αŸ…αž”αžΆαž“...!!αž αžΎαž™αžαŸ’αž‰αž»αŸ†αžŸαž„αŸ’αžƒαžΉαž˜αžαžΆαž–αž½αž€αž™αžΎαž„αž“αžΉαž„αž’αžΆαž…fix what happened in the past.αž αžΎαž™αžšαž€αŸ’αžŸαžΆαž‘αŸ†αž“αžΆαž€αŸ‹αž‘αŸ†αž“αž„αž˜αž½αž™αž“αŸαŸ‡αž²αŸ’αž™αž›αŸ’αž’αž”αŸ’αžšαžŸαžΎαžš! #αž–αžΈαž˜αž“αž»αžŸαŸ’αžŸαžŸαŸ’αžšαžΈαž˜αŸ’αž“αžΆαž€αŸ‹αžŠαŸ‚αžšαž’αŸ’αž›αžΆαž”αŸ‹αž’αŸ’αžœαžΎαžαž»αžŸαžŠαžΆαž€αŸ‹αž’αŸ’αž“αž€ αž’αŸ’αž›αžΆαž”αŸ‹αž’αŸ’αžœαžΎαž²αŸ’αž™αž’αŸ’αž“αž€αžˆαžΊαž…αžΆαž”αŸ‹!!